so i’m sitting here going through stuff. nothing is interesting me at this moment. i have no desire to post or share anything. today was a beautiful day. energy “out there” was intense or else i am just getting more sensitive – if that is possible. enjoyed the sunshine all day. cleaned the car. chopped wood. carried water. (lol just kidding on that last one – chop wood, carry water) trip with the family to the park then to a very crowded store to pick up some things for the week and for dinner. lots of walking. brain is tired. sun has set and the air is cold once again. fire is going. and all i desire is a hot shower and something in my belly. quiet. no doing. just pure being.
as i pulled up the site to share this brief piece something said to check out kp – as though perhaps he may have something insightful or new to share. i laughed. nope. he’s in the same space. “Cannot go into anything today about posting this or that. It’s almost feeling (to me) like there’s nothing to post.” he also speaks of what i have spoken of – others offering their insights on what we HAVE to do/be/think, etc. and KP said essentially, not doing nothing but going within. (link)
i did want to share one thing – just came to me – something i forgot to share earlier today. allison coe’s recent video i shared here about the need to focus on inner earth. felt quite urgent – that need – and such “we MUST do this” simply doesn’t resonate with me. at the time i shared the video, i tried to come up with some story to make it well for myself – and for all of you. i said something about antarctica while still dismissing the whole inner earth story. i have remained w/a bothersome feel about this since sharing the video (which otherwise i found quite positive). i remembered something i had read from yellow rose about inner earth and cannot find it at the moment. if memory is correct, i think she said inner earth was the creation of An. i feel – for myself – it is not in my best interest to focus on the concept of inner earth as i too feel it has been part of this control game. it feels as though it’s another term for the underworld, so giving that focus i feel is giving energy to the old controller’s.
i am instead focused within. doing my best to remain in my heart. nothing else i feel the need TO do. other than shower and fill the belly as i stated above. so going to do that now.
love,
victoria
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