Did any of you sleep last night? I was very tired/sleepy when I went to bed – but once there, I was wired. I was perplexed. How did I go from 0 to 10 on the sleepy scale? Eventually I crawled out of bed and went to get something to drink. I noticed a light coming inside through the blinds so I peeked outside. Noooooo. Not THAT again, I thought. Their moon at it – high in the sky – almost full – saying lookit me lookit me – sending out obnoxious frequencies of some sort.
No thank you. I am so sensitive to that dayem thing now. So is my girl (her sleep was just as challenged). So are a lot of us now. Why can’t you just shut off or at least be full during the day, I asked. There’s also some eclipse coming up too same day as the full moon. How convenient. I will ignore it as best as I can.
Not. My. Creation. I would never create something that disrupts sleep. Or pokes. Or attacks. You know – cause I’m a decent sort of human in that regard.
eye roll….
After I returned to bed, I slept in fits. Too hot – or too cool. Dreams were – strange. Not mine.
What here now IS ours, truly? Where here really does now fully resonate as being authentic (other than us and our connections)? So distraction continues as I don’t know what else to do. As I saw two other beautiful goddess Souls say today: Barely hanging on. Ditto that!
I am tuning in to see how we can better support one another and am thinking of an idea – private group somewhere – likely telegram – where we support one another in whatever it is we need. What do you all think about that? I’m feeling the need to make that more of a focus now instead of what’s happening “out there” as what’s happening “out there” feels like it’s pretty much out of my hands/control.
One of the ways I am creating some positive while engaged in distraction is baking – bread baking. I want to get good at it. I want to master knowing how to make that perfect loaf of artisan bread – crunchy dark crust with moist center (that is done – which I am seeing is likely a temperature thing). I’m close. Today I learned how to make it rise better on a cookie sheet. And next time I know the temp I will be using.
That’s about all I have today. Body temp is still strange – well feeling those moments of WHEW MY CELLS ARE HOT. Mate too. Then it disappears and I’m back to neutral. Will share finds later.
Love to you all.
Victoria
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Okay, wow. Same exact experience with the lack of sleep last night. I didn’t get to sleep until this morning, and ended up sleeping until one in the day out of exhaustion. And I have that same restless feeling inside, but no motivation to do anything, because there’s nothing here I can DO. I am literally stuck in waiting (Sitting?) mode while things that are beyond my control play out. I will, I focus, I intend – and it doesn’t change anything or speed up results. So… I Sit. And wait. That’s all I can do. 🤷🏻♀️
I don’t want to be here. Not one more day, not one more minute. But clearly, my intent to change that is either being overridden or ignored, consistently (because I HAVE tried every day and night for three years to get OUT and wake up from the sim world). My attempts to change even the smallest things in my daily life aren’t working, or at best, getting held up over and over. So… At the risk of sounding defeatist, I give up. If I had control over anything, it would be different. Better. Right now. It isn’t. None of it. My prayers have also gone unanswered. While others get at least some answered, some of the time – me, not so much. Oh-kay. Not sure where to go from that. 😕
I’ve been trying to reach out and support you and others on Gab with common experiences and feels and readings, but I’m not sure how much I’ll have to say if this continues much longer. Really trying to stay positive at least about the exit, but it’s hard.
ah sweetie – i know. i am feeling the same as you know – waiting. last night when i was suddenly awake – i was thinking about that – waiting. and asking for guidance and not getting sheot, overall, atm. i get the little nudges with the gematria and that’s a fun little moment – but it doesn’t C H A N G E my reality. i don’t wake up and see that NEW WORLD “the plan” peeps and others have told us is coming. … the support group i was thinking if someone needs extra prayers of protection or a place to live or whatever – specific needs – a group of us together may be able to help. or whatever it is people need. lol yeah like anyone can help us get out of here – that is the biggest need now for many of us isn’t it??! last night i reminded my mate i’ve wanted to go home/get out of this place for 15 years. i went from “ok i don’t feel like i belong here – where the hell am i?” growing up – on occasion – to around the year 2005/6 simply wanting out. i am there with you in that feel/desire and soul fatigue. thank you always for your honesty. your words are support to me as they help validate my own experience. some days that is a lifeline!
🙏💕 Hugs, and thanks. I try my best. I know you do too. Much love, sis.
Im up for that, add me in whenever on Telegram.
I reciprocate most of what you guys have said also, sitting in a bubble of limbo. Feel like our goldfish sometimes behind glass looking out.
I am dying to get out a blast on my Fireblade and jump to warp but the weather is utter garbage, cold, damp and dreary….totally fake sky, plus, the vaxxidents are ramping up (have you noticed?) and I just don’t trust anyone else out there not to have a sudden heart attack while driving and plough across the road and wipe me out. There are a few cars lying in ditches or hedges round where I live which have clearly been folk just went straight on at a junction or whatever after succumbing! Must have been smoking a fat one at the time eh!?! to borrow your expression again lol…..EYE ROLL!!
Cheers
B