anyone who has been reading this site for awhile knows i have had an ever-growing need for solitude. the past 2 days it is off the charts. i don’t even want to be touched or hugged – until i have been able to find time alone for a bit to breathe and reflect – cry – hit a pillow if necessary. it is THAT intense right now. emotions range from bliss – calm – to anger and moments of rage. this has happened before but it seems to have “sped” up.
i am feeling my body detox – helping her along – but i am feeling perhaps part of this is of her own doing. the need for sleep is off the charts right now. 12 hours of sleep plus a nap. as i said to my mate if i had no responsibilities right now i’d just be sleeping. and oddly enough, eating chocolate pudding and watermelon. crazy craving, isn’t it? lol
the demands of life have me screaming inside. i need to live in an area where i can find space in nature WITHOUT ANYONE ELSE AROUND. needing to be with just me. outside noise and/or distraction are like the proverbial nail on the chalkboard for me at times. hearing my mate and child (and even myself) cough and sneeze – which has been ongoing in this house for over 3 weeks – OMG!! PURE HEALTH NOW!! the experience for me now – when i am clear on what i want to do/create – i want to have that experience NOW. i no longer want to have to do the 3d “work at it” or “wait”. anyone else having that?
i saw the schumann today and cringed. that black line is there again. why? what is the cause? all we can do is speculate – regardless of what anyone claims to know – none of us do know. sharing that below. another note on the schumann – it seems to me i am seeing layers. i see the background then i see a new layer on top. i’ve been seeing that for awhile now. both seeing it and then within i feel it at the same time. rather strange…
so as i said a day or two ago – i am the power. it’s bringing along and merging my Power with this very very tired physical vessel including her very fatigued mind that is the challenge these days.
that and creating that much needed Q U I E T.
love,
victoria
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Same. Everything you said. SAME. I think a lot of people are feeling this to the extreme.