Debate (brief) analysis and reflecting

 

I watched about 30 minutes or so.  I couldn’t do it anymore.  The frequency of the thing was dead – no energy to it.  I was repelled energetically however by what I was hearing.  Empty words.  Nothing new.  Maybe there will be some tidbits later that I missed.  But whoever is directing this movie is doing a ridiculously horrid job.  You want to wake up the rest now?  REMOVE JB’S FRIGGING MASK.  Get CNN out of it.  Afterwards they weren’t so favorable of JB but they sure let him lie and they blasted Trump.

This produces what effect?  What positive effect?

(there was one thing that stood out – and i was online everywhere trying to bring it to people’s attention without any real response – but hell two of the bigger channels point it out and people go “oooooooooooooh” – was both Trump and Biden were dropping LIVE on their respective social media accounts – Trump on Truth Social – Biden on X.  so much for “small accounts matter.”  We do not – we never have.)

Just like the myriad of narratives of how we’re going from 3D to 5D and we’re either going to have to work hard to rebuild an entirely new system (OMG i don’t know ANYONE who has the energy now for that!) – or we’re getting out of the matrix altogether and go back where we belong – or we’re going to have a NEW matrix just better.

Just ENOUGH already.

NONE OF US KNOWS A DAMN THING. 

And apparently none of us have any control over the ending.  Just little pawns on the ever-moving chessboard that never really seems to go anywhere, paradoxically.

And I am exhausted working hard every day to change how I think and feel so I can shift my life.  Do you know how hard that is to do with the life I am experiencing here?  Alone?!

I get more criticism than I do love.  Hell, some people are flat out ghosting me.

I get questioned on what I’m doing and why.

I get told I can’t do THIS or THAT because “that’s just how the system is”.

How often do I get asked “what do you need?”

Not nearly enough.

Not nearly. enough.

Meanwhile, I am getting more tired.  More desperate.  More angry.  And feeling more alone out here.  I watch my efforts start to create something then BAM something comes in and crushes it and I have to frigging start over again.

I CANNOT SUSTAIN THIS.

Jesus – if you are real and you hear me – HELP ME ALREADY!!!!!!

SEND ME THE HELP AND OPPORTUNITIES I FOCUS ON EVERY DAY.

And put an END to these attacks.  Jesus – put an END TO THEM.

That’s all I got in me tonight.  I feel pretty f’ing alone on this stage – people reading – not reaching out or commenting.  Why I ever allegedly chose to come here and be a part of this insanity, I am kicking myself today.  Stupid stupid choice.