6.15.24 ~ A check-in – a find or two

 

I don’t much care what’s going on “out there” – and to be honest I don’t much care what’s going on “in here” either.  It’s an odd space.  Yesterday was challenging after a good, focused start.  The challenge morphed into a rather neutral, quiet space – not great – but neutral and I have a couple of much needed/wanted phone convo’s.  All was rolling along, a rather nice pace, when late evening I was suddenly shaking again all over and ravishingly hungry.  I tried to ignore it – thinking “this wasn’t me” but my body started to rebel so I made an entire meal – at midnight – and ate like I hadn’t eaten in a day or two.  I was also suddenly highly agitated and felt the need to pound something.  Heard from Sister D who said something really nasty came in last night and attacked.

So there you go.

This morning, I feel drained – agitated (over money – the usual) – and began doing my usual inner focus – even putting on frequency bowl meditation music I often play these days – paused and said “fuch it”.  Just not up to switching things up within.  So I’m letting myself simply BE.  Energetically I am too dayem tired to change the inner feeeeeeeeeeeels so I can put on my best face and be someone I am not atm:  content and happy.

Because I am not.

It is as it is – I am as I am.

Off to give my money over to some mega corporation who doesn’t need it.

Ta ta for now.

Love,

V.

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Excellent words – EXCEPT for the “what’s done is done move on”.  If there is trauma as a result of whatever is done, your body will not move on.  Been there done that.  The body will keep the energies of the unprocessed experience within – brain will then respond now and then as though the event is still happening – which according to the body it IS.  So there is no “forget it and move on”.  That is not how the body and mind connection work.  That is how “they” designed these bodies and is also why “they” created so much horror her to give us that trauma.  “They” know it sticks with us.  Little children – so happy – so up – I was one – put on a happy face – always.  That was just me – while inside trauma built up inside of me so by the time I was in my mid 20’s I started having these things the doctor called “panic attacks” so I dove into cognitive behavior therapies and affirmations and new age healing techniques – and not once did any of these people talk about the Body and how it is the BODY that keeps the score of everything – not just the mind.  It wasn’t until this past year when I was finally connected with the right people who know about these bodies and the nervous system and trauma did I *get it*.  What do you think a trigger is?  An unhealed trauma.  If we didn’t have trauma stored in our bodies, we wouldn’t get triggered.  Period.  ‘Nuff said.

 

 

 

Weather is still odd here – cool, rainy and as always windy.  I took a pic last night of another tree already changing – will try and remember to upload it from my camera.  Not promising though – brain just isn’t what it used to be these days.

 

No surprise here – anyone seen the ingredients in these things??

 

 

 

 

 

Other headlines I saw but am too tired to go retrieve again and link:  T is debating JB on the 27th.  For the first time ever there will be no audience.  Scripted movie scene already shot just ready to roll out for whomever has the desire to watch.

The homeless in Oregon are speaking out saying they don’t want tarps and tents – they want REAL HELP.  Duh.  As I always say – ask people what they NEED and stop assuming.  Just like I take issue when others try to tell me what they think I need to be doing while not hearing me say “THIS IS WHAT I NEED”.

OMG we have to all get over ourselves and start helping at the level people need the support.  There’s a lot I don’t know – but when I know something I KNOW.  And this is one thing I KNOW.

That’s all for now.

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Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator.

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  1. The Club of Rome controls all the money on planet Earth. Other than that fact–are aliens really controlling this Matrix illusion?

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