Exhausted.
Not knowing what to do – what to think.
Do I continue to wait?
Do I try and sell off some things so we can get the money we need for medical stuff and moving? (we have a coin collection we’re looking into selling – if anyone is into that let me know)
Our electric bill arrived. Did not see that coming. A first. Almost $300. It has been much colder than usual and we have to keep a heater running on our washing machine in the garage on freezing nights (which have been a lot – and unusual) so water doesn’t freeze up. The cost per day jumped almost $3/day since last year. Cable is up. Water is up $35. I don’t know how we’re going to keep doing this.
What do I trust?
WHO do I trust?
My own brain – mind – seems to be all over the place. Pretty numb – too much trauma – too many challenges and hits.
Taking care of practical things.
No one knows how long this plays out.
No one knows anything truly solid other than two situations are playing out and I keep pulling myself back in focused on the one feel and desire that never leaves me: EXIT.
But….. I am also focused on making a better life here now and get pretty disgusted when others say you can’t play the game in both timelines. It is absolutely possible and understandable that anyone who wants a new reality can also do all they need to do here to have a GOOD LIFE until.
So it can be hard to know how much an AI simulation can mess with us and implant things/thoughts we think and even perhaps feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel are our own but aren’t.
Discernment in full would be very welcomed now – more than it ever has.
Anyway, extra $$ help at this time is very much appreciated and needed.
Love,
V.
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Hi Victoria
I feel for you as I have been there at times…I do listen to Rose and all that info is good to know..but the reality is we don’t know when and if we leave this crazy place…we don’t have to participate in some things that make up the matrix…as I still work and make money. It makes my life much easier to handle the day to day bills and such. Do what you have to..to make your life peaceful.. I think it is wrong for peeps to tell us not to work or participate because then we might get pushed off our Stair.
That is not true..our real true father does not want us starving or unable to pay fir our needs. I do believe some of what we are told about the game or 🎬 that we are here to play. But I also do what I need to do to make my life comfortable while we wait for whatever the fuck we are waiting for…
Maybe find some job in your area to pass the time and make a paycheck..it would help you find new friends and alleviate the financial burden.
I hope that things get better for you and your family
Love Kathie
well if there weren’t the jabberwackie issue and if my mate were able to get around on his own, that would be possible. and i actually do have a job – running this website (plus caring for our daughter, running the household, assisting my mate), which you are allowed to enjoy for free – but you can make a different choice by donating a bit now and then. i never ask for much even though i know my worth and the value of my work – just everyone who is a regular to pay me what you can afford now and then.