I don’t have it in me atm to dive in and see what’s going on. I am really struggling today (and I have heard from many who are feeling the same). I was up a lot last night – weeping – wanting my tribe – wanting my community – wanting what I, well, WANT and not just want but NEED. This lack of social connection is taking a serious toll on my mental health. I have my mate and my child and that is something I am very grateful for – and many of you to talk with – but I need a FRIEND I CAN TOUCH AND SEE. A friend I can talk with in person and hug. Oh my gosh that need to hug another is near overwhelm. (i thought about making a sign saying “IN NEED OF A HUG? ME TOO. KNOCK TO RECEIVE” and put it on my front window) I need to sit with a friend without any damn distance or stupid face diapers and just talk and laugh and hug. You know? Like NORMAL people. I need this so much! I could feel it last night and for a few moments I thought – this is it – my mind is going to crack. But of course it didn’t and I go on as I always do.
But I have to say – my heart feels very heavy like a weight is around it and my left eye is twitching so I know that means my body is under serious stress. Everything I do is a distraction now for what I want and need. I honestly don’t know how much longer I can be surrounded by mask wearing idiots. Today I was walking around saying “Go on and get your vaccine! I heard great things about it!” Why? Because the sooner they are gone from my experience the better off I am. They have a right to their experience – I have a right to mine. And I cannot control when I get triggered now – just what I do with those emotions. I never thought hell would include masked entities all around you with BLM signs saying we will talk with you once we have our vaccine.
Well, they can have that. I give them my blessing for a good life with that.
The time for the split is SO NOW. SO SO SO NOW.
UGH! No – I left UGH last week. Today’s word? I M P O S S I B L E.
So……..Where is a good affordable quiet safe rural mask-free place? We are back to looking for that pot of gold.
I also have spent a good amount of time screamin’ at God. Where is this Divine Loving Force? The piece of it in me is calling for the whole Lot of it to get in here and blast this realm with LOVE FREQUENCIES. The piece of that Consciousness in me is screaming for the experience here to come to its rightful end.
Holding the line and researching and sharing with those who have yet to see – I feel no energy in that. Feels much like things do at the WH in DC – just dead. So let’s bury it all already, shall we?
Love,
V.
God isn’t to blame !
We Are ! All of us !
When we have no answer we tend to place blame on God or it’s adversary!
And if one or the other cannot come to our rescue. How do many so called Christians say this (it is Gods will)
As if God would do this ?
Am following A Course in Miracles these day & it’s a tremendous relief, yes , to all of it . Best regards Victoria & Family
i didn’t create this particular prison matrix. neither did you. i would not look to you or any other heart-centered human here and cast blame on them – i put that responsibility on those who created this prison – which we need help getting out of it. and i don’t have the tech to take out dimensional entities who have fed off of us, do you? (i was into the course in miracles in the 90’s and just did not align with it. all of my searching has lead me to know i find truth within and comfort from my fellow humans.)
Also struggling, hard-core. In a way I can talk to no one about, except here. So thanks for opening up and allowing us this space to do the same. 🙏 After reading a comment from Rose that implied we’d be here at least 30 more days, I lost it. I binge ate until I was sick and then dissociated, just blanked out. It’s gotten so bad, I want to go ahead and die, because I NEED OUT. NOW. Apparently this is a common feeling right now – I felt led back to Anmarie Uber’s channel after a long time away and lo and behold, if she didn’t have a video up about the matrix hitting us real souls right now with suicide and martyr programs (or bombarding us with so much crap we physically want to die to get relief). It’s trying to break us before we break it, or at least get rid of us by kicking us on out. So that might be what’s behind the struggle, beyond the very real human need for companionship and warmth and understanding that’s not getting met, amplifying the despair. As if isolation wasn’t bad enough. 😓 For all our sakes, this needs to be done. I do hope you find a friend closeby in the meantime. 💜
i am going to have to check her out – going within and all of that foo foo stuff just isn’t working. we need each other. !
Yup……besides the whole ascension/kundalini/spiritual awakening that was the shit-show of 2020 for me (actually started in 11/2019 now that I have that “20/20” hindsight, a true love/hate feeling for it) this current Mercury retrograde is wreaking havoc on my Gemini Pleiadian self.
Holy moly! YES, YES, YES. I know for me it’s been the see-sawing/ ping-pong/ back and forth game from hell that has been the biggest struggle for me. Meaning, at the end of 2020 I was bent on trying to embrace Oneness; the whole spirituality and viewpoint of “they know not what they do”. BUT… in accordance to your second paragraph here, and this last week of January, my tolerance is finally GONE, gonzo, outta here baby! Like you mention, I can no longer stand for or tolerate willful ignorance, “fear” (no, it’s you using this plandemic as a way to justify your lazy and shitty ways) or just plain stupidity. The mask wearing idiots (hello dumbf**ks, if the CDC says something you buy off of a spinner rack in a gas station can suffice as protection, clearly it’s crap) are purely zombiefied in the brain. Those that think social-f**king-distancing (like the world needed more separatism) does a damn thing, because (if it was a real thing) walking where someone just was, or as since day 1, walking around a crowded Walmart or other corporate box store where everything is being spread throughout in an enclosed ventilation system, well……I have some common sense for you. AND, do NOT, and I repeat, don’t even try having a conversation filled with a plethora of facts, common sense and everything that destroys their entire argument, that only pisses them off more. It’s not even about the “virus” any more, it’s about those idiots having to see and admit that they’ve been fools for a long ass time. And don’t even get me started about BLM. As long as they keep making it about color, or race, or social status, or whatever the excuse of the day is, and NOT about taking f**king accountability for one’s own self and actions, what you “want” will never matter. And I have been thinking the same thing, about the split. It needs to happen NOW!!! I’m towing a and holding the line for these people. And no, when we begin to experience our Utopia that we have so suffered and worked for, that’s a hard NO to those 3D cattle that want to join. NOPE, now YOU get to go through your own dark night of the soul, and actually EARN your right to exist. But I digress, and could go on and on, but hopefully you get my point. I just stumbled across your site today, btw. How I never saw it before I’m surprised. Expect a donation from me. Keep on keeping on!
thank you for your authenticity and honesty. i appreciate it! and many moments i feel the same. those of us who are awake, overall, are just TIRED! and thank you for the donation too! 🙂
You’re welcome.