Rough night. Really. rough. night.
Went to sleep – fast and easily – feeling peaceful.
Woke up 4 hours later pounding my bed.
I continue to take steps to change myself and my experience.
Currently hitting a wall – again.
Thoughts of money – again.
To get well and to heal and to do x y z requires that. A lot of it.
Where I am now – if it isn’t free – I ain’t considering it.
I can’t.
Or maybe let me pay $5/month.
My site will have to return to basic (free) security. It’s an order of priority – eat, keep utilities going – then other things follow. Or this month – keep the car “legal” (g.d. car registration – which of course jumped up again).
WHEN DO I HAVE A SAY AS TO WHAT I CAN AND CANNOT PAY?!
Thinking and intending “oh this will switch by this time” when this time comes and goes.
I ain’t getting – understanding – anything. 12:34pm.
Just another number to remind me I’m in a giant computer.
I watched a movie last night – The Notebook. So beautiful. Their Love created enough magic for them to leave this realm together (at the end of their experience – both were suffering/struggling with horrid health conditions).
Money has made “the world go around” long enough. Why can’t we make LOVE do the same?
Do you struggle to feel safe – to feel the Universe (much less others) have your back?
Do you struggle to feel Love truly can solve everything?
Love in action?
Some moments I am there.
Now – I feel so worn down. My mind – fractured. My Soul – weary. My body………never mind about that. lol
How much longer do we have to continue to purge and release and power up and protect?
Why aren’t I allowed an answer to that question (or the other myriad of questions I have)?
Who is running this place?
And most importantly – how do we take back control and f’ing change it already back to WHAT WE WANT – ON OUR TIMELINE AND TIME FRAME?!
zzzzzzzzzzz
Love,
V.
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The profound questions always seem to evade our potential to fully comprehend how this wacky world works. I’m on your wavelength–wishing to regain sovereignty, and ensuring a future free of tyranny. I’m seeing some evidence for DEVOLUTION, however…unless this too is a false psyop. Blessons [ps, I had great difficulty remaining asleep for the last two nights. I was wondering if it was the full moon syndrome?]