Well I certainly had a lot more energy yesterday. Today I am back to feeling drained of everything – including motivation. I am fully in the moment now – when I look to the future of something I “plan” to do – I know I cannot schedule things for it really now depends on how I am doing/feeling that day and in that moment. Likely explains my desire to be finished with calendars and clocks and I emphasis FINISHED.
Speaking with others in my neighborhood and all are saying the same: anxiety elevated. Foggy brain – totally in the moment – unable to recall what was done or said in previous hours or even minutes.
I tuned in to the election – and again – I just don’t feel it. Today I felt there is no energy to support it – certainly not the way we have done “elections” in the past here. I tuned in to 2016 – completely different energetic space. It is all so clear to many now that we are watching a movie – combining comedy and outrageous behavior along with off-the-chart drama (that is quite comical in certain scenes).
I was also drawn to re-read The Last President – the ending. The speak of the house is calling for the President to relieve himself of his duties for the survival of the republic. However, the capitol dome is blown up. There is truth in that book indeed. That “explosion” is a metaphor for things that are ending and perhaps even the solar flash.
People are leaving. Eddie Van Halen left us today as did Johnny Nash (singer of “I can see clearly now” – a favorite). What’s interesting along that thought is the dream I had last night. I was surrounded by guitarists – including Stevie Ray Vaughan – who I noticed was singing one of the songs I composed over 20 years ago. An arranger stepped in and added some guitar riffs and a rhythm guitar and I was blown away how awesome the song suddenly sounded. As I was leaving the experience, some young guy walked by me off to the right – long, brown feathered hair that he tossed back.
Amazing.
I feel I have been tuning in to what I want to do next. Prepping myself. I know music is at the top of the list. That world would not have had room for someone like myself or anyone who would not be willing to sell out no matter how big or small.
How are all of you feeling/doing and what are you experiencing?
Love,
Victoria
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Thank you all for your love and support!
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I felt soo tired today, had to lay down and took a nearly 2 hour nap. Groggy, drained also.
I feel like we are drifting through energy eddies.
I am very drained working on late income taxes ugh! dreaming of freedom!