editor victoria’s comment ~ resonating 110% with this one….
Although the image I use is with a “brightly lit and inspired” face, there are times that I don’t feel that way. My body was extremely drained (zonked) after (and during) this trip and after returning I really haven’t been highly “emotion stable”. So I’m not “3D perfect”. So there.
There’s still a coqui frog right overhead in my kitchen and it is so loud (from 6PM to midnight – 2AM) I have to wear headphones plugged into my Roku remote to hear what’s playing. I definitely felt the “PO’d as hell” emotions about that, as I had just gone out earlier, when it started chirping, climbed up a ladder, and threw baking soda powder on the spot on the roof I thought it was. No difference at all. Still chirping. CRAP!!!
I’m not going to try to bring in a “spiritual connection” with all this, and be “sane and spiritually balanced” about it. Hell with that! But I know these things “coming up” emotionally hold a message.
This could be another message that it is coming time to move… physically. We’ll see where that goes. I may begin at least looking for another place.
Not sure where that would be. I’m still enjoying Big Island, but even something about that feels “ended”. I did not really feel drawn to Maui (for living) this time; Kihei felt like a tourist zoo, and it (and Maui in general) just didn’t feel like my “place to move to”.
All these things could change. This period of time still feels like a “completion phase”, and like it is the end of that phase… for myself and many others.
Bottom line now is that I don’t know what I’m doing, and I don’t know where I’m going.
So that’s where I will leave this. Thank you all for just reading and listening to my occasional e-rants and blowing off some emotional steam.
Aloha, Kp
