I was reflecting on all that is being seen earlier. There is a video going around that I am seeing pop up on twitter that is alleged to show how far down the rabbit hole the evil is and had planned here. I saw some asking “do I need to watch this?” There was fear in those words. We don’t *need* to do anything.
I remember the first time I felt evil at a physical level. Cold. Calculating. Once was enough.
I have gone down many rabbits holes over the last 30 years. Each one simply leads to another. While I appreciate what that journey did – helped me in my awakening – I wonder if I needed to explore as much as I did. I’ve always known within – Sensed – evil runs the game here. I have always felt off about the experience here. And I have carried within the memory of the war. Do I know everything in detail? No.
Do I want to know or even need to know the details? No. At least not now. I have enough trauma in these cells.
I know what is ok and what is not ok for me and I don’t need to read someone’s words or experience to know that now. In the past, due to my fear and doubt programs, yes – I absolutely did need that validation from another. But now? No. That “need” (or false need) is fading.
And for me it is simple: I want evil’s influence gone completely from my experience – regardless of that location. Here. At Home. I just want my Freedom and Full Abilities returned/restored so I can get on with my Experience as ME.
I’m the type when watching a movie that is intense, whenever something evil, deceptive, violent is going to occur, I usually cover my eyes. Not because I am afraid (when I was younger, yes – it was due mostly to fear) – but rather because I know it isn’t something I want to experience. I’ve had enough violence. Why put more visuals in my mind when I don’t HAVE to.
And at this point – as “evil” continues to reveal itself – I don’t want nor need to give it my attention – especially of the fear/shock kind of reaction. Evil thrives on being seen. It’s like a disease.
So I remain an observer of what’s playing out – focused on those things I choose to experience and remembering ME pre-hijack and becoming that amazing Being once again. But I am now sensing the difference between what I really want to focus on and what “evil” wants me to see. I hope that makes sense.
Energetically, I do feel something switched yesterday. I just got the image of a stuck wagon getting a strong push forward out of the muck. I felt this yesterday as a sense of relief – lightness – even when doing mundane tasks (and yesterday was full of such things). The Light at the End of the Tunnel – that’s the best way to describe the experience. I feel it is there for all to see and feel – however that looks. And the beautiful Lisa Harrison left a comment here saying she felt something huge yesterday and is very excited. I’m curious like a persistent child with stuff like that – so I hope she leaves more detail. If not, I’m sure we will hear about it on her livestream next Tuesday (assuming she will do one).
That’s all for now. Going to share a few things I have found intriguing next.
Love,
Victoria
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I felt that push too and I created art in every task, in my studio i made art , while folding laundry or cleaning or while doing dishes or cooking , even though it was a dismal rainy day something wonderful made all the things I did mindful and enjoyable and I had some laughs!
yes – doing all i can these days to find something that brings me joy – or at least a heart-opening experience.
Cosmic giggle, anyone?