still waiting to get the car fixed. 😠 had an appointment – turns out the place wanted to break up the dates to fix the issues instead of doing it all at once which meant more money for them. so we found another garage to take it to who can do it all at one appointment (and said the other place was “asinine” for telling us what they did). we’re in it “up to here” financially. if this financial sheot doesn’t switch by late spring/summer – i have no. clue. what to do next. none. zero. zip.
read something how when things crumble it means it’s time for the light to bring in the new.
how long we wait for that new before we realize that’s just another matrix new age pacification narrative?
i still feeeeeeeeeeeeel new is coming and the old is crumbling – but i absolutely have no feels over the concept that anyone must suffer – especially long term – during that process. suffering creates trauma which only creates pain. positive intending focus or not – the body knows and feels and it ain’t pleasant. everyone i talk to regularly – regardless of where they are/who they are – is done – suffering unnecessarily – doing the best they can. if this plan can allow for the story for immigrants to receive thousands of dollars (paid actors perhaps?) – then someone can find a way to funnel that money towards those who have held on and NEED HELP YESTERDAY.
difficult to know who to trust – with the jabbed – many – not being the same. heard from another sister friend who confirmed the shedding. 2 years later – slowly becoming a bit more “mainstream”. two. dayem. years. long time – too long.
all of this – too long.
but i hang on and hang in – just like we all do. cursing the whole way.
love to ya’ll ~
victoria
