A check-in/reflection on yesterday’s experience and some finds ~ 8.19.23

 

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it’s hard to “go out there” – again.  i have had time to process what i felt yesterday and want to thank those of you who held space for me and were simply PERFECT in your responses.  you know who you are.  i am motivated further to continue to ask what i need – and as one of you said – if someone can’t handle your tears and pain – they aren’t worth my time.  i thought about that phrase especially “worth”.  i am WORTHY and anyone who can hold space for me while still encouraging me is worth. my. time.

as i said my trust issues are cracked – but not broken.  still cracked – so i approach others very carefully when i need to just Be (as sister j calls it – the “ugly cries”).  and the way i see it now – anyone who can’t handle it while claiming to be too high vibe and that is how i should be too – that is coming from the ego/narc program.  again – not worth my time.  i know what love is and what it feels like.  P E R I O D.

that leads me to something beautiful sister denise shared with me.  it applies to us all.  WE ARE HIGH VIBE BEINGS.  our natural frequency – which is ALWAYS with us – is naturally high.  when we get into the lower states that is NEVER anything to feel ashamed of.  NEVER anything we need to criticize ourselves for.  that is what evil wants.  WE CANNOT FAIL AT GETTING OUT OF THIS PRISON.  P E R I O D.  ANYONE who claims otherwise or claims we have to keep up the vibe to get up isn’t awake or coming from the heart nor tuned into that higher wisdom.  again – i know what love is now and what it feels like.  for me.  P E R I O D.

so i continue to ask what i need.  i did it today for a certain product i use and cannot afford at the moment and await a response.

i continue to ask for financial support of my work(s) and to ask for all who come here to share.  because for now while still operating in this place of paying to live – the work i do is numbers based.  the more who see, the more $$.  and right now i need that support – currently to keep food on the table (cupboards refrig too lol) – until pay day in 2 weeks.  i forgot what it’s like to be a teenager – who at times eat copious amounts of food.  i go to the snack cupboard and stare blankly at the near empty cracker boxes or raisins i just bought or the loaf of bread that is down to 2 slices.  she also wants dance lessons (i can’t afford that – not even close now).  i am literally going in to debt again to keep things afloat.  ……  things like that – yeah -they weigh on me no matter what i tell myself.  i don’t like it – one of those energies i work on switching but i also know not to feel heavy burden with that because i did not create this reality nor did i create the current cost of food.  if anything i have energetically and vocally fought back against it – for years.  decades.

but i also know i have to conserve my energy – and right now fighting back is not in me.  asking is.  so please help me by answering that call – donate and/or share my work everywhere on your social media accounts.

for now – friends – i feel an empty space regarding the future and have for awhile.  a couple of other sisters i have spoken with have said the same (without knowing i was sensing the same).  however – that appears to be shifting somewhat – at times – a new OF MY CREATION – waxing in.  one moment i feel/see nothing – other moments i feel called to create what i want and can begin to see it before it disappears.

it is happening – ending here – new there.  there is a plan – created by many – including ourselves.  sometimes we wait – sometimes we do.  walk into the energy of God/Creator (thank you denise for giving me that inspirational vision).  the Real Universe.  and my addition – the Real Me – who today i saw in a vision – holding out her hand – trust.  come along.  this way.

sister LH passed this one along to me – it’s perfect to share now.

love,

victoria

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The Honolulu Fire Department has battled a “wildland fire” in Wahiawa on the island of Oahu.  According to KHON2, the fire is “near the area of the historical Kukaniloko Birth Site.”  The Kukaniloko Birthstones are a sacred location in Hawaiian culture, similar to Lahaina.

 

possibly interesting………..

Will Joe Biden’s Lake Tahoe Vacation Be Impacted by Path of Hurricane Hilary?

 

Russians Hit Drone Convention With a Missile Strike in Chernihiv – MSM Runs Cover for Ukrainian Regime, as Local Citizens Criticize Military Event on Populated Area

 

 

maybe when he goes on with Tucker (instead of participating in the debates)?

…President Donald J. Trump plans to upstage the first Republican primary debate on Wednesday by sitting for an online interview with the former Fox News host Tucker Carlson,…

 

maybe – i’m still leaving it up – most i block are crypto and porn bots……what do they need to see?

 

i returned to anonup – and received a lot of love which touched me.  twitter was feeling too heavy and confrontational.  i’ll still share some things – but i am not spending the time or energy there for now.

ENOUGH. IS. ENOUGH. IS. ENOUGH.  no more suffering.  let those who want this reality HAVE IT and let those of us who have been so focused on what we WANT HAVE IT.  WE COMMAND IT OF THE UNIVERSE.

Kat istheSea3  @KatistheSea3
19 August, 04:22
In response URBAN SQUIRREL to her Publication

Agree 💯 with your beautiful reply, URBAN.

I think people are slowly
coming into the awareness
that the attack on LAHAINA, MAUI
is like 9-11
is like Pearl Harbor
& the RESPONSE not only from the WH MIL
but from the American people
must be a united cry of
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!

There is a Media Blackout
so Americans who are not Anons
really don’t understand what happened in Lahaina.

It was a brutal, vicious, heartless SLAUGHTER
on so many levels, including ritual,
& we must fight back
with INFORMATION as best we can 👊🐸

As I understand it there were 2 or 3 Joe M’s
& IMO QTSR was one of them.

Remember QTeam works in mysterious ways
& have COUNTLESS online avatars
so when you read QTSR & Joe M
even the misspellings are similar 😎🕊

💞 Ke aloha a me ka hoʻomaikaʻi iā ʻoe e Lahaina
Sending love & blessings to you Lahaina 💞

#GodWins

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interesting timing perhaps……….
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our favorite earthquake truther guy:  d (Dutchsinse)  (interesting – when i woke up heard “do you remember the 21st night of september” in my mind – pull up this video – there’s an ad singing the same. lyrics.)….”reality isn’t really real” – his words – just spoken…..

 

 

Ryan Hall Ya’ll……….HELP SOOTHE IT………….go to the 5:45 mark – it lines up w/vk’s post from 8.22.20 above……..

We’ve Never Seen A Storm Like This One…

 

 

Absofookinglutely…….
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Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator.