Today’s Reflections ~ 5.17.22

 

 

Perpetual exhaustion – with brief interludes of bursts of energy to get the basics done – continues.  I woke up early morning with a very heavy heart – a longing – a deep lonliness.  Social deprivation has gone on far too long.  I feel like we’re prisoners in our home.  Unable to find real connection – and apprehensive to be around anyone who partook of the juice (had another experience last night which simply pissed me off as I had done my protocols and intended protection and felt 100% safe & fine – until it happened – I’m ok today).  It’s a challenge to keep sane now – especially with this one issue alone as many if not most seem to have no issue with this – making us once again misfits here.  There are a couple of groups I have found of people who experience the same sensitivity.  It’s sad to see how many even in this “awakening” movement dismiss this issue.  I could sure use a miracle right about now to bring us a new place and new tribe – real friends.  Doing the best we can for as long as we have doesn’t have the power it once did.  This family has been slowly starving for too long.  I don’t even feel putting myself out there the way I have is worth my time – certainly not when I do and nothing comes back to me.  You know the whole put out what you want and a door or window opens.  I get silence and “wait”.  Neither is ok with me now.  Neither.

Sorry folks for the downer but that’s how I feel now.  There could have been much more done to create real support networks for people like us.

Will share some interesting finds later.  Some gave me hope – but I need a lot more than hope now.  I need that miracle.  Or two.  Or more.

Love,

V.

Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator.

6 thoughts on “Today’s Reflections ~ 5.17.22”

  1. Well, Ms. V, if it’s any consolation to you, yesterday I felt such a profound sense of sorrow and sense of loss, that it was nearly unbearable. At first I attributed it to an “energetic eclipse hangover” but realized that it was due to my pulling away further from this inverted 3d realm. I’m at the stage of mentally shrugging my shoulders. I’m ready! I realize I’ve neglected to write to you very often, but don’t forget that I’m still here. Jim

    1. thank you Jim. and it’s good to hear from you, btw. 🙂 i need real connection now – and i too have had moments of intense sadness that feels as you said – almost unbearable. i too feel more pulled away than ever. i’m ok w/that – in so long as something NEW comes along. i know it’s there – but jesus – this waiting for it sucks.

  2. Psyop Fatigue has exacted its toll. Next we must find a way to address the psychological trauma and endeavor to heal ourselves and others. The trouble many of us AWAKE ones face has to do with hitting the wall of denial and avoidance of those who ignore the realities of the war on our very souls!

    1. i don’t know how we heal ourselves – much less one another at this point. that will have to happen after this is all over. for now – we – i – do what i can to “deal”.

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