9.5.23 ~ A reflection…………..a gematria……….and whatever else

 

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So I’m seeing the show continue to play out in its insane format of stewpid, with T and others talking about how much better this place (the states) were under his rule.  Seeing him and others talk about all of these things that will be coming back including tariffs and easier access to pharmaceuticals and gas powered cars.  My mind hears “blah blah blah NO”.

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None of it aligns.  NOT. ONE. BIT.  I try and pretend – fake it – bring it in – as it’s all that is being offered to us.  But it is all just a lie to myself – making me wonder – again – wtf I am doing here…

I know what I want – I keep seeing it and bringing it in.

But………….there’s this:

So either the narrative that we all get out and we get to frigging actually CHOOSE (the way FREE CREATOR BEINGS DO) the reality and experience we want……….or we’re gonna be stuck in another pay to live system of competition –  just a cleaned up version.  (see above again for how I feel about that)

Where is OUR narrative?  Where is the narrative storyline about HOME and REAL healing and DNA restoration and RETURNED memories and REAL ORGANIC NATURAL LIVING AND BEING?  It’s in our hearts and out of the mouths of those who channel.  That’s about it.  Where are these things in the awakening movement headlines?

Or am I just being too impatient?  (again)?

Today was another challenge day energetically.  I saw the condition of my brain and the trauma in my body (that I continually now clear as best as I can).  On a walk today – my girl and I – she suddenly sees a snake and screams “SNAKE!”  I about jump outta MY skin – and it took me a few minutes to literally regain my composure.  Then about 15 minutes later we’re walking back up in the same area – and she’s saying watch out for the snake – and I said “we are protected” and as soon as I say that – she decides to open up the water bottle and spill out some on the concrete walking path which sounds just like a frigging snake.  I jumped yet again – and this time I had to walk to a bench and compose myself before I could finish the walk.  I was shaking all over.

So………..I held it together until I couldn’t anymore.  I release the embarrassment and shame and guilt I hold in asking for help – a lot of help.  I am accountable for me – but I am not taking on the full accountability for how this reality has allowed for the unhealthy conditions in which I have been in.  All I can do is love me for me and purge what I don’t want or need and keep at it and pray and intend that the experience I want and need is ready to burst wide open and through for me.  And ditto that for any of you whose life experience here has been less than stellar and supportive – and for whom you need some extra extra’s atm.  Who the fook doesn’t?

So much to go around – too much hoarded and controlled.  Why can’t we all just stop what we’re doing in an organized fashion – and for one week – unite and say ENOUGH.  WE DONE.  NO MORE CONTROLS.  We ain’t budging or supporting your sheot until you step off the stage.  

???

Remember the movie – Risky Business – where his character had just had it with his life at that time – he felt he had nothing much left to lose or to hide – and he put on those sunglasses – said that famous line?

You try to do the right thing – over and over and over.  You DO the “right” thing – over and over and o v e r.  Then “this place” happens – over and over.  You fall down.  You get back up.  You get smacked down again.  (omg – being asked why can’t you use paypal i don’t get it……or why did you get banned on social media?  why does google censor you?  i don’t get it…….)

A R G H!!!!!!!!!!!

The cycle repeats until sometimes, in some moments, you arrive at this place where morality gets tossed out the window – you no longer care about what is “right” or what some system b.s. rule or law says – and you just gotta take care of yourself #1 and do what you need to do however you need to do it.

And screw the rest.

Here’s a gematria.  And whatever else……….

Love,

V.

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The fact that THIS is being allowed to happen …….Seriously – who can justify this now?   Oh, ignore it – yeah just like we ignored it when children were trafficked or pick a topic.  How much longer we just gonna stay in our bubbles quietly?   We gonna have to go into civil war?  Where is our line in the sand?  How long do we trust in the plan?  How long we wait until we see what we all want to see?  Tough questions but someone has to ask them.

HERE WE GO: Public Elementary School in Wealthy DC Suburb Forcing Third-Grade Children to Wear Masks Again

 

 

McCarthy’s Time as Speaker May Be Coming to an End: Report

 

Gematria:  Vyommitra (the name of that India robot that is said to be sent on a “space” mission)

Great Awakening  (sky event?  who knows….)

Financial Reset

One One One One

The End Is Now

November Rain

Can You Feel It (been hearing both of those songs lately……….🤷‍♀️

 

Liking this.  And I’m ready – more than ever – to join up w/others and build our own space.  I. AM. READY.

 

Ok I could possibly get a wee bit excited about this one – as I’ve been posting here for a few years how T said at a rally the magic number 33………Any of you with knowledge:  how long would this take to get to 33T?  (this was 2 hours ago………now it’s at 32, 904…….ok so i asked – someone said it goes up 1 million every 30 seconds (confirmed – i misread the numbers – got the billion confused w/the million – thank goodness i never made a living in the stock market, eh?  lol)

 

 

This is interesting………..my understanding is they can be reauthorized as often as they are, well, reauthorized………but someone said since we’re in COG (Continuity of Government) – allegedly they can only be reauthorized twice……..so if that’s true then END maybe finally??!!

 

uh the END??!!

 

Good because I am soooooooooooo ready for this:

 

We are stardust……….we are billion years old………..getting back Home….

San Tarot…..we being told by higher selves and home who we really are…..interesting – trying to have a psychic breakthrough – i was focused (too much i realize) soooooo hard today on having one of those…..this is a nice one………very much resonating……….

Sagittarius – Baby, you’re a star!

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Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator.

One thought on “9.5.23 ~ A reflection…………..a gematria……….and whatever else”

  1. Hey–Sea Lions!!!! …wish I was with ’em! …So ready for the EAS or EBS or whatever they want to call it.

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