Current inner feels/experience

 

Personal share here.

My girl came to me a bit ago and said her jeans are getting too short on her.  I sighed, then smiled and said they will just have to do for now.  I stopped myself as I began to say I didn’t have the money right now to buy more clothes for her.

Which is true – because I don’t.

Part of my inner work I’ve been hitting hard in recent weeks is the abundance factor – going within to flip those false scripts.  I know I have that power to do that.

And I also know the frequency in this place will come in and poke at ya to say “no you’re not”.  Or wherever it is we are and however it is that this matrix/reality operates.  I don’t like it – I don’t like the heaviness of it – it’s like making new loaves of bread only to have old stale crappy ones tossed back at you while you continue to hammer away at making the NEW types of bread.

Make sense?

I feel that anger inside – the disappointment.  The f’ing fatigue – how I feel I am in the battle of my mental/emotional life – and how f’ing difficult it is when you are in the situation I am in.  Need I say more?

I did some searching around to see if there were more services for me – job help – that sort of thing.  N A D T (not a damn thing).  The one program through the state is only if you are super poor and on welfare.  I feel like I am not being seen in the way I want need and deserve.  I feel I am alone on a stage expressing explicitly what I need – expecting that experience to be returned to me – for I will accept nothing else.

So for now, I continue to say a quick “NO” to what comes at me that I do not want – and “YES” to the visions in my heart and mind.  But Jesus – some real relief would be a good thing.  Real lasting relief because my body is telling me to slow down and sleep and rest – but doing that doesn’t achieve the funds or things I need to be doing for my daughter alone.  It doesn’t keep food in the house.  It doesn’t allow for any sort of savings and considering the weather has changed from summer to late fall and I am having to run the heat :::CRINGE::: and my savings is pretty much depleted now and the CC maxed, I don’t know what else to do other than to plow on.

And PROMOTE myself – which is odd in this regard because I have been intending HELP with this for a long long time – MONTHS and MONTHS – and I have reached out to people who do this and WTF why don’t I hear back?  When people offer to share – and I do – but then they don’t share – I don’t get that.  I REFUSE to have that invisible experience.

I AM SEEN.

I have questions and would like some answers from something real and divine.  That aligns with my HEART.

10.20.24 ~ Finds & Headlines – Flooding, Trump takes a shift at McDonald’s, comms, etc.

 

Not much to share personally.  Onward and upward.

Cofiwch gyfrannu a rhannu.

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Victoria

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Sooooooooo this happened today here in America:  (“October surp-fries” – play on word for OCTOBER SURPRISE)

Donald Trump works at PA McDonald’s to needle Kamala Harris

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Serving McD’s french fries (if you can call them that) to the public…….A funny move against Kamala – who said she worked there but turns out she didn’t (I read McD’s statement and they don’t say either way).  😂🙄

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There’s “edward” showing up again……..

 

 

 

 

 

This is pretty amazing:

 

All these “countries” and their “leaders” broadcasting their war plans, as we know by now, is fake – perhaps showing incompetence (behind the movie scene).

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FLOODING:

Roswell………..(yes we are thinking what you’re thinking…)

 

Flooding in Vancouver: Videos show huge floods, street kayak – Vancouver Is Awesome

 

The Sahara Desert flooded for the first time in decades. Here’s what it looks like | CNN
France places six departments on red alert for flooding due to heavy rains | Reuters
Nepal: Hundreds killed as ‘unprecedented’ flash floods strike capital Kathmandu

 

More Bells………..

 

this is really cool…

florida man shreds the national anthem

 

 

 

ongoing……

Polar Ice Crisis 2024: Arctic and Antarctic Near Historic Lows

 

Antarctica is turning green at an alarming rate, satellite images show | CNN

A part of Barrientos Island that has given way to plant life.

Vegetation growing on Green Island on the Antarctic Peninsula, which is warming much faster than the global average.

10.19.24 ~ Finds……….T Comms, time travel synchs continue, A Gematria………Telling it in MEMES and finding peace in snuggled and animal videos

 

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I am struggling today – trying to remain up – went for a wonderful ride – spent time in nature – but that would not alleviate the inner sadness and exhaustion – battle fatigue – I am feeling strongly today.  I tuned into my body – did some releasing.  I am focused on what I want but at the same time absolutely energetically as detached from this place as I can be – at least today (perhaps daily – just rather ignoring that detachment experience).  Paradox?  Maybe – but that’s the truth of my experience.

Here’s what I’m seeing.  thymitheite na moirasteite kai na dorisete.

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Victoria

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Unless my money manifestations work as I expect of them, it will be a meager holiday – OR if this place flips/switches/changes and wealth and everything else we desire is returned restored – I don’t know what other words to put to the desires I hold.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

President John F. Kennedy’s “Moonshot” was his challenge to the United States to land a person on the moon and return them safely to Earth before the end of the 1960s

Gematria for MOONSHOT:

Nikola Tesla

Master Plan

Divine Light

Three Eleven (311 – 113 – 11.3)

Gold Standard

Blink Of An Eye

 

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Time Travel/DeLorean vibes….Time capsule from the future……….(Oct. 11, 2055)

DeLorean – Time Capsule (2024) Christopher Lloyd

 

 

The music makes this video…………..

 

 

10.18.24 ~ Checking in, finds, etc.

 

#17days……..

Feeeeels like we’re in a new space atm.  pozhaluysta, ne zabyvaite delitsya you delat pozertvovanya.

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Victoria

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My state has a little video on social media – in which they turned off the comments because people were filling up the comment section challenging their data (“our voter rolls are clean/no fraud here”) and saying “VOTE TRUMP”.  😂

 

BLACKOUT………

Grid officials said they did not know how long it would take to re-establish service.

Cuba’s power grid fails, plunging country into darkness (msn.com)

 

 

How many government employees does it take to change a lightbulb?  500.  1 to do the screwing (pun not intended – but it works), 499 to make sure paperwork is intact, enough standing around and the rest to make sure proper procedures are followed.

 

 

Charlie Kirk:

Oregon Brings Mostly Peaceful Lies, But We Work it Out

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sixteen State Attorneys General Join Forces to Demand Access to DHS Non-Citizen Database from Sec. Mayorkas to Protect Elections

 

NASA Grounds Still-Not-Certified Starliner After Boeing’s Spacecraft Left Astronauts Stranded in the Space Station

 

🙄😂

 

 

 

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Planks.  Squats.  Weights.

5 Key Exercises To Keep Your 40s From Feeling Like Middle Age | ZeroHedge

 

One-legged pants take over runways as part of ‘jarring’ new trend for 2025 (msn.com)

 

 

On this freezing cold day, a warm and delicious surprise arrived. Consuelo and her son brought us freshly made tamales and hot strawberry atole—pure comfort in a cup. There’s no better way to keep working side by side, for and with our community, than by receiving the love and care of so many.
As Consuelo handed me the tamales, she smiled and said, “My grandfather taught me how to make these. With this food, we celebrate birthdays and weddings. With this food, we ease our pain at funerals. I know it has been with us for generations, just like you at BeLoved Asheville. It’s there in good times and in the hard times.”
What a beautiful reminder that food heals, and love keeps us going.

 

 

 

Today’s Finds and Meandering Thoughts

 

(I originally put this one on my buymeacoffee page and decided to share it here.)

Why walk when you can bike?

I am a biker.  I L O V E to bike.  As in I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE it.  I love the speed.  I love the wind in my face.  I love to bend with my bike as I rip around a corner.  I love to greet the trees as they whip past me.  I love to ride until I can’t ride anymore, whereby I stop, take out my water bottle and take in much needed gulps of cool water, and depending on the weather, splashing it on my body.  Today was NOT one of those days that such a choice would feel good.  Today was a day where I had on a heavy coat, long pants and gloves.  Today was a day where riding fast didn’t feel as good as it does in the warmer months for it had been about a week that I last rode this hard and given it was 80 and today was about 30 degrees cooler, coupled with the lag time, my thighs screeeeeeeeamed at me “WHAT THE HE!! ARE YOU. DOING. TO. US?!”

I half laughed, half cried.  Each year after a pause in riding over the cold, rainy misery ends, the days lengthening, the suns warmth having returned, I jump back on and hit the trails and like each year before, I have to work my legs back into condition.  That’s after 3-4 months of no biking activity.  Today was only 6 days and my legs were behaving as though it had been months since they had seen such work.

NO FAIR, I thought.  This getting older stuff.  I do walk in the colder months, even do a bit of hiking on some of the trails, but it isn’t the same.  In fact, walking, for someone like me, is quite boring.  Yes, I can take in the scenery, but unless a story comes to mind to occupy my thoughts of boredom, I am just not one to go for a walk and truly enjoy the experience the way I do biking.  I’ve tried jogging, but I couldn’t push past the part of screaming knees, wobbly ankles and my stomach threatening to unload its contents.  So I am often left with doing what we do as children:  Pretend.  I pretend I’m on my bike as I walk.  I walk fast, do a fake impression of some jogging, closing my eyes and assuming the biker position.  I can get away with this when I’m alone, but if my teenager has decided to tag along, unless I am up to dealing with words like “OH MY GOD MOM STOP IT!”, which when I am out exercising and getting some escape from my daily routine, I’m just not up for the drama, so I stick to walking.

I am so obsessed with this sport and miss it so much during the winter that I will visit my girl (bike), parked in the cold garage, telling her I miss her, that “winter’s almost over” and “soon we will ride as one again.” Then I take off on another walk.

Boring old walking.

Fantasizing for the warmer days to come where I can hop on my old friend, tell her hello after a long winter’s absence, whiz on down the road and up to the trail, giving my command performance to nature as I greet her hello, relishing on how good it is to see her again from the vantage point of a bike.

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So – the voter’s pamphlet arrived.  Perhaps I’ll write a piece titled “To vote or not to vote ’tis is the question.”  It all seems rather tiring and old – repeating another cycle – but I also see the bigger picture at play, so I get the purpose.  Really practicing the “observe – don’t absorb”.

Muistathan lahjoittaa ja jakaa.

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Victoria

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True story:

 

Where’s K?  Interesting…………

 

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Speaking of KH (and JB as well) – both Maya Rudolph and Dana Carvey were both asked to return to SNL (Saturday Night Live – tv show here in the states going back 50 years) – with Maya being asked to play Kamala and Dana, Biden.  Watching their performances I had this sense that they each are one of the actors we are seeing playing KH and JB.  And more theorizing – the possibility of John ending up as Prez –  or VP – masks removed from RFK Jr and JD Vance – which btw have we seen RFK and JD in the same room/photo yet?

 

 

 

 

now he’s wearing a gold hat – could be in indication for the sun (event) and/or for gold-backed (metal backed) currencies………which btw my friend LH said she saw the sun this morning (southern US) and it was YELLOW…….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Primal Trust with Cathleen King, DPT: (very useful help for today’s experience-the story is in the mind-the experience in the body-and i love her approach of holding space and being the validating person-a regulated adult- to help as the individual is processing the traumatic experience)

Nervous System Support for Shocking Events

10.16.24 ~ Finds, Sleuthing, A Gematria…………

 

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Intuition is heightened.

Mesedez, gogoan izan nire lana partekatzen eta dohaintzan ematen.

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Victoria

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All but one 10km………..Vibe………….Earlier today I said I had a feeling the underground is continuing………..Then I see this:

 

Always in our faces……….

 

 

Ok I get that this is a movie and all – and likely there is no real funding with real dollars headed that way – however as someone who REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLY REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY is focused dedicated on changing and improving her life and much of that requires DOLLARS to do that – this one – yeah – makes me growl…….

 

 

Yes, finding a place to make a photocopy of ID is so next to impossible…

 

 

Didn’t go very well.  “the system is broken and my administration helped create it but we will fix it and i don’t know how though and i will also not tell you how many came in under my watch so i’ll narc my way out of this by deflecting……….”  hey – that’s a good one – “narc my way” through a situation that is making me uncomfortable….🙄😂

 

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Anyone thinking John playing them both?  (RFK and turbine dude)

 

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Gematria:  FALCON

Final Call

Batman

Gesara

Wave

Nov

 

 

 

Current CEO resignations:

NRx Pharma CEO resigns after suggesting he should be replaced – Philadelphia Business Journal (bizjournals.com)

 

Goldman Sachs’ Saudi Arabia CEO leaving firm – source | Reuters

 

Racing SA CEO resigns | RACING.COM

 

U.S. Figure Skating CEO resigns (sportsbusinessjournal.com)

 

Poland’s Allegro says Roy Perticucci to step down as CEO in 2025 | Reuters

 

Something told me there would be a black line – there it is – smackdab on the 17:00 hour: (btw – i took this from the bot account on X and noticed they posted this 17 minutes ago)

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SpaceX tells FCC it has a plan to make Starlink about 10 times faster – Ars Technica

 

This was distressing to read.  Ok Universe – we command SUN for these folks – warmth.

Snow impacts western NC mountain towns recovering from Hurricane Helene: ‘Coldest air of the season so far’ (msn.com)

This was Western NC last night in the higher elevations of our mountains, where rescue efforts have been the most challenging. This was Avery county, just before sunset.
There are people still up there. With nothing. But nature just keeps throwing punches.
Imagine surviving the fury and theft this hurricane brought, only to find yourself standing in the aftermath with no roof over your head, no power, and winter already creeping in.
It’s not just about losing the things that made life comfortable; it’s about facing a new and cruel reality where basic needs become luxuries. The heartbreak settles in when the storm clears, and you’re left with freezing nights, no heat, no lights, and nowhere to go.
People huddle outside in the snow, in tents, in cars, in makeshift shelters, bundled in layers that can’t quite fight off the biting cold. It’s not just a physical struggle—it’s an all out emotional and mental war.
I continue to seek any beauty in all of this. Humanity. Neighbors who barely exchanged hellos before the storm are now sharing blankets, food, and any resource that might provide a sliver of help. Volunteers show up with hot meals and supplies, offering warmth in the form of community when the power grid can’t. Strangers helping strangers, and even in the darkest, coldest nights, people find a way to take care of each other.
I find myself awake at night thinking about the ones who didn’t find a blanket. Can’t build a fire. Truly surviving the elements.
God be with them; comfort them.
I pray the sun shines bright today, releasing a new hope to push just one more day.

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10.15.24 ~ Finds including a little bit of digging from a Nazi event at Madison Square Garden in 1939

 

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Sometimes a cookie soothes the mind.  The radio is crazy now with the elexshun coming up – mailbox getting full of flyers.  My pov is that most supporting the donkey’s are still under the TDS illusion where anyone but “HIM” is the narrative, for anyone alive cannot look out how things are now and say with an honest heart and mind: “yeah – that!  I want more of THAT!”  I’ve dropped a few messages all from Robert Kennedy Jr who continues to tell us “Don’t vote for me if I am on your states ballot.  Vote for Donald Trump.”  That way it isn’t me saying it – it’s a democrat.  And a Kennedy.

So I eat cookies and watch.  When I’m not eating homemade soup and biscuits.  While I don’t like the shorter sun days, I do like that I can essentially eat soup and homemade breads for dinner’s every night for awhile.  Taters.  Carrots.  Squash.  I have a personal love affair with food which I feel is a better choice considering I could have this same semi-obsession with shopping or fake nails, which speaking of I recently painted my nails as a fun thing to do with my girl.  Normally I leave them plain – and short (piano player hands) – but decided to paint them a pretty share of blue.  A couple of days ago I read where the polishes – likely even the healthier versions – spread toxins into the bloodstream from the polish and this happens 10 minutes upon application.  Reading that was enough – I am  now back to naturally colored nails – free of toxins.

We do all we can here, right?  Here’s what I’m seeing in the land of cray.

Bitte denken Sie daran, zu spenden und zu teilen.

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Victoria

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So tonight on the radio, I was listening to a call in show and the caller was comparing T’s upcoming rally at Madison Square Garden (10.27) to the Nazi rally at the same location in February 1939.  To the more awakened mind you see what we have here is from The Art of War – Mirror Your Enemy.

 

1939 Nazi rally at Madison Square Garden – Wikipedia

 

Donald Trump to hold rally at MSG ahead of 2024 election: Campaign (yahoo.com)

Little is known about Trump’s Madison Square Garden appearance and how New York City officials will prepare. Senator Brad Hoylman-Sigal, who represents the area around Madison Square Garden, said the decision to allow Trump at Madison Square Garden is “disastrous.”

“This is a disastrous decision by Madison Square Garden that will endanger the public safety of New Yorkers and has the potential to incite widespread violence,” Hoylman-Sigal said in a post to X. “For the good of NYC and its residents, I demand The Garden keep our city safe by canceling the Trump rally.”

What they so afraid of?

I decided to gematria MADISON SQUARE GARDEN

The Real Commander And Chief (CIC – and being CIC gives the President authority and power to declare war and give orders to the military as to where to go as well as to call them back home)

I Born To Break Curse (that was in the vibe today on X)

Save The Clock Tower (88 is around me a lot these days)

The Sleeper Has Awakened

Trumpet Sounds

We Have All New Body

 

This was a flyer used for the rally.  Interesting the guy is piercing the snake.  Makes you wonder what is real and how much of the counter protest was propaganda.

 

Then there’s this – the Bellamy Salute – which looks identical to the Nazi salute doesn’t it?

The Bellamy salute is a palm-out salute created by James B. Upham as the gesture that was to accompany the Pledge of Allegiance of the United States of America, whose text had been written by Francis Bellamy. It was also known as the “flag salute” during the period when it was used with the Pledge of Allegiance.

 

Also included were signs that read “Wake Up American. Smash Jewish Communism” and “Stop Jewish Domination of Christian Americans.”

 

I think we should all put on music, dance and eat cookies.

 

 

HTML code ends with 88……….video is 3:11 – mirror 11.3……….Another possible mirror – Trump talking about calling in the military on election day/around that time………….We’ll see.  I see, speculate, drop and move on.

 

 

Kouji recently had an interesting theory on the astral and mornings.  He said he feels like some sort of a reset happens in that space – then shared he didn’t like mornings.  I feel the same – and experience the same – no matter how much I intend (and I continue with new focus on breaking that program).  I can go to sleep feeling amazing – focused – then wake up shaking all over and have to “reset” my brain programming back to where I want it.

 

 

Break the spell(s):

 

An interesting find last night – Has chess got anything to do with war?

Has chess got anything to do with war? – BBC News

 

 

“you can vote two months before probably 3 months after”………..

 

Trump has been sharing this – which has given me pause.  I read the fine print (below).  Interesting…

Earn and Borrow Crypto | World Liberty Financial

None of Donald J. Trump, any of his family members or any director, officer or employee of the Trump Organization, DT Marks DEFI LLC or any of their respective affiliates is an officer, director, founder, or employee of World Liberty Financial or its affiliates.

 

Open Source………..Tesla Tech………..if we are time traveling to the NEW – then what he speaks of is already there – and in a FLASH so. are. we.  I LOVE this kind of speak.  Frequency……….

 

Stefan Burns: (speaking of plasma)

Multiple Bizarre Energy “Shells” are Beginning to ENCIRCLE Planet EARTH

 

 

Barry Stepp:

Most Disturbing Videos On the Internet Today! (Part 271)

 

 

This seriously is the best video I’ve seen in awhile:

 

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10.12.24 ~ All in a day’s Finds, Headlines, Doing some sleuthin’………..

 

learning seeing growing evolving expanding and biking.

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Victoria

寄付と共有することを忘れないでください。 ありがとうございます!

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I don’t understand how this was allowed………..

 

 

Classic projection – narc behavior – accusing your victim of the behavior you yourself engage in……..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Elon shared this today…………most talking about the game diablo while I’m over here saying “that looks like a video game inside of a holographic dome that is opening)

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Kanye West Accused Of Sexual Assault During a Diddy Party (resistthemainstream.com)

 

I had the nudge to look up how many 17 drops there are for Nov 05 – there are 52 (interesting that adds up to 7)………….I notice many of them end with the following:  Snow White and Godfather III – there are 10 I believe (if I counted correctly).  And each one that ends with those two phrases also includes other phrases: The Great Awakening and Speed.  One also mentions VOTE (6x) and (3x).  This one feeeeeeeeeeeels for me:

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Nov 05, 2017 11:56:55 PM EST
US Military = savior of mankind.
We will never forget.
Fantasy land.
God save us all.
Q

 

 

 

10.11.24 ~ Daily Finds including the latest on Antarctica

 

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I wanna know what normal is – I want (this reality) to show me………singing……lamenting.  😂🙄

Clown world out there – the real deal within Me.  Here’s today’s production/war finds.  Nezapomeňte prosím darovat a sdílet.

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Victoria

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Antarctica – the “new Greenland” eh?

Antarctica: The New ‘Greenland’? (yahoo.com)

 

Vegetation has increased dramatically in the Antarctic Peninsula.

Antarctica Isn’t Supposed to Be This Green (gizmodo.com)

 

I was showing my girl images of JB from years past – and she said “what?!  No way – that is NOT Biden!”  Saying this as Musk looks different today than just 2 years ago.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

LOVE:

 

 

 

 

 

 

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10/10 Finds and after a long time, a video made by yours truly

 

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That’s about all we need.  Farmers.  Healers.  Return of EVERYTHING taken from us and accountability, removal and end of all practices and behaviors that take from us harm us poison us.  I have zero energetic interest or attachment to the political theatre now and atm, I don’t know where I fit in or belong.  Like I am a body with a tether attached to my back floating aimlessly simply wanting to land in the right spot. for. me.

Here’s what I’m seeing.

Husk at donere og dele.. Tak.

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Victoria

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First time in months – maybe a year or more – that I’ve done a video.

Trump has no statement in the Oregon’s Voter Pamphlet – Robert F. Kennedy is on the ballot – YouTube

 

This thing’s still going up:

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Because, you know, it is………..Until I can share the Q page it is……….

 

 

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These Dollar Bills to Be Rejected in Stores Nationwide Starting This October

 

Everything he’s saying lately I have two words:  “NOT ENOUGH”

 

This is me and how I look at T these days:

 

 

well this was not the first time the parks have closed over the years due to storms……….comms everywhere – crumbs – when we oh so deserve the full loaf by now………..an uptick in people asking hard questions atm……..