late night reflection

 

after yet another experience of “I NEED TO SLEEP NOW” – where i drag myself to bed and don’t even recall falling asleep – just waking up an hour or so later.  tonight – when i woke up – i felt my muscles were quite weak and i was shaking all over – almost as though i was very cold suddenly.  my mate had the same experience.  and our girl – while she didn’t sleep – commented she felt her muscles were like jelly for a few moments. interesting as i had told my mate in private my muscles felt like jello.  she has also told me in the last 2 days she feels butterflies in her tummy as though something big is about to happen. butterflies of excitement.

something’s definitely “up”.

but what is “it”?

i like to know.  i like to be in charge of my ENTIRE experience.  deception and i don’t align.

i also had some moments where again i felt i was walking sideways.

something about our reality is being changed – affected – by something.

the question is:  what is that “something”.  benevolent or otherwise?

others say to trust – do not engage in doubt.  and yet they are the ones who claim to hold answers and “secret” intel – having alleged access to these “comms”.

by nature i am a leader – not a follower – so this is especially challenging for me.  more than once i have commanded to be “in on the gig”.  let me see.

for now – i am going to detach and find something funny to watch.

love,

v.

Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator.

2 thoughts on “late night reflection”

  1. “i like to know. i like to be in charge of my ENTIRE experience. deception and i don’t align.”
    I am feeling the same. I do not consent to being uninformed when information is available – and at this point in the game, I am certain I would be much more beneficial to humanity, knowing and understanding more; That would cause me less anxiety about all these unknowns.

    “something about our reality is being changed – affected – by something.”
    I have been feeling the same kinds of butterflies your girl describes, along with “flashes” of something/somewhere amazing. But “reality” seems to hit quickly and “remind me” to worry about all those unknowns I mentioned above. Something BIG shifted this last month or two though. And again this last week.
    <3

  2. I had the pressure in the head with eyes hurting really bad and not being able to focus for the last 2 days. Strange sensations in the head as well along with that swimming feeling and walking sideways as well. Husband commented tonight that his legs felt weak, almost like jello. Sometimes I also get the sensations all over the body like I can feel my cells spinning faster, sometimes tingling as well, just plain weird sensations. I do get the hot and extreme cold that you talk about, seems more hot spells these last few days whereas I had the freezing spells more last month.
    World is getting crazier and crazier and I just keep trying to ignore and sometimes laugh at the stupid remarks of ignorant people. I know, I shouldn’t judge, but hey, sometimes it’s just too funny!
    Take care everyone.

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