Today – I just can’t. I can’t share what I see. I can’t speculate. Yesterday felt better. Today just sucks. “Their” day. Did I already share that earlier? Short term memory lapse. Tonight after dinner I was telling my girl what her dad wore on our first 3 dates some 20 plus years ago. She was amazed I could remember something so specific when I can’t remember what we had for dinner last night. “Priorities,” I said and kissed the top of her head.
I’ve been contemplating who God really is – to me. For me. So many narratives – beliefs. Lin Wood – who overall I really like – was speaking of the old testament God – the one who judges, casts you into hell for disobeying and not following commandments. This is the god to fear (and you’re a fool if you don’t). I just can’t go there. Speaking as a parent – I want my girl to respect my authority – and I want her to have enough sense to fear a consequence if she does something she knows she isn’t supposed to – especially something that would harm her or another (and it’s a real balance to get that formula down – as a parent). But to be afraid of me? To fear my judgment (which is different than guiding her with my perspective and wisdom)? No. As I have said to some who believe if they don’t honor god’s word they goin’ to hell – would you ever throw your own child into a burning pit for eternity because they defied your command?
And Rose’s narrative of One – as one of you said (and cracked me up) – “I don’t know who that dude is!” I don’t either. I don’t resonate.
I resonate with being a part of something beautiful and divine and free. Creative Consciousness. Play. Create. Love. Freedom. Live and let live. So I ponder….if perhaps while there is one Source of ALL – there formed a variety of beliefs which includes a god that judges and tells you what to do…..a god that is like a loving parent….or a god that leaves you alone (unless you need some guidance). Or it’s all just energy and we’re making up all these stories depending on our current experience.
What are you all doing to get through this whatever-it-is. Period. Event(s). War. Evil doing its thing and spreading their stink and energy everywhere (OMG it is so palpable!). I did some binge watching of brady bunch – burned out. Gonna try Laverne and Shirley next.
Other than that – yoga. Deep breathing. WOULD REALLY LIKE SOME SUN AND REAL WEATHER which I called for daily for weeks – now I’m just like “whatever”. Too tired to fight that one atm. And too mentally spent to see one more iota of evil disclosure. We don’t need to see this much. It went on too long. That, right there, is my truth and remains my truth.
So let’s HURRY UP THIS COLLAPSE! What say you?
I was raised Catholic and so bought into the God of Fear for awhile, though deep within I knew God differently. As I shed myself of Catholicism, I discovered novels written by a priest, wherein he said that God was as a Lover pursuing the Beloved, awaiting the Beloved’s response – never forcing, never threatening, never fomenting fear in the Beloved. Then I discovered that one of the meanings of fear is “reverential awe, veneration”. Now my own understanding shows me the I AM as of pure blazing Light, drenching all of us in love. More recently, as I have dived deeper into the evil that has controlled us for millennia, I have realized that even the God of the New Testament is not the true God; everything we have been taught about learning lessons, ancestral history, that things are still our fault, etc. is part of their agenda. The Truth is that “we are Stardust, we are Golden” and we are now getting ourselves, with the infinite, loving help of the God of Light, back to the Garden. Jesus came to teach us that – that we are NOT sinners; he came to give us the message of who we really are, that we are pure Love. He did not come to start a new religion. “They” turned his murder into a religion and perverted his message. Remember, “Satan” inserts enough truth into his message to seduce us into believing it.
i couldn’t have said it better myself. thank you so much denise for such a beautifully and perfectly written expression of God and our God Spark! can i copy and share it on a piece later on (with credit to you of course)? your words have moved me so much! 🙂
I didn’t want to be too long-winded, but something else that I realized by learning about quantum physics is that everything is energy. Source/God/ All That Is is energy and the only way for Source/ the Universe to expand is to express in the material. So, we are all Source in expression and everything we do, think, create, feel assists in that expansion and that expression. We ARE the God Spark; we can never get it wrong, we cannot be sinners; we can only make choices by free will that will have desired or undesired consequences, which will cause us to make more choices, thus expanding the Universe/God. It is a most magnificent, joyous, co-creative Universe!