7/17/20 Finds and Reflection

 

Today was one of reflection.  We had a Grandpa Don closure (related to his property).  It was difficult but also something we knew was coming so when the event happened, it left me with a sense of closure and release – like putting a gentle lid on the process of grief.  We miss him.  And yet Life goes on.  The new neighbors are lovely people and have been very open with us in terms of their plans for the property.

I am also FINALLY connecting w/some like minded parents and am talking of get-togethers in the new future.  F I N A L L Y.  What’s interesting about this is that I told myself for the past year or so – before we transition out I am going to find SOME sort of a tribe here.  I was determined to do so – and when my mate was even saying “you are beating your head against a wall” I refused to give up.  That’s just Who I Am.

I did see the matrix at work today.  It’s a vibe I now feel in my body – I know when it’s just an experience or something I created – and when it’s the matrix at work through something else or another.  It happened at the park today.  A few years ago we had an encounter with an aggressive dog that was roaming freely at this park – no owner around – barking and otherwise scaring kids and this adult.  At the time we climbed up on some play equipment and I called the police (who were of absolutely no help).  Each time I would climb down, the dog would come up and begin barking aggressively.  It finally walked up to the other end of the park at which I told my girl “get on your bike NOW and go!”  So she hops on and I begin to – as she does the owner of the dog shows up and calls the dog – who runs towards her voice but stops by me and begins running around in a circle, barking.  I told her to get control of her dog and she said “I am” and I said “no you’re not – get it away from me – it already scared my child (I pointed at my daughter who had rode about half a block away) and the other children in this park.”  She could have apologized but made a different choice instead.  She put on a major attitude and when she finally took physical hold of her dog, I told her I was reporting her to Animal Control. That was done and a visit was paid and I haven’t seen the woman or her dog since.  At the time I was on my bike, had on my helmet, hair down and sunglasses.  Today I was in the car, hair up – so different context.

However today as I walked to the car I saw her (first time since this incident from 2 years ago) and she stared at me.  And stared at me.  And stared at me. It was almost as though she was suddenly frozen.  As this happened, a spider suddenly appeared near the car window right as my girl was getting inside.  As she dealt with that, a hornet suddenly appeared in front of me on the driver’s side.  I knew what was up.  So I calmly got out of the car – made sure the hornet left – made sure the spider was gone – looked back over at her – she was still staring – and I said “I see you”.  She then turned around and walked back into her house.  I did my own protection and we drove home without incident.

Strange.  But then again not strange when you see how the game is played here – and the potential for “agent smiths” (the program) to take over the human for a short time to poke at the awake “players”.

Other than that little “bump” it was a very nice picnic at the park today.  Energetically I felt well although I did have a couple of those moments where I felt “elsewhere”.  I have begun saying “NOT CONSENTING” to that experience.  If this is about some practice runs, I’ve done enough.  If this is about pulling out a bit more of me – enough.  If this “emit” is going to happen, let it happen.  For now, I am focused on what I see/do/experience HERE.  And I need all of me grounded here to function – especially with a child.  lol  I remember how I used to gripe when I would hear from some new age light-workers speaking how they would spend hours in bed or in meditation or sometimes days and how they encouraged all of us other “light-workers” (ya’ll know I don’t like that term) to do the same.  HA!  In what reality?  The world of “I have no job or child” world which is not reality for most of us.

Apparently 48 out of 50 states here in AmeriKa have mask mandates now.  I don’t see how this can continue and I REALLY state that in full force.  I sent several tagged tweets to POTUS about that.  E/O to remove these mask mandates.  I’m done with being questioned on this.  Done with trying to convince anyone to consider an alternative POV.  And certainly DONE with being asked “why don’t you wear one?”

Because I know what deception is.

And I know what Freedom is.

Comes with the experience of being in the Awakening process in this pit.

Love,

Victoria

Here are some finds…

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Holy sheot – the matrix clone being used over and over w/each reset they put us through here.  This is from Forbes, too!