10/16/20 Reflection & Finds

 

I am laughing as I write this:  My ability to add and subtract in my checkbook is just not happening.  I used to have an accountant brain.  I loved numbers.  I actually enjoyed balancing my checkbook.  I would curl up on the couch with a cup of tea, calculator, checkbook and statement and get busy.  Today?  I struggle to use the calculator – hands are floppy weird some days which ends up with me pressing buttons I didn’t intend.  And then there are the moments when I rely on my brain power alone to add and subtract.

Tonight I had to order some shoes for my girl.  Her feet have grown rapidly over the summer and we realized what she has doesn’t fit – other than her sandals and she can’t wear those during the colder weather.  The challenge I had placing the order then figuring out the numbers in my checkbook left me scattered.

3D matrix doings becoming even more challenging.  This frigging better have either a shift or some much needed healing tech.  My brain functioning with such tedious tasks is no longer symbiotic.  Somewhere in the cosmos I am composing amazing music and having fantastic adventures.  That’s what I tell myself when I find myself really struggling with certain cognitive tasks.

I noticed today when I had a couple of “me and only me” moments –  outside – when I had nothing but silence.  It was like a breath of new life flowed into me and I could think straight.  So part of it is that – needing many more of those moments where I only have one thing in which to focus on.  I could write a comical piece on tonight’s adventure in shoe ordering. My child was next to me on the bed with nothing but a tape measurer at her disposal – and an active mind and tons of energy.  I kept having to ask her to hush so I could F O C U S.

When I begin to lament on the possibility these brain issues are all due to the mama brain and aging brain issues – I think to others with whom I speak having the same challenges who are either not parents or if they are they are 20 plus years younger than I am and are perplexed at how they are so absolutely scattered these days – unable to be anywhere except in the full moment – forgetting what they ate for lunch that day or what they just said 10 minutes ago.

I tried to do more today but still had the feeling to just SIT and LET GO. However, waiting isn’t aligning so I’ve made a couple of new steps to do NEW – here –  now.  I will see how that plays out.

I want to share a very serene moment I had this morning.  Yesterday as I (think) I shared her last night was a challenging day for a few reasons.  I went to bed earlier than usual and slept hard for about 7 hours straight.  I woke up early morning, heated up my warming buddies and as I returned to sleep, I tuned in and worked with my energy and inner dialogue.  At the moment I am drawing a blank on what I said to assist myself – but I do remember the feeling was wonderful.  I was able to lift myself up and out of the murk/energy of trauma.  I felt, well, ME – the ME I know I am and the ME I am becoming.  As I shared with one of you recently, it has been my feeeeeel lately that the energy of trauma was designed to “stick” – using that reptilian brain code of theirs – which is why it is so challenging to totally and I mean TOTALLY heal from trauma.  I don’t know of anyone who has had a traumatic experience and the energy around it completely removed – as in no more issues with it – no more triggers – nothing.  It’s like there are layers of energy – depending upon the trauma.  And that, IMHO, ain’t part of our Original Design/experience.

Donations have dropped off quite a bit in the last several months – which I understand.  This “lockdown” has impacted us all – some far more than others – especially economically.  I still ask though if any of you can afford a few dollars, please consider donating for the work I do.  All go to living expenses.  (although I’d love to have extra for that 2 week beach vacation I continue to envision – not that anything is open in our area – at least not without having to wear a mask and that ain’t happening)

So…..for now, I leave you with some finds of interest.

Love to you all ~

Victoria

So….first of all I forgot I wanted to share this one.  The other night my girl and I watched Contact.  I mentioned here a few others were also drawn this week to do the same.  There is one image that literally flashes on the screen – so quickly you essentially miss it.  It occurs once Ellie is off on her travels in the craft and we see the image below flash right before she gets drawn back into another wormhole.  So we paused it (took several times to do that) and I took a photo.  Very interesting.  It’s a series of panels – stacked upon one another.  It is perhaps a disclosure of the construct here.  Anyway, sharing it as well as offering up an interesting comparison someone captured on one of the NASA cams this week:

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NASA CAM CAPTURE:

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Things to make ya go hmmm….

And here’s another thing to make ya reflect – a sun/sky capture I was suddenly guided to take as I enjoyed another beautiful day outside.  It is possible this is some sort of a lens smudge – but that object above the sun is very circular…..

 

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breaking it down:

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movie humor:

more movie humor:

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This is a first:

WATCH: President Trump Tells Crowd He 100% Agrees With ‘Lock Her Up Chant’

BREAKING: RNC Files FEC Complaint Against Big Tech Oligarchs for Censorship of the Hunter Biden Emails Reports

 

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Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator.

One thought on “10/16/20 Reflection & Finds”

  1. So excited by your post today! One of my friends saw a double sun this week (nw uk) could not capture it! Feeling things are really ramping up to come to a close ✨🌟✨

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