A reflection on Creating

I saw someone on social media saying how they are just DONE with the whole notion of “create your own experience”.  This was in response to a meme speaking of how when we expect better for ourselves the Universe responds.

Yeah, not here so well, right?  When I say “they” compromised EVERYTHING here I fully assert EVERY THING.

I remember about 14 years ago or so, a psychologist telling me that for every thought we put out to the Universe that held a desire in which we were wanting, perhaps one out of 100 or so would manifest.  That had been my experience – continues to be my experience – and yet even at that moment I knew there was something VERY wrong about that.

Wrong indeed.  It’s “wrong” because that was not our Original Experience as Creator Beings.

We are Source.  We have that Code of Source in us.  That is what “they” wanted to take from us – and knowing they couldn’t fully take it – they created an environment that made it much more hampered in our ability to utilize that innate part of us (while fractilizing us in the process).  And yeah, ya’ll know the rest – at least as much as we have been able to put together for I know there is more yet to be seen – once their reign and rule is fully gone and ALL mechanisms of control are destroyed.

I woke up this morning with a song playing in my mind – felt like it came from the Outside to keep me going.  The Creator in me – as tired as the rest of me is – wants to Create.  Wants to bust outta here and be Free to play and live and create once again.  I’ve had more “memories” return – more of those things that my body carries.  I feel I have come to this place where all I need is ME within to guide me.  I am certainly done with feeding anything that is theirs and at this point – EVERYTHING pushed at us here is theirs – or was compromised by them.  This planetary crap and astrological crap and date calendar crap.  Do this on THIS day.

NOT HAPPENING.  We don’t have to WAIT for some particular day or date or planetary alignment to DO.  That isn’t Original Creating.  Original Creating is CONSTANT and UNIMPEDED.  I don’t have to answer to ANYONE.  Neither do you.  The Source in me says to YOU – create.  Be happy.  BE FREE.

So….this person today as I was first sharing – is done with hearing you create what you desire here.  Me too.  We are all quite literally waitin’ on the world to change – waiting on the removal of the entities who hijacked – waiting on the end of their ruling structures and systems.  Do we remain in these bodies?  I am still not sure about that.  I know this body needs a serious upgrade and an END to their b.s. aging agenda.  And I know that no matter WHAT I say to/visualize/focus on to the contrary, my body is still following along with what it was programmed to do.  Today at breakfast, I was giving my girl her supplements (whole food).  I’ve felt off about the whole supplement industry.  Another one of their systems.  Hijack the food and then say “lookie over here at all of these supplements you need due to the nutritional declines ya’ll have experienced due to how we manufacture food”.  Even eating “organic” is compromised – all of that food still requires the same air and soil (laden w/their poisons) and water in which to grow.  Soil used to be nutrient dense – that is hard to find now even in the world of organics.  So yeah – we rob your right to healthy food and take more of your money with this supplement to make up FOR the lack of nutrients.

I pause as I typed that out….for it can lead to an inner battle, doesn’t it? Talk positive to your body that is under ongoing assault.  Accept, we read.  Allow. Then “YOU control your body”.  I remember something I saw on a Greg Braden (name?) video – showing someone with a tumor on their kidney – and a group of doctors stood over the patient and prayed/intended the tumor away.

Interesting to note – this healing came from others (with an open minded patient too of course).  And yet even though this was powerful and beautiful to watch – it is supposed to be EASY and is supposed to come from WITHIN and not requiring a group to create that process.

What comes to my visual is that healing ENERGY is Source and when there are a group of people focused on the desired outcome – miracles and healing take place.

And yet even at that – this doesn’t work 100% of the time here does it?  I think of my friend who passed a few weeks ago from cancer – the most positive/God focused woman I have met in this lifetime.  She had HUNDREDS of people and herself focused on her healing as well and yet – her body died. So…..I KNOW our ability to Create FULLY and FREELY our own experience is how it is supposed to be.  !!!  (stomping my feet like a child – lol – i have said that phrase “but that’s how it is SUPPOSED to be” countless times since childhood to others – mostly adults – and been given the same look or attempt at silence and i get that – it is a difficult place to visit – that truth)  …  But I know – the matrix is at work – allowing for some miracles to take place to keep us trying and always reaching for that dangling carrot they ultimately have controlled.  Heck, they even hijacked the experience and relationship with Source, didn’t they?

I don’t share any of this to be a downer – only a realist in what I have concluded after 50 plus years of going within and questioning and researching.  So….for now….I continue to hold what I desire – I cannot do different and I won’t.  But I also don’t beat myself up anymore for my struggle to Create as I desire.  It once was EZ.

And it will be EZ again.

Love,

V.

Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator. View all posts by Victoria1111