I had some things saved to share – but I can’t get into “worldly happenings” today. I felt so detached and not all here. Stumbled around – at times struggled to talk. And all day I longed for Home. And that song “Tuesday Afternoon” played too in my mind. I was called to know the lyrics. Here they are:
So very appropriate words for now….
I wanted to talk of Home today. I did not want to see anything happening here in this realm. The feeling today was one of longing and a sense of desperation – needing something to connect to. That happened tonight when I was drawn (called) in to a conversation on twitter with other like-minded Souls. I met some new “faces” too. It is always a welcome gift to my heart and Soul when I hear of yet another who has felt the same way as have I – lost inside this place, not able to find/create a space to fit in and having had the feeling of homesickness throughout their life.
The fatigue is intense now – sometimes lasting all day (like today) sometimes just in moments. It’s like I am literally going between two realities. As someone said tonight – the feeling of fatigue is so strong one feels drunk.
Absolutely.
I was also drawn to look at that image shared in a recent Lisa Harrison video – one of her members who drew that spiral of images (33 in all) several years ago. Those last 3 that lead up to the portal out (below). To soothe myself, I reminded myself that we are at the place of the Portal image.
Some days are just more difficult to be here than others. Today was definitely one of those days.
I am off to sleep.
Love,
Victoria
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