2.18.24 ~ Checking in with reflecting and a few finds

 

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I read something online – someone I follow – that has me deeply. triggered. today.  I don’t know how to let it go or shake it, tbh.  I see the above – it means something – giving me the power – ultimately – and I also know where I am now – more or less – and how things work.  This woman was saying she just doesn’t have it in her to take all of the help that’s being offered her – she’s energetically spent and done – however, help has come her way – help which includes promotion and means to make money – as well as people in her comment section saying they are sending her money because she’s a spiritual warrior in this battle (which she is – but also has sensitivities that make being “out there” in battle very challenging some ways – which I understand)….. And yet she is in need – great need – her tribe stepped in to help in the ways she needed.

Pretty much every. thing. I. have. been. seeking and asking. for. in. very. specific. terms.  Seems the more I request – the more disconnected I feel – and experience.  I mean yes – I receive support here.  Thank you so much to those who do support my work.  You have allowed me to provide food for my family.  I value each of you for your generosity and support.  That said, I’m under no illusion that many who come here are quiet – take the information – and leave nothing behind – not even a share.  I see the numbers.

But this woman – fellow spiritual warrior – has that love come her way but she doesn’t want to accept it.

Where am I?  lol  Seriously – What kind of a reality is this place where something like this would happen?  Inverted and twisted leaving me with my head spinning, my heart aching – and my mind screaming with this rage.  Yeah, as my spouse is telling me – the matrix is attacking you – knows how to poke – knows your triggers – just breath and let it go.

Yes.  My trigger.  But – I also pause and consider.  Is it only the matrix doing this or am I also being guided to see something that still needs healed?  I like to think my highest guidance wants me to heal and is far more brilliant than some AI program.  And perhaps this warrior soul above is also being guided to heal something in her that rejects love.

My wounds – getting triggered.  The need to feel safe and be seen.  My love languages.  To know I matter.  Tonight I asked myself – do I really love myself.  Do I really know what love really is?  What does it feel like – how do I carry it – how do I live it – be it – allow for it.  I came up with something – over the following 2 hours or so after reading the original post that got me so worked up:  We Grow With Love.  We Grow In Love.  and We Grow Because OF Love.

Nothing more.

I am a work in progress.

Something switched in the last 48 hours.

It’s become more – what is it – unfamiliar.

More – intolerable?

The energy of ugh is constant – even if pushed away or quiet – it’s still there.  Something’s up – something’s amping up.  Feeeeeeeeeeeeeels.

Panic and anxiety have been a challenge.

Things I normally do w/o issue – there is the anxiety popping in to say knock knock -helloooooooooo.

I push it back.

I say, “nope – not today – not me – that’s the old me”.

It’s a continuous battle now.  For me.  For others too I see.

Trying to be the strong one – the one who says WE GOT THIS.  Come on tribe – hang in there with me – keep going.

But man – jesus – today – I want to hide in my room and just stay there until this passes.  Have a few meltdowns.  Eat some chocolate.

And then take the Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep mudder flipping fracking frooking twit twat breathe and move. on.

Had a couple of quiet “knowing’s” earlier when I was having some moments of clarity – HA lol – Assange is the original Anon and Jesus – the original Neo.  I already had felt that about Jesus a few years ago (or whatever his name was or who he – maybe even she – was) – but today got clearer.  It’s the anti-virus to the matrix simulation – spreading throughout – touching our hearts – reminding us of who we really are and that this place – the frequency here – the systems – aren’t us.  Hence the term “worship jesus” really means take the proverbial red pill and be the cure for the virus here.  Crash the system.  (evil of course hijacked that by inserting fear programs – making it about worship and sin and if you don’t you get to hang out for eternity in dat der lake o fire)

Because God loves you so.  🙄😂

Thank you, Carlin, for putting that one inside this place – allowing millions of us to see the hypocrisy of religion.

Here’s what I’m seeing.

Love,

V.

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mebbe………..i can see that……………still feeeeeeeeeeeeels unpleasant when i struggle to figure out how to buy my girl spring/summer clothes……….that $400 amount has to be for the entire year……….

 

 

EXCLUSIVE: Pentagon Forces Army Reserve Troops in Midwest to Conduct Mock Exercise with Gov. Abbott’s “Drowning Migrants in the Rio Grande” and Texas Soldier Shooting Swimming Migrants Yelling “America First“ — A Violation of HATCH Act

 

we’ll see how this works out………..when i see such things, after i push through the “this will only hurt the real people – the evil twats can get on their jets and go to one of their other homes” – i also remember T telling big retailers to stock up for 3 months………if this ain’t part of the plan and will produce good – this, well, any plan don’t want to further piss of the populace at this point.  we’re all on edge……..seeing some love this move – wanting horror on nyc……..that ain’t beneficial – horrible way to talk…….

REPORT: Trucking Company Cancels Shipments to New York City on Monday (VIDEO)

 

Who writes these headlines?

Rep. Andy Ogles (R-TN) Requests Formal Inquiry into Intelligence committee Chair Mike Turner (R-OH) for “Reckless Disregard” in Sounding Alarm on “Serious National Security Threat” in Attempt to Interfere with FISA Reform Legislation and Ensure Funding for Ukraine

 

Interesting hand shake.  Tells me who is in control……..

Hungarian Prime Minister Viktor Orbán Endorses Trump: “It is Time for Another Make America Great Again” (VIDEO)

 

“No Lives Were Saved” by the COVID-19 Vaccine Injections Says Scientist Denis Rancourt – VIDEO

 

George Santos Files Lawsuit Against Jimmy Kimmel for ‘Fraudulent’ Use of Cameo Videos

 

Top Border Patrol Doctor Allegedly Pressured Staff to Order “Fentanyl Lollipops” for UN General Assembly, Whistleblower Claims

 

well this may bring down the things disguised as food industry……

Four Out of Five Americans Test Positive for ‘Emerging Contaminant’ Found in Popular Cereal Brands: Study | The Gateway Pundit | by Jack Davis, The Western Journal

 

 

we will know in the next 48 hours or so………

 

 

the feeeeeeeeeeeeeeels:

 

this actually gave me some relief – the anxiety has really been unusual the past week or so…….

 

 

 

word salad……….

 

yes yes yes…….

 

 

interesting…….

 

 

from 1988 to 1955 – 33 years…….

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Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator.

2 thoughts on “2.18.24 ~ Checking in with reflecting and a few finds”

  1. ANXIOUS????… ya say. I’ve added Theanine to my natural med chest. Ha…’anxiety’ is an understatement. We are under serious psyop artillery fire. The unsanity that the CABAL is hammering us with is at unprecedented levels. KEEP THE FAITH! …and GOD WINS!…blessings! [Rock On!]

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