usually when my reincarnation date rolls around, i feel magic – a lift. i would feel the Universe “celebrating” with me. today i had a different experience. the energy felt heavy and just weird. a void-like energy. i saw others speaking of their animals behaving very strangely and feeling anxiety and stomach issues themselves. i definitely had the stomach issues that i could not attribute to anything in particular.
going out and about i was able to “feel” that connection to Home/Universe. i was guided to a car and saw “222”….then turning on the radio, “Truckin'” was on in particular “Truckin’, i’m goin’ home. whoa baby back where i belong…” Next song – Two Tickets to Paradise. Then Journey “Don’t Stop Believin'”…..I felt this sense of “we are here with you and like you we too are waiting for the transition”….hold on and keep on…………for now i bought myself a cherry pie – locally made with pure ingredients. i decided not to bake my own sweet treat.
i had a very interesting and powerful dream last night. a boy i knew when i was a girl. i had a big crush on him in junior high only he was dating a high school girl. older woman. lol i didn’t see him until a few years later. he would come visit me at the local shop in which i worked. he kept asking me out but i felt he was just looking for a good time so i turned him down each time. he kept at it for almost a year and then, well life happens. he stopped visiting. i moved on and did different things.
then a few years ago i read he had died in a horrible car crash east of here. i felt this immediate heaviness in my heart and i cried later that night. then last night – i dreamed of him. he was in the same space in which i was – saw me – walked over and smiling, touched his forehead to mine. then the dream ended and i woke up whimpering. makes me wonder if we did have an authentic heart connection here. oh the things we do when we’re young and lacking in frontal cortex development. the fear. the “there’s always later”…..
some moments i think a do-over would be wonderful.
for now – well – i am being told i need to see the news today. my mate says they’re better. but i am eating pie and watching old movies. i will see how i feel about all of that at another time. for now – inner reflecting continues.
how are all of you feeling and doing now?
love,
victoria
I so enjoy your blog and your accounts of your life. I was afraid you’d be taking a long break. I have been feeling sadness and panic. Kind of, if only I would have, could have, should have. Even though I did the best I could with what I had. Not enough apparently. Not good enough according to society. I can’t wait to meet the cat ppl when we see more UFO s visit. Just something to look forward to.
Happy Birthday, Victoria. May your name give you the courage to be successful, in all you do!
Happy Birthday, Victoria!
Happy Birthday! Me and my wife and sons are just getting over a bad cold from after Christmas. I have been out of it but have to jump right in and concentrate on work so don’t thinks about much else. I usually read your blog and others to start my morning then move on to work. Hope you feel better! Dan