forthcoming rant:
i feel like i am losing my mind. i have N E V E R encountered the blocks and resistance i am currently experiencing. i had to tell my girl today i couldn’t drive up the “big hill” because we are almost out of money and have less than 1/4 of a tank of gas. i’m feeling alone – isolated. who promotes this site other than me? i am needing to feeeeeeeeeeel this space is worth keeping – this site. yes sounds like a needy child speaking but that is what is in my heart today – bringing up that experience that who i am/what i share isn’t of value. my friends and family think my site is a joke. ok the physical people in my daily life i shall say. they aren’t my definition of friends or family. my mate’s getting blocks – medical bills piling up and he needs more procedures as he is at a crisis w/one of his issues.
and i. cannot. energetically. carry any of this…but i know i have to….find SOME way…..and when i do receive guidance and apply it here, there and other places – the result has been the same – silence. i. don’t. get it. hence i said i feel i am losing my mind…. go within and find your true self. that is the only reason i am still up and out of bed and able to function lately. positive thoughts and all that don’t pay the bills. the inner angst is just overwhelming now and i don’t know what to do with it other than breath deeply. this system was designed to create these situations.
so these alleged energies coming up….i was told the below chart shows nonstop C flares…..causing the sleepy heaviness…..the need for sleep continues….going to bed earlier and sleeping almost 12 hours….some clarity and an open window for some breathing room would be most welcome now.
Well, I for one do not think your website is a joke. I don’t know how you do it because when I’m feeling crappy I don’t feel like talking to anyone or typing responses. It’s all I can do just to read articles and see what’s happening around the world. I check all the meterage too and yes, the energies have been quite intense. So I usually check your site daily to see what’s up and I usually rant to myself right there with you. So many times you have written exactly what I had been thinking it’s uncanny.
I also feel the same way that you do–that I feel so done with this place and I just want the event to happen NOW! My husband also had some new issues with these latest energies and I had the intense teeth and bone aching, but then I had shooting pains in my jaw, cheek, back of the head and other places and then a back tooth suddenly started really hurting besides just the allover teeth aching and I called a dentist only to have to wait until next week to get in. I don’t like doctors and dentists and with these energy symptoms it is so hard to have to sit in their chair anyway. Plus I am so sensitive anyway I don’t even like to have my teeth cleaned. So, putting on clove oil, doing colloidal silver, oil pulling and whatever I can think of so the infection doesn’t get worse.
So tired of all the crap and “just hanging in there”. Tired of trying to talk to people that don’t “get it”. Done so much releasing, transmuting, meditating, etc. and keep thinking that we should be done by now. Don’t want to and can’t seem to hang in there much longer!
Even so, I wish you all the best and maybe someday we’ll meet on the new earth or wherever our souls take us.
Victoria – I have said it before, and I will say it a hundred times more if needed – your site is one of the very few I still visit every single day. There is not much I can align with on the other sites I used to read frequently. It feels like many of them go on on their separated happy-go-lucky, or something-big-is-gonna-happen-soon timeline that doesn’t speak to me anymore. I think we all can say that we, what we think and what we feel and hope for, is a joke for someone else standing close to us. But it’s definitely not a joke for us who align with each other’s way of thinking and maybe especially questioning the given facts and truths. Just like Brenda in the comment above, I really do admire you for your daily efforts on continuing this blog. I appreciate it so much. And just like her I feel almost constantly “Oh, I feel/think the same way too” when I read your posts. But mostly I’m too exhausted to think what to write in a comment, without constantly repeating myself. And since I’m so totally DONE with this polarity/duality experiment, I don’t want to be a party pooper, even if my comments would probably just mirror what others feel too. Anyway, this is my humble and grateful way of saying THANK YOU for all your efforts you’re putting into this site!
I look forward to your messages and post every day. I wish I could give money more often but I am pretty broke as I have been out of full time work for almost 2 years now (from a job of 19 years) and am almost out of money. I am also done with this pay to live place and am getting tired of these almost events that make me depressed it didn’t happen after dates. Hang in there!