Today’s Reflection ~ End of months needs ~ 4/26

 

W O W.

I don’t recall feeling this exhausted.  This repelled/repulsed from this realm.

The pressure within is immense.

The need to GET OUT OF HERE N O W – intense.  Crying isn’t helping (other than release the excess).  Powering up – not really helping atm.

Apparently there was one of those “full mune” things last night.  Kept us all up longer than we wanted to.

I know there are still some who honor these full mune cycles.  I respect that – but I don’t understand – especially when we know that ship or projection or whatever it is up there has been used against us.  As I have shared here – when I used to give it my feminine energy – it felt supportive (if a little bit dark though – I just didn’t pay attention to that quiet nudge within back then as I knew TO do).  But when I began to question it – you know when I stopped being a fully trusting little innocent puppy dog and powered up and found my Discernment Inner Power and began to question what it really was and why we could only see just one sisde – my experience with it changed.  It began to feel dark – controlling – monitoring.

Love does not operate that way.  If it were a truly benign benevolent object – it wouldn’t create that experience.  And if it were a conscious object that is here to serve it would not hide.

Last night I had no clue it was full.  I thought it was perhaps halfway so when I looked up and saw it – I knew then why we were struggling to sleep and rest.  I went to bed and did my protection and intended for ease with my sleep.  Didn’t work.

But I continue doing my thing no matter what is thrown at me.

And today – I have had enough thrown at me to poke me at those basic levels – those issues that most create a sense of panic and fear within.

And the ONLY “lesson” (fake fake fake) in all of that is knowing I have the ability to see control and evil.  And I reject it and Own My Power.

When I did crawl out of bed I looked outside and said “I don’t recognize this place anymore”.  The clarity with that was new and it kind of scared me.  Fitting in is no longer an option.  If things don’t shift, then running away from signs of jabbed sleeping whatever’s is next.  Something within me has shifted and pulled further away.  My mate is feeling the same.  I have spoken to and seen others saying the struggle today is V E R Y intense.

End of the month is here.  Funds are low.  As I posted yesterday, I now have a “MERCH” store.  And donations are also so helpful, appreciated and requested from all who are able.

For now I am going to sleep and rest until the need passes.

Let me know how you’re doing.

Love,

Victoria

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