So apparently this is Dark Sky Week ~ some bizarre event started in 2003 (but I never once heard of it until tonight) to get us all to turn off our lights to appreciate the dark sky minus light pollution. Anyway, in my hopeful mind I thought oooh use something of theirs back at them so maybe something really amazingly WONDERFUL will manifest during this week so let’s gematria it and see what comes up:
Simulation
Rigged Election
Election Fraud
Trump Winning
False Reality
The Time Machine
I Have A Chance To Break
The Deep State
Trump is Q
I don’t know friends – I know this is an inside experience – and I go inside and go inside and go within and I continue to come up with the same desires and wants and knowing I am waiting for something OUT THERE to change that aligns with what IS IN HERE INSIDE ME now. I mean come on – this is getting stewpid and insane and just beyond WTAF IS GOING ON HERE AND WHY IS THIS STILL GOING ON?!?!!! And What can WE DO TO SPEED IT UP??? I’d like my abundance back and my wealth and my healing abilities and all of that. I want to remember what happened here and where I really am and WHO I really am – those questions I’ve had since I was 5. I’d like to be able to not feel trauma and my mind go numb when I see something in our life here that needs or may need to be taken care of that requires money we really don’t want to spend because we have been saving (trying to certainly) for the past year to find that right perfect home for us in a much more rural, like-minded community – and oooh that search is going SOOOO (NOT) well and is producing just further frustration – but I keep at it because that is who I am – and my mind goes there because of our current situation as well as how my mate handles things when there is an expense (real or otherwise) needing to be taken care of – and I just – I go numb for awhile. The energy behind all of this is so intense – I realized when I was sharing this all with my mate – my gums bled. Ya know you have a lot of repressed stuff when that happens! So……… You know, I’m just absolutely frigging beyond damn done in knowing others have power over me/us all because of M O N E Y. That’s it – all because of MONEY because here Money = POWER. And anyone who disagrees with that one can ask just a few of the thousands of homeless people living in tents in our city because hey – now people want to charge $900 f’ing dollars for a ROOM. I don’t get it – I don’t get it at all – just because you CAN do something doesn’t mean you SHOULD – because hey – the world suddenly decided to go extra bat sheot crazy and hike up food 25% and housing that much or more but hey we NEEEEEEEEEEEEEED to do this so people can SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe and yet it is the people who NEEEEEEEEEEEED to see – at least around here – who are doing fine in their big homes and ukranian flags with their little sunflowers all over them because BLM is no longer popular and neither is “doing it for the all” so they needed SOMETHING to “feel good about” – and putting up a sign makes them feel soooooo good. But hey – they’re waking up and seeing right?
UGH. UGH UGH UGH UGH!
I mean – two of the gematria’s right now – staring at me in the face are telling me “I AM SO BORED RIGHT NOW” and “REALLY REALLY STUPID” – that’s how I feel. That is what is REALLY WITHIN ME NOW – surrounding the peace and quiet and desires and visions is that experience – the ME HERE is BORED and FED UP and NEEDING CHANGE! GOOD CHANGE. OUT. THERE. That positively motivates and expands on my experience. GET BACK TO US GOD orrrrrrrrrrrrrrr GET US BACK TO GOD! Like – N O W!!!
Preaching to the choir. I’m walkin’ off the soapbox stage now. Until next time, right?
In love and freedom ~
