Today was, well, a people to the nth degree type of day. I did not set out to create that experience. On top of the usual family stuff (where I began to feel I could simply not do a darn thing to please them), I had neighbors visiting unexpectedly (WHY is it some people truly think you are always available simply because you’re home with a child??). Kids coming over. I set off with my ear buds and music machine late in the afternoon for a walk. That turned into more unwelcomed, er, “diversions”.
I can see where I needed to just say “NO” to most if not all of these experiences. I was already very tired and my old program thought of “be kind” over-rode the voice inside of me that was saying JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.
I spent some time going through articles, videos. Same old stuff that feels no different to me right now than it did weeks ago. The experience was palpable today. It feels quite strong that I feel I am simply reading the same stuff, same words, just arranged differently. Yes, I could have shared it all here. I have a bunch of new subscribers (THANK YOU!! [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]) and so I have a responsibility to share a variety of articles and the like each day.
Today? Just not really up to it. I can offer a summary though: Ascension continues (quick note ~ i woke up with anxiety and shaking then had moments of bliss and ear-ringing). Waiting on the Event continues. Gridworkers and Wayshowers and the snowflakes and Trump supporters (who I believe are being called Nazi’s at the moment if I am not mistaken) fulfilling roles and missions and doing their doing’s. Oh and Gaia is flipping the frig out.
Am I into ANY of it?
NOT ONE BIT.
Not today that is.
Today….I just want to BE.
Today there is ONE person I want to spend time with (that would be ME) and I was not able to create that space in the way I intended.
Until now.
So I am off for now ~ not to work here but to BE.
Listen to some music.
Not cook a meal or make a snack or tend to some need or listen to a conversation I’ve heard a million times already or listen to someone speak of their health procedure or how they went to some dinner and were served raw chicken or arrange a playdate or plan a school day or make sure I have enough articles linked on my site or make sure I keep up with all of the happenings and blah blah blah blah blah BLAH.
Today ~ tonight (whatever the frig time it is) all of that ~ I am telling you I AM DONE.
I am going to tend to my needs. Since no one else has asked me how I am or what I need, I am going to take care of my own self/Self. She’s asking me to dance and sing and play. And I am listening.
Until next time…(i will be back….most likely….i think….hmmmm….lol) [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]
Victoria
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