editor victoria’s comment ~ 110% aligning with this. lately i have been asking myself “how long can i do this?” this lull. this waiting. the whatever it is happening out there that we are not PRIVY to for whatever reason(s) – energies entering this space – making us feel dizzy, spaced out, exhausted. as she said – is it for our betterment? is this part of the game of attack? how are we to know? seriously – how are we to know just what is going on? if i hear one more effing time “you create your own experience”….. new age bullshit. if i DID i would be WHERE i have SEEN myself. if i DID i would be swimming in abundance. if i DID i would have attracted/manifested the situations I have not only visualized for myself but what i have taken steps TO manifest/bring forth. how can you possibly be the Full and only Creator when you have the systems of enslavement still plugging along? anyone care to answer that one for me in language that makes sense to this tired mind? seriously – teach me – show me – guide me – help me remember HOW to truly be the Master Creator I KNOW I once was and want to be again…
the naps. lol i laughed at that one. those who don’t have children don’t have a clue as to what it’s like to have these knock out experiences and have a child in the house. to hear about the naps they take…….hours long………..and the $$ they have to travel x y z………argh!!!!!!!!!
i am tired. i am frigging exhausted. tired of waiting. tired of speculation. tired of people who claim to KNOW it all – when none of us really know. we are just going by what we feeeeeeeeeeeeeel within and at times what we feel we KNOW. but until we are SEEING it and EXPERIENCING it – it’s just a movie playing in our mind.
i am done with being the actor. i am done with looking for producer’s to “believe in me” and “assist me” in areas in which i need some assisting.
I AM READY TO DIRECT MY OWN EXPERIENCE. in my FULL POWER. with ALL that I AM HERE WITH ME NOW.
along those lines i had some interesting “look at the tv” moments today. too tired to take pictures so instead i’ll just share the songs. ha – i’ve reached a moment of a brain fart. lol so i will just share the one that stuck out more than anything: “out of time”. yeppers….
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Published on Mar 27, 2019
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