I am having one of these experiences today where I see the POTENTIAL as well as the REALity. It’s a mad world – that energy becoming more palpable – for me.
Such madness arises when Truth is bubbling up from within and we refuse to acknowledge it. It creates madness for the individual and for the collective.
Today I awoke actually saying I DO NOT CONSENT TO THIS.
No power over.
No games. And by NO GAMES I mean NO MORE DECEPTION of ANY kind which includes GUESSING and hearing endless speculations that use the words “soon” and “almost there”. You all already know my feels on being told “you aren’t ready yet” which is just another power over program/game.
HOW does one “get ready” anyway? By seeing the full TRUTH.
It was so strong within me that for me to wake up saying these words outloud means one thing: I. Am. Done. Truly truly DONE.
Silent no more. Neutral, no more. Even playing the Observer feels like a game. Doesn’t that lead to us allowing what we inherently know is NOT OK to continue? Is it OK to just observe when someone is being abused or harmed? Oh just observe. Don’t get involved.
Not in my inner world.
The madness.
The messages being given ~ these elusive messages that so often seem to produce nothing concrete. Tangible.
Gold to be returned by October 31st (yesterday) or else…
The banksters are bankrupt. Access to what was hidden for all is coming….Get ready….
The ongoing dangling of the carrot.
I don’t consent to that. Love doesn’t dangle the carrot. LOVE GIVES IT TO YOU.
This ongoing promise of abundance….I don’t know about you and your experience, but our expenses have jumped and now next month our income is actually going down. I don’t know what to do about that – we’re budgeted down to pennies and I am worn to the bone by trying to budget and seek ways to expand on the income.
I feel as though the inner balloon – and the balloon out there – has been blown up as far as it can go – no more room for air. If systems out there keep on adding unwanted air, the balloon is going to burst.
That is the collective feel I am now feeling…..not just my own inner experience.
(I have a lot of feels and words going on right now so please excuse the rambling…)
Last night as we know was halloween here in the states. The concept felt completely foreign to me last night. This day used to be one of my favorite holiday’s. Slowly that dissipated over the last few years and last night it was painful for me to engage. I had to force myself to take my child out on the candy collection.
But I did. We had a few gathering’s in which we were invited to attend. The first one – I simply suddenly could not be there. The decorations were amazing but to see so much celebration of what’s dark and scary – including the adult costumes and some of the kid costumes – I couldn’t be there.
At another gathering, a highly programmed democrat suddenly showed her rage over Kavanaugh. I took a slow, deep breath and it took all within me not to say “not all hold your view. Please consider that as you are not the only one in the room.” It came about suddenly and unexpectedly. I was relieved to learn she had to leave.
And none of this is to say these aren’t otherwise wonderful people. I like these people. It is their clinging to their old programs that create discomfort for me – and sadness, loneliness. What I WANT is to have a real connection where we can SEE beyond our societal programming. Where such connections can come about without the inevitable disgust thrown our way when we say we support Trump – or at least the overall picture of his doing’s leading to exposure – to truth – in ALL OF US. It is intense now – around here. Literally every person I know around my area takes a jab at the president now – assuming I am part of that narrative because, you know – IF you have a deeper understanding much less any support of him, you’re a nut. A nazi. A bigot. And that thought process comes up immediately. I’ve seen it.
And HIS behavior is triggering every one of us who do not SEEK TRUTH. Who hide behind programming and societal politeness and politically correct speak. HE is the catalyst for triggering these unseen things within us all that is causing the over-the-top madness we are seeing.
I feel it has amped up.
I feel this is because we are at the exit doors and we are being called to pick a door. Make a choice. Expand or stay in the old programs.
I feel All Of Our pieces of our Consciousness are lining up and saying “ARE YOU SURE?” Poke, poke, poke….look within….acknowledge the trigger….see the inner story for the Truth instead of the one in the programmed mind.
I have no proof of this other than my feelings and given I am in a place where I need to SEE PROOF before I allow it to fully engulf me as the “real deal” – I leave this piece saying all I have now is hope and faith…
….while doing my best to be a humanoid in this very Mad World. Below is my rendition of this beautiful, haunting song.
Much love,
Victoria
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I can confirm you’re not alone with these feelings, Victoria. These latest weeks I’ve been feeling like a pressure cooker, just a second before exploding. Oh, you don’t want to hear what I’m saying in my conversation – or rather monologue – with the Creator before I fall asleep… I’m just so tired of this shit. And I’m deeply questioning why does there need to be a complete chaos before we can move on… If all this is a play, why can’t the Director simply say “CUT”? I still don’t know what role I’m having in this play, but I’m totally sick by still being expected to keep on playing it. And sometimes I can wonder if the Dark ones aren’t tired of playing their roles too… What are we doing? It’s a very, very Mad World…
Thank you for uploading your version of the song – it was great! I’m just so childishly impressed that one can achieve all those tones by just 10 fingers, using both hands together at the same time… haha! It used to be my favorite song once, with Tears for Fears, I was 18 when it was released, and their music has affected me a lot then…
i feel and wonder the same – aren’t we ALL tired? i feel the pressure cooking experience means we’re at the end – and this time i mean TRULY at. the. end. i’m happy you enjoyed the song. i was 16 when it came out. they were one of those aware bands at the time. 🙂