Barely here. Soooooooooooooooo tired and out-of-it. Child asking questions – can’t answer a thing atm. Spouse in a bad way – and doctor not answering his emails or mine. I ended up calling the doc – all but pleading for some f’ing guidance. Protocol isn’t treating the infection(s) – just getting his gut working again – meanwhile whatever it in his brain and gut is getting more intense and problematic and it’s putting not just a strain on him but on the family and I honestly can’t take it anymore. I need for him to have some knowledgeable help – asap.
So………….Feeling very much like a hermit/leave-me-alone-unless-u-come-with-cooked-meals-or cash – although quiet hugs are also appreciated as that is what most of us have to offer now anyway. Quite Emotional. E X H A U S T E D from this war – which is mostly unseen – but it is so felt and I cannot grasp the concept that ANYONE cannot at least feel this to some degree – unless you be an NPC or similar. There are about 160 up atm – 7pm EST – so something continues.
Weird dreams – saving babies – not understanding (in the dream) how some cannot care for them in the very basic way. Girl had similar (only more happy themes).
Also watching Gone with the Wind for the first time. I gave it a go in my teens and couldn’t get into it. Today I have a solid appreciation for it – being in a war situation – struggling – month after month year after year – until you reach those moments (where I am in now) where you just cannot take one. more. f’ing. second. of the stress of the war. Even if you can’t see it and aren’t on that battlefield – the effects leak back into your existence like a heavy worn out unwanted blanket. I am absolutely enthralled with Miss O’Hara. A fighting warrior who knows sometimes you have to lie and cheat and even steal just to survive – esp. during battle. The scene when she finds a lone carrot in the field and vows as GOD AS HER WITNESS – she will do just that as she will NEVER GO HUNGRY again. Intense. So realistic. And SO RELATABLE. I’m having to watch it in pieces as it is just too “real” and thus hard to take in. But I have a deep appreciation for the theme alone – not to mention the incredible scenery and varied levels of acting and the detailed characters. SO VERY REAL as compared to modern movies which began to go to total sheot back in the 70’s. Over-the-top drama that has had nothing solid much less truly believable or ESPECIALLY relatable in which to justify. Give me that dayem $100k a year contract with a newspaper and I’ll toss on the movie critic hat and toss most of ’em in the garbage can while chanting MAKE MOVIES GREAT AGAIN.
Geesh……..
Feeling like I am alone in the back of the theatre now – munching on stale popcorn – griping loudly now and then “when’s this f’ing movie over?” and/or “someone pull the f’ing plug and turn on the lights and OPEN THE EXIT doors”. Seeing nor feeling no purpose OF it. Just want to give the fuch up – except for when I don’t – and won’t.
So I watch other movies and do other things to bring in some sense of REAL (at least to my experience here) in order to mentally survive this ongoing draining saga.
MAKE IT ALL GREAT AGAIN. OBLITERATE GAMES. OBLITERATE MOVIES.
OBLITERATE FAKE & EVIL.
MAKE LOVE AND US GREAT AGAIN!
Love,
V.
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a lot of little trolls out there sharing photoshopped things and fake web searches……………always vet what “they” say………..
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US TREASURY SECRETARY YELLEN: OUR PROJECTION IS THAT AS EARLY AS JUNE 1ST, THE TREASURY WILL RUN OUT OF CASH AND EXTRAORDINARY MEASURES TO PAY GOVERNMENT'S DEBTS – CNBC INTERVIEW.
— DOQ 🇺🇸 (@doqholliday) May 8, 2023
Was this what Q was referring to when he said ‘[44] remaining’? https://t.co/cngz7QPoRM pic.twitter.com/0RDqICMuoh
— Tyler (@TWM316) May 8, 2023
On May 4th, Mike Pence appeared on Fox News and told The World that "The Storm" begins "one week from today," which is May 11th.
On the evening of May 10th, President Trump will be addressing our Nation and The World.
Might be wise to tune in and listen. 🇺🇸 pic.twitter.com/fHqeLt5Z7F
— Douglas Belmore (@TheQniversity) May 8, 2023
Thanks as well, to https://t.co/21I5rG8wfl https://t.co/wgrowQBy14
— GEORGE (@TheCollectiveQ) May 8, 2023
The Ukrainian prosecutor that Biden personally picked is the source for the story John Solomon broke today:
“The guy that was dealing with Joe Biden thought Joe Biden was corrupt enough that he wanted to come to the US attorney & prove that.”
Biden’s own guy turned him in! 😂 pic.twitter.com/BZGYNByM4V
— TheStormHasArrived (@TheStormRedux) May 8, 2023
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Know the GWTW narrative well…I’ve been aware most of my life due to mum’s fascination with the film… Why Gable didn’t get the Oscar? …once again–H’wood is not what it projects itself to be. As for the gut–microbiome maintenance is critical. The best probiotic I’ve ever used is “Thrive”–it corrected a serious imbalance within a couple of weeks. Used the entire bottle(month’s supply) and didn’t even continue with it –because it was sooo effective! Also–$50/mo was a bit beyond the budget. Occasionally I’ll use a less expensive brand and it is clearly not as effective. Try to do Kombucha daily or at least every 2 days. Thrive: go here–https://justthrivehealth.com/products/probiotic…Meantime…when’s the internet/media blackout coming?…all sources say soon…then EBS. When we see the EBS moment–then we’ll know for sure the war is almost at an end. blessons!