Last night, after experiencing more (groan) ascension symptoms of body aches and pains and emotional blockage in my heart chakra, I spent some time in quiet, hot buddies on my body, shiatsu massager on my back, and did some necessary purging. After that, I felt that I either received downloads (are those still coming??) or activated whatever downloads I had already received. Either way, I received some insights, and coupled with insights and visions I have had throughout the past 10 years, I was able to put some things together and thus, present to you my visions of new earth, what is going on right now, what is important to focus on and what we can let go of.
Again, these are just insights from my own Inner and Higher Selves. Please use your own guidance and discernment.
To begin with, even though my awakening began in my mid 20’s, my knowledge of New Earth/5D Earth did not come into my heart and consciousness until Fall 2012. Prior to 2012, I had a vision around the years 2006/2007, which I have shared in a previous Daily Notes post or two and will share again briefly. In the vision, I was with a group of Beings. We were tall and had an interesting form. While there was a physical mass (torso, arms, legs, head, etc.) we also seemed very “light” – almost as if we were floating. Illuminated is a good word to describe how we were. We were standing in a circle around a tree. I felt ~ blissful. Serene. Completely at home and totally in the moment. While I didn’t “see” with my mind’s eye what came next, I felt something unexpected happened and our civilization ended.
I have an issue I don’t talk about much. Call it embarrassment, call it shame, I just don’t share it much with others.
And yet it plagues me every day and has, off and on, since I was in my early 20’s.
My issue is agoraphobia. A term that still seems vague to me as my issue with it is complex. In a nutshell, I get feelings of panic and claustrophobia in certain situations. In crowds. Driving too far from my home. Driving in traffic. Freeways. Being in the car even as a frickin’ passenger now has become a huge challenge. Basically in ANY situation where I suddenly feel trapped and not in control (possibilities include: in line, other people’s houses, stores – anyplace outside of my home – i say “possibilities” because this is not a CONSTANT thing – it varies, depending upon time of day, how i am feeling – and yet even if I can partake of such normal activities without panic, it is always in the back of my mind “you may have a panic episode”). Throw in all of the extra stimulation’s of noise and light and too many people and activity, that just adds to the claustrophobic/GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE feeling.
It feels like I have this unwanted energy ball attached to me. And I want is GONE. Here is what I have tried to alleviate me of this issue:
EMDR
Rapid eye therapy
Holographic repatterning
Hypnosis
Cognitive behavior therapy
Subliminal’s
Binaural’s
Energy/reiki
Homeopathy
Somatic Therapy
Exposure therapy
Pleading praying and more pleading and praying
You get the picture. I have tried it. And I don’t know what else to do for it at this point. I had it under control – in remission you could say – about 20 years ago. At the time I used exposure therapy and pure will power. Lasted for several years. Without going into detail, stress and trauma’s and general feelings of unhappiness/lack of purpose lead to it to flare up where it has remained. The fact that the issue reappeared showed I never had it fully healed to begin with (when I thought I did).
Is past-life experiences a part of this? Likely, yes.
I realize self-talk is important. I realize good nutrition, exercise and the like – equally important. Sense of purpose. Love and Support (I have needed much more of that).
So I am asking you – my readers – for ideas. For help. Suggestions. Support. Please private message me here.
I am so ready to shine “out there” and not just through a computer screen from the comfort of my home. I am so ready to share All Of ME and my gifts with the world. I know I have much to offer. It is time. And I need help getting there.
Yesterday I watched an interview with James Gilliland and Solreta and Pete Slattery, which I linked on my site yesterday. Of particular interest to me was Pete’s sharing of meeting one of his Pleiadian friends in person – in his back yard. Normally these encounters occur in his dream state.
I was intrigued given an experience I had a couple of years back, where I met a woman who referred to herself as Daree. It was during my dream state. I was sitting in an office environment, waiting, when I looked up and walking towards me was a tall, lean, beautiful woman with long silvery/blonde, very straight hair. She was dressed all in sparkly gray and had an illuminating quality to her. I seemed to recognize with her so when she signaled to me to come with her, I went quite naturally. We walked through a doorway that suddenly appeared and I left the earthly world behind and entered a room in space craft of some sort. She was trying to show me things on a computer screen, only, like a child, I was more interested in the environment so I took in more of that. The shimmery gray color theme was throughout the two rooms. The lighting was perfect. The temperature, also perfect. And the carpet felt like bliss to my feet. There was no furniture, only objects appear upon her command. I looked out the window and saw nothing but beautiful stars against the deep black background.
This was the extent of the experience and I have wanted to connect with her again, to no (conscious) avail. So yesterday listening to the video inspired me to set the intention for us to meet on the physical. With the vibrational frequencies being more in alignment for such encounters/experiences, I decided “what the heck”.
Then I let it go. (There are advantages to having a small child around – distraction makes it easier to let such things go.)
Late last night, my mate shares with me that about an hour earlier, he had seen a woman matching Daree’s appearance suddenly appear in our living room. The experience shocked him so much, his vibrational frequency obviously dropped and she disappeared from his view.
He had had no idea that I had set this intention earlier in the day. So obviously this was no coincidence or illusion.
Naturally I said – ok I excitedly yelled – “Why didn’t you tell me??!! I was here!!” I had been sitting right next to him when he saw her, zoned out putting articles on my site. !!! Again, he said he had been too shocked by the experience to say anything for awhile.
I can understand that. Remember Laci Peterson? The pregnant mama who went missing around 2001/2002, who was later found dead in the San Francisco Bay? I had a dream about her death at the time, then put out to the Universe to give me a sign if I was to do something with the information I received in the dream. You know, go to the police, etc. Days passed, nothing happened, I let it go. Then one night I awoke around 3am to use the bathroom and felt a presence enter the house. I literally felt, in my body, an energy as big as my house lift up and settle back down. Slowly I walked into the living room and there she sat – in our recliner – dripping wet – beautiful, huge smile on her face. “HELLO!” she said, telepathically.
I was frozen. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t speak. Somehow I found the ability to move and I ran – back to bed – where I threw the covers over my head and trembled for awhile.
So yes, I know what that experience is like. It can be very shocking to the system.
And it also left me with a deep regret that I may have just missed out on one of the most amazing, moving, beautiful conversations in a lifetime.
So, I continue again to intend for Daree’s return to speak with her in person.
And I continue as well to raise my frequency, to tap into and maintain the frequency of Love. Kindness. Honesty. Truth. Send that energy to every part of me still in pain, still suffering, still afraid.
For in time, a very short time my friends, such encounters will become common place for us.
My mate and I recently had a conversation where he said I seemed to be a different version than who I was when he met me. This went beyond the normal “people change over time”. This went much deeper.
I contemplated that for awhile and then tonight, I received an understanding of just what he said. It began by thinking about my mate and who he is today. I too suddenly felt – and could see – that I was seeing a new version of him being born into fruition. A merging, I felt.
I then began to think about the concept of merging timelines and heard “your Higher Selves are merging.”
Hmmm. I had to let that one percolate within for a bit. Here is what my Inner Self shared.
It has long been my belief that the Reincarnation Loop is just another layer of the Matrix. When we leave our bodies, the White Light is an artificially generated/created energy state of artificial bliss. Or, as my late friend John said, “When you die don’t go to the light. It’s an alien with a flashlight.” Not too far from the truth.
The beings we see can morph into anything we believe we will be seeing upon our death. Jesus. Buddha. A dog from the past. Family member(s). Etc. Etc. The whole thing is a farce from the life review to the “now let’s talk about karma and what you learned”. On and on until we are “lovingly” – through a lot of clever manipulation – told it is time to return. Then the amnesia energy code is inserted and we’re right back in the loop again.
We are Sovereign Beings and as such, a Sovereign Being gets to choose the experience – whatever it is we wish to experience – from the authentic state of Pure Creation. We don’t need another Being telling us what to do. We don’t need states of amnesia put into us.
None of this supports Freedom. It isn’t of Love. And it sure doesn’t respect Sovereignty.
The dark ones have controlled this cycle for eons. Why? They feed on our lower vibrational energy of fear. Just like the Matrix – we are food for these assholes.
What is happening now, however, with the incoming energies from the Central Sun, is allowing the break-down of those lower vibrational frequencies while bringing in the necessary protons and neutrons and tachyons to raise the vibrational frequencies for all Life. This is leading to a merging of our Higher Selves, which have been fragmented due to the endless trauma’s we have been experiencing by being a part of life on planet 3D earth and the reincarnation cycle. This fragmentation also leads to more food for the dark ones. To sum it up: with each fragmentation of our Higher Self due to trauma, this has lead to our higher self being in multiple versions of you. Parallel realities.
Such a process of merging is slow going, as those of us who are aware of this process will attest. And it can cause some confusion, hence the need for this to be slow-going.
I have had moments recently where I look in the mirror and I “feel” different. I feel like a stranger to myself in a way. I even feel I “look” different. I can’t explain it. It’s just a feeling. And there are times I look at myself and wonder “who am I?” This isn’t one of those esoteric, philosophical questions. This is me questioning in a literal nature. Who are you, girl?
Hard to wrap my mind around. But this is what came through me on this 16th day of March, 2017.
If that’s really the correct calendar date.
But that’s another matrix moment piece for another day.
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This is a dream I have waited over 8 years to see come to fruition and I hope you decide to buy a copy for yourself and/or for the women in your life.
Hello Beautiful People. Here are some love-talks I give to myself. It’s important to remember, when speaking personal mantra’s, to do it slowly, tune in and find where the emotion is with each mantra, then to chill with that emotion for a time before going on to the next mantra. For me, I wait until I feel tingling with many of my mantra’s. In a nutshell – feeeeeeeeeeeeel the looooooooooooove feeling that goes with the words. That is how we create change within – and without.
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I Am A Sovereign Being
Hello cells. I love you. Thank you.
Every day I get stronger, healthier, younger, wiser.
I love me.
I love myself SO much, darkness cannot touch me.
I accept, integrate and give thanks to the energies of expansion and healing being sent to me.
I release resistance to wherever it is I Am is resisting these changes to my cells and DNA.
My cells vibe at the frequency of my 27 year old self.
I give thanks to my: (fill in the blank – i often give thanks to all of the parts of my body)
I vibrate at the 5th Dimensional Frequency easily and with grace.
This is likely going to sound rude. Arrogant. Pretentious. And yet that isn’t my intention.
The weather was spectacular over the weekend, which meant my family and I were outside. My daughter and I interacted with several of our neighbors, some of them new. This meant I got to engage in new conversations with new people. And yet, as has been my experience, the conversations quickly left me feeling empty, like a deflated balloon.
I am not one for small talk. I can do it. I was well-trained. However, it isn’t natural for me nor does it feel good in my body.
As what often happens, I begin to share something. Pick the topic. Ascension. New Earth. The corruption of the system that dumbs us down. Chemtrails. GMO’s. Awakening. UFO’s. lol I laugh at “UFO’s” because it reminds me of a conversation I had with a neighbor who wanted to know what I had been doing outside the previous night, watching the skies. I told her I was on UFO patrol. And like all of these other topics I bring up, I was given the “uh ok she is one of THOSE people” look.
Or there is the “there is no one home” look I receive when I bring up such a “strange” (to the masses) topic. The topic? Geoengineering, aka “chemtrails” to those of us in the conspiracy theory realms. Surely I thought this person would have heard of geoengineering by now given it’s slowly gone mainstream over the past decade. But there it was. The look. “You have just entered the space of total emptiness.”
Leaving me to think “Hello? Is there anybody in there?”
Apparently not. At least in this section of the mind.
And yet, I just cannot fathom being the kind of person who doesn’t want to know the Truth.
Now I realize there are many things I yet to know. And that being said, I long to know the truth no matter what it is. I’ve swallowed so many jagged pills over the years so I know the pain of being presented with information that challenges your current belief structure.
And yet, I just cannot fathom being the kind of person who doesn’t want to know the Truth. Who doesn’t want to know a damn thing other than what has been spoon-fed to them. Who blindly follows whatever they are told, without question.
I. Do. Not. Resonate. With. Such. Behavior.
I have accepted this is just who I am. And with the incoming beautiful energies awakening our dormant DNA and cellular memories, I have also had to accept not everyone is actually here at this time to awaken. Or question. Is it because they are so asleep in the Matrix it is gonna take a few more lifetimes? Is it because they are simply not here in this incarnation to Awaken, Remember and Ascend?
I don’t know.
What I DO know is that having conversations with people who are not on the same vibrational frequency as I am has become increasingly difficult. And instead of having an increasing desire to share Glorious, Authentic Me with the world at large, I am having an increasing desire to reunite with my Tribe and get this New Earth Creation business going.
Slowly, this is happening for me.
If this resonates with you, here’s some music from Pink Floyd to put a spark of humor, understanding and beauty in this “disconnect”. Shine on beautiful Soul. This is a lonely journey and at least for me, has been for many many lifetimes, but Home is in our line of vision. ♥
Oh my dear Starseeds and Wanderers and Lightworkers and Lemurian’s and Atlantean’s and pick your self-identifying term… Many, if not most, if not all of us have had at least one occasion, as I wrote in my piece Thoughts Of A Weary Starseed Human, where we cry out to Life and the Universe and our Galactic Families: “Where the HELL are you?! I am DONE with life in this planet! I’m TIRED! I want to go Home! I want a pick up! NOW!”
(You don’t know what a relief it is to be able to write those words and know there are thousands of others who feel the same way. Just had to add that. When you have experienced being the only beautiful freak in the room for your entire human existence, it’s good to know you aren’t the only one ~ even if it means the other beautiful peeps are mostly scattered throughout the planet.)
I have carried these “where are you?!” words for a long time now. And it wasn’t until this morning, after I wrote Lemuria: She Fell. Now She Is Calling. last night, that I received a good dose of understanding and humbleness. (I don’t much like the word humility.). In my piece last night, I spoke how the Lemurian Civilization fell, based on the book “Coming Home To Lemuria” by Charmain Amarea Kumara Redwood. We “fell” because being the High Vibrational Beings we were, we were unable to withstand the density of the lower vibrational civilizations/planets we decided to visit in order to help raise the vibes.
I awoke this morning thinking about that experience. I contemplated what it would feel like to get “stuck” like that. Would I want to undergo the experience again?
Absolutely NOT.
Then I remembered a thought I have had at times, reading how after we ascend, many of us will become planet liberators and set off to assist other “fallen” civilizations. I have had the thought that I may wish to do that again.
Hmm. A quandary, I thought.
Then thought some more.
Perhaps not a quandary.
Perhaps the reason why our Galactic Families have not made their appearance to us yet is they don’t wish to get “stuck” in these lower densities. And I can respect that.
Perhaps they are, as some have opined, waiting for Humanity and Gaia to reach a certain vibrational frequency before they greet us again and offer us the assistance many of us seek and long for NOW. Perhaps the best help they can do at this time is by helping to control and guide, with their advanced tech, the incoming energies ~ the tachyons, the ions, photons, gamma ray and neutrino’s ~ which as we know are raising the frequencies of Gaia and you and me.
Perhaps it was, in part, the lessons of Lemuria, that taught them the best ways to help another planet and it’s civilization ascend.
So, again, perhaps it is unfair to me to demand they do this helping/rescue “NOW!” business.
Perhaps my focus is best put forth in loving myself and making My Personal Ascension priority #1.
And while I really cringe in using the term “be patient”…
…perhaps that is really what is needed here.
And trust. In myself. In the process. In Gaia.
And our Galactic Families.
Whoever they are.
And wherever they are.
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In April of 2016, while enjoying a rare peaceful, quiet moment in my bedroom, I heard a soft voice whisper in my left ear. “Lemuria is calling.”
Hmm, that’s strange, I thought while also being intrigued and knowing this was something special to receive.
I live on the west coast and am familiar with some of the stories and legends that are Lemuria and Atlantis. Both civilizations said to have fallen, each for different reasons. Some claim they are myths. Others claim these civilizations existed and share elaborate details. I am one to believe there is Truth in myths. I believe these civilizations existed. I feel it in my body. Whether they were called Lemuria and Atlantis and whether they existed at the time period historians discuss (and still debate) matters not to me. Lemuria calls to me in my body. In my cells. And those parts of my Being do not lie.
Since hearing that message, I have been very drawn to learning more about Lemuria. And the Universe has indeed delivered. Images of Lemuria popping up on my social media feeds. Articles shared by others. Too many synchronicities to count.
I was guided to buy a book recently, “Coming Home To Lemuria” by Charmain Amarea Kumara Redwood. Charmain says Lemurian civilization fell because we became aware of lower vibrational planets and, given our nature to help others, we made the choice to visit these planets in order to assist. We weren’t prepared for the density and what it would do to our body and our Soul. She says that is when we realized we were unable to return to Lemuria and this is what lead to the fall of our way of life.
An interesting perspective and one I feel has some definite truth when I weigh it against my own vision I had over 10 years ago. In that vision, I saw myself standing in a circle around a tree (in her book, Charmain says the Lemurian’s did things in circles frequently). We were sending energy to the tree and it was communicating back. The experience was beautiful and peaceful. It seemed to be more of a ritual than just a “spur of the moment” idea. We were also quite large physically – tall and lean – something Charmain also mentions in her book. Then something happened that caught us by surprise and I could feel the energy slowly drain and lower. Then I was jolted out of the vision.
Aside from Charmain’s view of why we fell, I also maintain that part of this experience lead to lower dimensional beings with advanced tech and a very dark side (which was foreign to the Lemurian’s) took advantage of our helpful and trusting manner, conquered us and altered our DNA and inter-bred with us.
Lately I have been purging this experience. The horrors of not only losing yourself and your family and friends, but your way of live. Your way of Being. The horror that there are other Beings who will grossly violate free will and will take advantage of others for their personal gain and power.
While I realize these behaviors are part of modern day humankind, they are still foreign concepts to me. Absolutely foreign. I don’t understand the desire to do that to another and I most certainly do not understand the decision to actually go ahead with that desire and create it.
Again, according to Charmain’s book, a very Lemurian trait.
I also very much resonated with her description of our desire to help others – even at the expense of our own well-being in a way at times. Or in other words, we see someone in help, we don’t always intuitively stop and check in to see if such help would be ok with Self. I’m the same way. I hear of someone in need or see it, every part of me says “help” and I do what I can. However, living in third dimensional frequencies and reality has taught me I have to weigh my desire to help with my own abilities and limits – things we did not have to bother with living in higher dimensional Lemuria.
Living in Lemuria – living at that frequency level (which Charmain says was in 5D) – we didn’t need to concern ourselves with things such as burn out and disease and personal health. It was in our inherent make-up to help. Period. That is what we DID and in doing so, we gave to ourselves in return. A natural cycle and a natural way of Being.
I have a feeling we are going to see the rise and return of these civilizations – both in human form and in the rise of their ruins. I have seen this in a dream I had almost 14 years ago and at the time, had no clue what the dream meant nor was I familiar with Lemurian or Atlantean civilizations. I also believe there are many of us from this time period who have returned for this Ascension Event.
If you feel an inner calling for Lemuria, let yourself purge those old memories and the old energies from the trauma(s). For me, not only am I mourning the way of life I once lived, I am also mourning over the concept that there are beings who will disrupt your life simply because they can. There are beings who don’t care about free will and are only about serving their own needs. This is also about me questioning whether I can trust myself and leads to a life-long – and likely many lifetimes-long fear of being left behind, being uprooted against my will, being abandoned and a deep deep loss that has lead to an inner thought of “will I ever have paradise again with my tribe?”
I miss that way of life. I miss my tribe. I am ready to reunite and rebuild that way of life. This time around, we will have gathered some much needed awareness and that is, even as we ascend into 5th Dimension, always be fully prepared and aware before offering help to those who are not of your vibrational frequency and belief system.
The Goddess has awakened in new ways and while she still longs to help, she is too aware to be taken advantage of.
She has learned that it is necessary to Love Self First.
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After I wrote the above, I thought “I wonder if I will have more moments of synchronicity with Lemuria tonight.” You know, for validation that what I write above is truthful and not just wishful thinking. Ahem. Check out this beautiful video, “Songs of Lemuria”, which just “happened” to show up in my social media feed an hour after writing this piece. I was also quite intrigued to note the time the video was originally linked in my friends page – 7:11pm. Earlier tonight I looked at the clock, saw 7:11pm and knew I would be having a moment of synchronicity later. ♥
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Well well now… The tides of purging been ravaging through me and out of me. Yesterday I spent a good 30 minutes in the bathroom experiencing something no one wants to. Better out than in. I will leave it at that.
Purging. That’s what this starseed goddess has been doing and doing a lot of. Purging.
Stuff from childhood coming up – again. (and I thought I was done w/all that)
Stuff from lifetimes ago – held in those cellular memories.
Heck, this past week I felt in my body that horrible feeling of having our entire way of life taken by us when we were conquered and genetically altered by the dark ones so long ago.
Talk about a gut-wrenching cry that knocked me to my knees.
So I do as I have been doing.
I cry. I release. I punch my punching bag. I ask Source “WHY?” I yell “I AM TIRED! I DON’T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE!”
I fall down for a bit at times. And I get lost for a moment or two or three. I surrender. I remind myself this is part of the process. Have a cookie or two. Perhaps ice cream. Take extra naps.
And then I get back up again, literally and spiritually/emotionally/mentally.
Lately I have been receiving Visions as to where we are going – not just Spiritually but literally. To what physical location are we headed?
The world of science is baffled by these videos people are taking (and lifting) of Nibiru and other planets showing up. The strange clouds. The intense colors. The rainbows. The pillars of light. The images of dragons and dinosaurs (pterodactyls) and an increase in the sightings of Sasquatch.
There are the incoming energy waves of photons and electrons and neutrons.
There is the strange frequency reads on the Heliplots.
The increase in the Schumann Resonance.
And of course the highly unusual and at times extreme weather patterns.
I believe Earth is being moved.
I believe that we have lived for eons in a highly sophisticated artificial environment.
And I believe we are being moved out of this energy space and into the space where we once resided – before we were conquered and altered and brought to a lower vibrational reality where we have been “locked” in place by technology that has kept us in a virtual, albeit it real, prison.
We’re going home. In our bodies. On our Gaia.
Is Source behind this? The higher dimensionals? The galactics?
Yes. In a way.
I say “in a way” because perhaps…
Just perhaps all of this happening because, like the 100th Monkey theory, enough of us have awakened, enough of us have slowly remembered again, enough of us said “no more” and that collective energy has been received and is being matched.
Obviously no one knows for sure what is going on. I am only speculating and going by my inner feeling/intuitive voice. And that can be absolutely maddening – certainly for someone like me, an earthly grounded Capricorn who values Truth and Logic and Proof – while also being highly creative and intuitive. But for certain I can unequivocally state that reality is changing and we are both going along for the ride and helping to create the New as we go.
Love yourself deeply and be kind to yourself so that you may love others and be kind in return. And know – you are here for a reason. We all are.
