I woke up this morning with a good amount of energy and about 4 hours later was hit with a huge wall of fatigue, body pains, nausea, bloating and this very heavy feeling in my body. A purge day was upon me.
What came up first? I wanted a massage today. I did not want to use my little portable massager. I needed a full body work over, massage, energy work, the works!
As I lamented I over how my body needed this, I thought how messed this matrix system is (as though that part of me whining doesn’t get that by now??). The ONE THING I need ~ the ONE THING that makes me feel better than anything else (yes, more than chocolate) this realm has had to offer is body massage. Oh my goodness it transforms me into a peaceful, happy puppy.
It all just did not feel, well, fair to me in that moment. The one thing that makes me feel the best is something that
- My mate cannot provide due to health/hand/wrist issues and
- The affordability factor. Massage therapists typically charge as much as if not more than a trip to the doctor (and most insurance, at least mine, doesn’t cover the cost.) Not that LMT’s don’t deserve this money ~ they do! The health benefits of massage are far better than anything most western trained doctors provide.
I left the house in this mental funk, off to get some food, grumbling that if food were free, I could spend excess funds on massage. Energy work. Those things that work for me and with which I so resonate.
As I climbed into the car, I had this feeling I was falling down. Crumbling. You ever get that feeling and then wonder “who will take care of me if I do”?
I turn on the radio and in a moment of beautiful synchronicity, “Drive” (The Cars) was on the radio. Love that song. The lyrics “who’s gonna come around when you break” sang.
Wow.
So apropos for that very moment.
I cried a bit.
Swore a bit.
Pounded the steering wheel.
Decades of old, stale energies coming up like lava in a volcano.
I wondered ~ are mountains destined to purge or is that all just due to this low density realm, where energy just gets stuck and trapped naturally, because of endless trauma’s and abuse and low vibe living/being/doing and all of the poisons, toxins dumped into and onto ALL….is it all just too much for ANY living being to keep on top of in cleaning up and out…..and as all is connected….ALL is being felt and purged.
I tuned in again to my physical symptoms.
ravishingly hungry to suddenly no appetite at all
nausea
feeling creepy crawly sensations on my body
trembling
anxiety
exhaustion
bloating
aches
and that damn heavy feeling….
PURGE, I heard
PURGE IT ALL.
I could see it.
Feel it.
Sense it.
Intuit it.
ALL is being felt and purged.
Individually. Collectively.
It is no coincidence the purging of the dark systems is also occurring now.
All is connected
Purge away
Allow
Release
Let go
Forgive
and ….. deep breath in and releeeeeeeeeeeese…..aaaahhhhhh…..
and…..welcome in new codes, feels, experiences.
Oh. So. Ready!
much sleepy love,
victoria
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