The level of fatigue, body discomfort and nausea is really at a peak today. It simply sucks today to be here. I can distract all I want – that inner frustration and agitation is still there screaming at me to “DO SOMETHING” to “GET ME OUT OF HERE”.
Another date was given for “10 days of disclosure” set to begin tomorrow. We will see. Two years – we hear dates – see them come and go – and then are told to stay the course. Hang in there. Go within. And oh my very favorite today – let it go.
Let what go, exactly? My attachment to this prison? I’ve done that as much as I know how – off and on for 4 years.
How do you “let go” and be who you want to be when there are more state imposed restrictions than ever?
Fight it? Alone?
Really?
Our state gathered enough signatures to recall our governor and the state said “sorry you didn’t collect enough”. Now what?
Our local co-op has now blocked me on twitter because I reached out to communicate and called them on how they violated their own policy and discriminated against my mate over his medical disability. We received some form letter from the national association who essentially told us to work with our local store. We called and reached out to over half a dozen civil rights attorneys without one getting back to us. How are we supposed to “work it out” with a law-violating entity who refuses to cooperate much less communicate?
And yet I am supposed to just let it all go and let evil and the agenda of fascism continue to intrude its way into my life, violate my freedoms and my right to live peacefully and travel/go/do as I see fit for MY OWN experience?
Would anyone just “let it go” if some terrorists entered your land and began destroying your property?
Yeah, I think not.
Let it go.
Shove that narrative.
I am also shoving the narrative that the “ending” is going to be scary.
What, more trauma?
Love doesn’t operate that way. EVIL does.
So once again evil is getting its way.
As I strongly affirm – I don’t need to see evil to know it’s there. I can only detach so much. I look outside and see people in masks. THAT is enough for me to know evil is still around. Some of us get very uncomfortable seeing another in a mask.
So….once again….my only idea that feels best to me now is to raise money and get outta dodge. And I would need a lot of funds to do that as my mate is physically disabled and I have my own cognitive/mental issues that impede our ability to pack up this house alone and move. We need help to accomplish this. I need a new life and I need to begin working towards that now. Anyone good at creating Go Fund Me pages and would be willing to help me and my family? Please?
Thank you. Thank you so much. I really don’t know how much longer I can sustain this energy. If we were surrounded by like minded people in an area w/o mask mandates, that would be very supportive now.
That is all for now.
Love,
Victoria
