Beginning with a Prayer Request. My friend Tracy asked that we put out prayers for her family member Heather, whom she is very close to. Heather is to undergo surgery that will free her from a medical device she has had to wear. Thank you!
So…………………Don’t know what’s going on “out there”. I don’t care atm. Only thing in my mind and heart is ARREST THEM ALL and liberate and heal US.
I woke up thinking about all of these “sensitivities” I have. I’ve spent the better part of the last 30 years trying to either heal or fix or change these “sensitivities” of mine. Done the same with removing trauma. Changing my thoughts. Exercises. Deep breathing. Mantra’s. Meditations.
The truth is – my sensitivities are just an indicator that I am in the WRONG PLACE. The WRONG frequency. The WRONG system. It isn’t a reflection of how defective I am – but rather how toxic and defective this reality is. The only way for me to heal is to return to/go to a reality that ALIGNS where my “sensitivities” as labeled here is how everyone is thus no need for a label to separate.
Speaking of – I also thought about keeping the eyes on the prize: Freedom. Liberation. Healing. Love. Keep thy eyes on the prize without getting lost in the details for that is when we can become divided – debating and/or arguing about the details. I gotta watch that myself. Those details are largely hidden from us anyway – allegedly for us (war and all).
I am once again exhausted and have reached a space where I am now wondering how much longer I can “drag myself” through this. I went to bed at a decent hour but still – wake up – walk around – return to bed – repeat 1-2x more. Anxiety is high – woke up shaking. Weeping. Too tired for drama or conflict or anything else similar – just kinda sigh and smile when I can – or hands up walk away just cannot deal. Seems about all I have left at times now is just what little softness and love is in my heart – which naturally doesn’t want anything BUT love in action and presentation. What once was me saying DO NOT QUIT has quietly become “i just can’t………….” Until the lioness energy comes back in. But me thinks that is not part of our natural experience – just necessary at times here.
Anyway……..
Then there is this – sent to me by one of you beautiful Souls – to show that hey maybe that dream I had a few years ago (!!!) was in indicator the end is here.
They’re cutting salaries at the post office by thousands of dollars pic.twitter.com/L5SkJcERc7
— Washingtons ghost (@hartgoat) April 3, 2023
Love,
V.
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