UPDATE: (sometimes perhaps i need to “wait” and let a feel resonate before i just share….it is possible the message/advice was to help us stay out of the lower energy/depressed state of “longing”….as i was outside sun gazing and drying my hair, reflecting on this, i felt it was useful to keep the desire going and to KNOW it was happening….a higher state of Being than in a more depressed state of longing……longing combined with knowing….and one last share – as Sister D passed along to me – the idea of all of this purging we are doing – feels to me like we are being poked to do – who does that feed? energetically? “them”. they’ve had enough “food” from me. from us all. so feel away – and use discernment to see if this is yours to feel or just another memory coming up that we have visited 100 times before. if we are the controller’s of our experience, then we get to choose when we are “done” with an emotional energy.
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i’m in the middle of my doing’s for the first part of the day and when i “get” something (message/feel) i usually will write it down and share it later. not doing that today.
i was thinking about and feeling into the advice we were given yesterday in the latest DTC video – how we are to cease longing for Home. maybe i didn’t hear correctly – but that is what i recall hearing and it hit me like a jab in the gut.
what? stop longing for Home?
isn’t that like telling a prisoner to stop longing for getting out and returning Home to friends and family whom you have been a part from for a long time? yes, yes – it is.
doesn’t the longing – the desire to return Home – keep that energy flow to Home alive? i would think family from Home would feel it if we stopped that energy flow to return. speaking only for myself – given who i am – if i were to be in the position of being outside of this realm and had loved one(s) inside, i would feel sad and concerned if suddenly i stopped feeling my loved one’s longing for Home.
perhaps it’s a semantics issue that wasn’t fully explained.
or perhaps not. i’m feeling off as i said – about this latest one. perhaps it’s because of the horrid attack she experienced weeks ago. some lingering compromises there. this isn’t to judge her – overall i find her to be like most of us – wanting the truth – and wanting to just be free to go Home (whatever/wherever that experience is).
so no – i am not able to live in an inauthentic manner and that includes ceasing to acknowledge my life long longing for Home “out there”. i don’t need to obsess about it – but that feeling i carry deep within my being and my heart – shutting it off is not an option.
NO COMPROMISES. NO DEALS. FREEDOM NOW.
love,
victoria
