I have something really beautiful I want to share….
You know that moment when you meet someone who truly “gets” something about you – something you often keep to yourself. Something that when you have shared with others they either dismiss it, forget about it or don’t understand the dynamics. For me it is panic/claustrophobia due to trauma that has not been properly treated and has gone on far too long, it has changed my brain. I can count on one hand the number of people who “get it” and have been willing to really SEE it. I have never shared it to dump on others or overwhelm them and the LAST thing I seek to do is inconvenience others with my issue. I recently met someone and tonight I told her about this issue. Not only did she thank me for sharing, she shared how she had once had the same issue. And not only that, she already came up with a plan to create gatherings together that will be most comfortable for me – at this time. Talk about a gift. I am full of emotion as I type this.
Sometimes being SEEN is the best gift to give – and receive.
And I said “at this time” above because I am once again focused on healing from this issue. The trauma practitioner I began seeing this year had her practice shut down to the covid crap. I let it go for awhile but in recent weeks I knew I had to try and do something with her to continue the work. We are looking for a place to rent here locally without success yet. The dreaded “covid crap” still in play. She suggested she could come to my house. The only private space here is the garage. It isn’t heated. It’s damp and cold. But at this point, if we can’t find a place by next week, we will be doing work in the garage. I’ll run space heaters and we will do our thing. I’m bleeping f’ing bleeping overly ready bto be free from this issue.
It is possible to heal a wounded, traumatized mind. The matrix program(s) made great effort to keep me hidden – to silence my voice and keep me afraid and attacked. But my heart won’t quit. My spirit won’t stop. I felt safe and seen tonight. And I know I deserve to have that as part of my experience. As I had a quiet moment to myself in the kitchen after the gathering, I heard that voice in my head try and push away the gift I had been given but then the Real Me came in strong, solid yet gentle and said “Allow the love.” Take the gift. I deserve it.
Here are some finds….
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Really interesting…..symbolic for the “storm” knocking….i want to add our weather has been unusually stormy for this time of year – and I am hearing others say the same….the cosmic playing out in the physical….and this is happening because we are in a simulation….the consciousness affects the reality….cue says “it will be biblical” and “flood”….the biblical flood has been told as 40 days and 40 nights although scholars have said it is more like a year….some theorize now that the 40 days/nights began november 3rd and lasts through december 14th…i found this (the bold is my emphasis): The Floodwaters Arrive
…11 In the six hundredth year of Noah’s life, on the seventeenth day of the second month, all the fountains of the great deep burst forth, and the floodgates of the heavens were opened. 12And the rain fell upon the earth for forty days and forty nights.1
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