something was in the collective air. someone mentioned mercury retrograde but this was different. this was – collective. purging. unplugging perhaps. and definitely feeling the swamp creatures stirring in their fear.
ARGH!!!!!!
deep breathing. CBD oil. bach rescue remedy. and at the end of the day – i simply walked out of the house announcing that it was just ME leaving – with my headphones, portable radio and a quiet visit to pick some blueberries….that was what soothed my inner R O A R.
it was also quite validating to read a local group of mama’s expressing their days with their families. one said she dropped several f-bombs. another said she shouted at her kids to GET OUT OF THE HOUSE and she made them get out. (i can hear the non-parents jaws drop and can see their eyes pop open wide – i used to do the same thing UNTIL I HAD A CHILD). or as i like to say – until i grew a child, birthed it, brought it home and decided to keep it. lol
so the very end of the day included some honest, authentic talk about choices….about understanding….about relationships. we all create the space in this house.
and what i am struggling with is creating my INNER space – which as i referenced above was just all but whacked up and out today. as i said to one of you “i am losing my shit left and right today”….i may have needed to clarify i wasn’t really losing or misplacing things – i was having mini meltdowns. heck i even had one moment out in public where i could not look the clerk in the eye. i was that overwhelmed.
last night i slept straight through. i intended again i was NOT to engage in any meetings. instead – my mate did and had a long night as a result. i also intended to forget all visions and desires of new earth if it was just another program. if i am waiting for “nothing” – well obviously i don’t consent to that. today i was all but bombarded as i headed out with songs about “take me home” and i am waiting for you and “don’t you forget about me” (that last one greeted me immediately upon entering one of the stores i visited).
a message from the Universe or another program? honestly – i don’t know. when the “home” (event) narrative doesn’t align with me, i focus on the changes i am seeing happen. any of you feel you have done all the inner work – and are having a real challenge in expanding your life experience in the here and now and are just waiting for something to shift “out there” to draw you “forward”?
me too.
current physical stuff: a lot of burping lately – including my daughter which makes me think it’s something to do with energies and expansion and whatever else is actually going on that i am not able to see or know just relying on how i feel and that compass is feeling quite old and squeaky these days…..
love,
victoria
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Time for some EMF shield items in the house!
Burping=major energy release/i.e. shifting!
Keep doing it. It works!
thank you for that (about the burping). 🙂