Note to self – stop following this movie. Stop falling for dates.
And start looking for people with a lot of money because this whole “global prosperity” thing obviously ain’t happening anytime soon and I am out of time mentally and energetically.
I just forked over $110 to keep my site up and going. I am wondering if I should have used $99 of that to pay for a site – monthly fee – that allows me to look for angel investors.
I talk about this – a lot lately – and few seem to have the ability to HEAR me. Too uncomfortable. So in case anyone thinks I’m full of it, I will happily guide you to the stories I read – similar to mine – who are also in a bind due to the toxicity of the system and finances.
But my story should be enough.
Can I think my way out of this?
Can I THINK my way into lowering the housing prices?
The cost of food?
I’m sure trying.
But jesus – I am not the only problem in my current reality.
Outside does impact inside.
Capiche?
Unless someone has lived it, you can’t understand.
My BRAIN is hurting from pushing myself – being told “hey check this out” or “hey try this” which I do.
I FRIGGING do.
I NEED SOMEONE HERE HELPING ME!
And I need MORE INCOME from my work here.
I deserve to be paid for what I do.
P E R I O D.
If I don’t, I am going to be forced to stop doing this site as I have.
Love hears and love responds.
I will see just how much love really is around me.
For now, my heart is breaking not just for me but for my child. She is begging me to move. B E G G I N G. I’m busting my arse daily applying for work online – promoting my work – asking more and more people to promote my work – taking chances of self promoting on places that violate group rules – local employment opps are dismal – so many out of work or working part time. You’re either waaaaaay up here or waaaaaaaaay down there. And as I’ve been saying for 3 years now – many work at home ops pay via paypal and they. will. not. consider. otherwise. So yeah you see I have a lot of reason to be pissed off royally at this point especially considering that what I put out is not coming back to me. My ability to intend and create is slug pace at best. And I know I speak for many of us having the same challenge – those big names on the world stage saying you can have anything you want – got there because they. were. allowed. in.
P E R I O D.
Did something to allow the masters to give them the platform. Notice how none of them talk about the Spiritual War much less the nature of this reality we’re in? Rather suspicious I would say.
Some are more of a target than others here – by design.
P E R I O D too on that.
That said – I never back down I never give up I never give in and I never shut up. I will just get louder until this tired but beautiful and powerful bike gets its grease.
Finds later.
For now, share my work at the very least if you are a regular. I need you to. It doesn’t cost a dime to be the voice for someone. Pretend I’m an abused puppy in a shelter needing a new home if you have to. And if you have an income, a few dollars each month is also requested. If this makes you uncomfortable, I apologize – but my concern for my child is greater than how I may be coming across these days.
Love,
Victoria
