Here is what has been happening to my family. Computer crashed. DVD player fritzing out. Mate’s phone carrier shut off his phone (even though he still has almost 100 minutes of air time left – they won’t allow him to use it until he puts more air time on it). Sleep – what’s that?
Gas has gone up over .60 cents a gallon. Food prices are becoming close to unreal (and there are limited supplies on certain items).
And the electric bill that arrived today is showing we had the same usage last month but their price to us jumped $30.
And we are supposed to be patient and trust the plan.
This. Plan. STINKS.
It is traumatizing.
It is harmful.
It is divisive.
It makes NO sense to me at this point and I am two moments from tossing it into the pan of evil along with the rest of this sheot reality.
Who isn’t suffering – a lot – atm? And for what purpose?
We had our wonderful friend over today. He can hardly get out of bed now. His pain is at levels he cannot tolerate.
Seems like the rest of us – the more we have awakened and said “NO” to what doesn’t align – the more we are attacked.
WHERE THE F IS OUR PROTECTION?
I have been calling out to Love….to Creator….Source….and receive NOTHING.
N O T H I N G.
It is as though I have been totally cut off. Everything I do to create peace in the house – to create peace in our sleep – is not working.
The financial pressure is getting to me again – after having some bit of a reprieve. It’s getting to my mate and when it gets to him it finds a way to me. I am a bit stunned to see the price of living going up as quickly as it is now.
The last few days I am at a loss as to what to do. Aside from this crazy idea I have to unite with others – pick a place that is remote and affordable and peaceful with good weather which no one seems to be interested in and for the life of me I cannot figure out why making me feel my attempt to really find a tribe has been a waste of time – aside from THAT – I don’t know what else to do – other than go it alone with my own family and just disappear off the radar. For it seems that all I have felt in my heart is turning out to be a giant lie. How I am to continue to raise our child in this realm of evil – as peacefully as I can – I no longer know. Feeling – just – lost.
If I knew things would end like this, I would have sold out a bit for awhile – stopped the researching. At least I would have been able to give my child a better life – the $ ability to do more things and go more places – and when the time is right – like now – quit it all and go remote. Seclusion – with no attention given to whatever it is that feels like is playing every one of us. As we say in this house: Love shares and gives. Evil deceives and uses.
Trying to stay afloat….
Love,
V.
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❣️❣️❣️You’ve been in my thoughts often last couple of days. I’m a mom as well. Hearing u talk about your daughter saddens me not being able to play visit w friends & bdays suck & how to explain this all to her… I understand. been inspired by your words for awhile now. Commented only a couple of times.
We are reading learning loving your journal. Most who journal its private not you you’re being authentic transparent & sharing w us. TY❣️
There are so many hurting right now & we feel it❣️ But WE KNOW what to do. It comes from within. WE KNOW
thank you for that debbie. 🙂 your words are soothing to my heart and that inner fire that off and on screams to extinguish all evil NOW! i especially appreciate hearing from another mama.
Part2-the hang in there V just like me❣️ Manifest your NOW Visulize OUR Future WE ARE ONE
WE ARE NOT ALONE ❤️
LOVE LIGHT HEALING WISOM SENT TO ALL
We are at war. It’s a psycho-spiritual war, and we are all feeling the weight of the dark trauma.
I do believe it’s coming down to the end of the cabal, however–and we have the choice: either to concede to the tyranny or stand up for our freedoms.
Hold the line and breathe. Take off the masks and realize who we are.
We are not victims and we are not alone!
Roar!
Please know that we are all in the same boat, as difficulties mount we need to lean in to The Creator even more for comfort and care. My children suffer greatly and their senior year at a school they worked sooo hard to get into has been sh_t all round with distance learning. I have had difficulty maintaining a positive outlook through it all as well. They leave for college in the fall. I want the world to be better for them,for every soul on this planet. May god help us all!
oh gosh – i am so sorry eva – for your children. senior year, too. my niece did not have a senior year prom or graduation last year because of this lie. you can’t make that up. why this has been allowed to happen is beyond my comprehension. the time to unite and build our own “eden” is upon us. i feel it – at least for myself – for waiting for and trusting in anything outside of me is tapped dry.
Hi Miss V..I feel ya woman!~ it may sound trite of me ,but I was wondering as the weather warms..does your family like to camp? Maybe plan a camping trip…get in nature away from all electronics. Have some seclusion..real seclusion and gather wood, build a fire, cook s’mores, just sit and look at the sky..hike..whatever your heart desires.
I know in your daily life you spend time looking at so many things on the internet ..as many of us..and it is disturbing on so many levels and the most frustrating of all is that it does not help in anyway..’to Know’..about most of it. The ‘knowing’ only seems to feed the evil and nasty intent of the dark..they like to be seen,but not caught or held accountable.
I will never be able to understand the ways of this world. When I was a ‘hippy’ back in the 60’s I took acid..now I know why it made me feel so wonderfully alive and happy and just normal..for me..was that it allowed me to totally escape into a world of fantasy and colors and dance and love to escape the reality of my life at home..and it was not nice or safe or loving.( there are so many things in this world now that are just fantasy ..all the streaming games online that people ‘play’ escape with..it is a ‘drug’ for some..escape the theme)
I so wonder why it is easy to manifest the silly things in my life and yet the things or situations I think of ‘juicy ‘ living don’t manifest…like an actual friend /tribe in my town where I could have a physical contact with ..some laughter, meals shared, tasks shared, encouragement shared, banter, dancing, walking, whatever..and yet ..nothing.14 years in this town and I have not one close friend.
I have no answers for the ways of this world ..I am so sick and tired of the same ol phrases ..I swear if I heard someone say to me in person…’trust the plan’..I would have to hold back from screaming like a crazy person in their face…’where we go one we go all ‘..BS on that too..and the whole bible thumpin’ in these times is gettin’ on my one last nerve…I have asked the question repeatedly ..and no response..’so, if there is a ‘god’ who has a plan..and heshe is so benevolent and has all this power ..why the hell did all this happen on the ‘god watch’????????Why would a being /source such as that allow the snakes of evil to infiltrate? Why the abuse of people?..why why why..it’s like that create a problem scenario ..and then come in like a savior at the last minute..and ‘fix’ the evil.”
All I can say is shame on all involved in this creation of evil in this world..their numbers are small and yet they are in a position to effect the whole..shame on them.
God /bible quotes do not soothe me in anyway…it’s a pacifier for many..and just say you don’t believe in that god ‘plan’..and all those ‘god fearing’ ( wonder about that phrase)..will let you have in in a comment section…says it all..everything has fakery to it.
I am not choosing a side…I just know what I feel and I feel it when I feel it..it’s raw..it’s honest..it’s me.
I feel your angst Miss V..but the only consolation I can offer is that nothing,but nothing lasts..it is the only understanding I have about life…there is comfort and sadness in that,but it’s where we are..this realm of fuckery.
Onward thru this day…alone as always..wishing for a pal to share time with..like they say..you come in alone..and you leave alone..sigh.
You have your family to give you strength..when I was a single mom..my son was the reason for my being…he is 50 now…a family and life of his own in another town..the love is there for us,but his days are full of other important things for him to do….so, here I will ‘be’ until I am not.
May all of your hopes for your desired life come to fruition dear heart…know that you deserve the life you want!!
“god fearing” – lol – yes i read that one last night actually (in a meme online). how we are “god fearing” americans. evil wants us to worship it and fear it. seriously….:::eye roll::: thank you my friend – you too deserve that tribe of friends – even just that one friend – locally, nearby. i am not giving up on gathering together and doing this all on our own. i have feelers out. 🙂