may explain why i could not sleep fully until 5am – and when i did wake up i was extremely agitated. i don’t align with these sudden spikes that disappear – they feel jarring. i much align with the long big bubbles of bliss. today the mood in the house is extreme frustration and agitation – from the oldest to the youngest. participating in this game and the limits of here just doesn’t work and pondering and going within to inquire “what next” brings up just empty space.
