Category: Forgiveness

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IS RE AL for last vibes:

 

 

 

 

 

Yup – this one we’ve seen before:

 

Coincidence or…………….?

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THIS. IS. BIG.

 

Actors actors I see actors:

 

 

i don’t recall seeing this one:

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Federal Reserve leaves rates unchanged – Scotsman Guide

 

LIVE: Israel kills at least 60 today as central Gaza strikes rise | Israel-Palestine conflict News | Al Jazeera

 

 

 

 

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8.22.24 ~ All it takes it just a slight adjustment to the inner Frequency to align

 

I woke up this morning – agitated.  Chatter in my mind over some current situations.  I’ve been watching Touched by an Angel recently and something in last night’s episode stayed with me – the importance of receiving – being open to the Flow – to God – Creator – Universe – whatever label is used.  While words have their own frequencies, real manifesting, real creating begins within our bodies with that Feeling Center, once read as the Voice of the Soul.  I already know this – but there’s been a block in place that has stopped me from having that tetrus moment – where everything aligns.

The trauma’s and the toxins in this environment fill us up with the gunk “they” want us to have so our ability to tune into that Flow is hampered.  And this low frequency we are in, which feels like molasses at times, is also out of alignment with Flow.  But that Flow is always moving.  When it appears in our life, we aren’t always paying attention – we’re focused on the outwards – on the matrix enslavement system with our worries, and our doing’s – all of our busy-ness, all of our stuff supporting “their” systems so we can survive.

This morning, I was getting lost in all of that – well one situation in particular – and thought I can do all I want but unless the energy is open to receiving as well – all of the good intentions just aren’t enough.  They were blocked up with doubt.  Then I thought of last night’s episode of Touched by an Angel – how it was up to a man to decide if he was going to choose love/truth/light or darkness (absence of God/Flow).  Obviously, this show is enough propaganda to keep it on the air as many years as it was – they certainly didn’t go into simulation theory or evil hiding in the various dimensions here, etc.  But they offer good insight into our power and our choices.  And last night the man shifted from just the doing to bring in the FEELING.

So, this morning, I saw the situation in a different perspective and thus, I switched the inner radio dial and immediately felt a shift within.  Of course, I am also doing trauma release work and as such that makes shifts easier.  Probably other supportive energies as well.  But overall, it was my choice and openness to think/feel different that combined with the Flow created the Magic to produce the inner feeling of calm I knew I needed and was seeking.  And sometimes making that new choice feels uncomfortable – it’s challenging an inner belief system held in the body.  So I have found the best approach is to be curious about it – observe it with curiosity.

Just like we are as children:  Curious.

I thought back to how we are as little Children not just curious but always in the NOW.  Bouncing around from one activity to another.  That’s kind of how it is, I feel, when we are free of rules and trauma’s and toxins and other things artificially created to keep us hooked in to “their” programs.  As I told my girl last night – imagine if you could do anything you wanted – literally anything – go anywhere – NOTHING to stop you.  No need for money.  No need to look out for someone or something who may harm you.  She said that sounded like Heaven.

Yep.  And that is what I continue to feel we are helping create again.

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Portal over WH back in July:

MrMBB333:

Things your’e probably NOT EVER going to see on the 6 O’Clock News!!

 

 

 

 

A new volcano erupted on the Reykjanes peninsula in southwestern Iceland on Thursday, spewing hot lava into the air in the sixth eruption to hit the region since December, authorities said.

 

 

 

 

BREAKING: Trump Campaign Announces Mystery Special Guest Set to Join President Trump at Highly-Anticipated Arizona Rally

 

Secret Service Agents Placed on Leave After Trump Assassination Attempt

 

 

I feeeeeeeeeeeels this has to do with Antarctica ice melting – dispersement:

 

Speaking of Antarctica – maybe something is spinning it so it melts faster?

After Breaking Free, World’s Largest Iceberg Is Stuck Spinning in Circles – The New York Times (nytimes.com)

“It’s basically just sitting there, spinning around and it will very slowly melt as long as it stays there,” said Alex Brearley, a physical oceanographer and head of the Open Oceans research group at the British Antarctic Survey. “What we don’t know is how quickly it will actually come out of this.”

 

Earthquake/shaking activity continues:

 

 

 

 

 

I used to live across the street from a private herd of cows.  Each night after dinner I would bring them apples and carrots.  While they were always happy to see me, they never did this.  🥰😂

 

This one brings up another story – our previous dog – who had a red ball like this one.  She was obsessed with getting it in her mouth – but never could – so she would bark at it and whine until she could sink her teeth into the grooves she had worn in over the years – then it would get knocked out of her mouth and she would chase it, barking.  We tossed hundreds of tennis balls for her – which she would chase – but she never once barked at them.  This red ball?  An enemy she could never fully capture.

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12.20.23 ~ The oddness bizarro zzzzzzzzzzz continues

 

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Dear Sleep ~

You know what I need.  Bring it.

Collective experience – if you’re awake.  How odd that sounds – the irony.  If you’re awake you can’t sleep. “Those who know can’t sleep” referred to us didn’t it?  Who’d of thunk it.

The experience last night felt like something was trying to break into my higher mind/third eye.  Anyone else?  Woke up hearing a new song – about seeking beyond the waters/sea (thinking truman show).

So many things going through my mind – don’t know where to begin – so given the current state of mind I will instead share some finds.

Love,

V.

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I’m with her:

 

Gen Xers – a treat for you.  they look awesome and sound just as good!  course my vision isn’t what it used to be back then……..😂  i remember driving home to SHOUT – working a crappy job during the summer to save money to send to the univer$ity to get the piece of paper that says HEY I AM SOMEONE – all to appease someone else – with us – me – being last.  but i digress……….lol

 

 

Beautiful.  Truth.  Right there w/these feeeeeeeeeeeeels:

 

 

 

 

not heavy to us………..disclosure to the rest……..the invisible enemy………..”that IS REAL”…..interesting choice of words to use…….there is no space – just dimensions (here).  real space is outside of this ship (or ant farm as tucker calls it)………….

 

 

 

 

 

 

this sheot runs deep:

 

 

JUST IN: Federal Judge Blocks California Law That Bans Carrying Firearms in Nearly All Public Places – Issues Scathing Rebuke

 

and how did that work for them?

The Last Time Democrats Took a GOP Candidate Off the Ballot Was in 1860 – They Would Not Allow Abraham Lincoln’s Name on the Ballot in Their Slave States

 

Last 3 digits of the embed code:  444

 

 

 

you awake, you feel it……….

 

 

 

 

 

 

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11.2.23 ~ Reflecting and Finds….US DEBT CLOCK Secret Window

 

Feels like a game of dodgeball out there.  That’s the best way I can describe it – incoming things trying to knock one off their focused path.  I know what I know and that feeling, though subtle and quiet, grows.  It’s depressing as hell, challenging as hell and lonely and toxic at times – now more than ever.  Stay the path and stay in your own lane – my words to myself.  And when someone or something tries to come into your lane to distract and throw you off center – give it a Neo move or send it love or ignore and keep on going.

Just KEEP. ON. GOING.

We know this ends – we just don’t yet know when or how or what it actually looks like.  But this does end.

Here’s what I’m seeing – pointing us in that direction.  Oh – twice I turned on the radio early in the day and first heard In The Air Tonight then Final Countdown.  I also had another dream where I was doing something with Lisa Harrison – group of us – felt busy and happy at the same time.  For what it’s worth…

Love,

V.

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this is how they do it, kids…………

 

Boom Boom Sky Event Journey Back Home what does it mean to you……….

 

 

Gematria on NOVEMBER EVENT:

I Am Coming When The Time Is Right Q

Angels Have Been Called Chosen Selected It Is Time (i used to be into angels – got away from it – since have been reconsidering – could simply have been another one of our “things” that “they” compromised – i woke up this morning thinking about what are called angels here – how they are here – could feeeeeeel that presence)

Cancel All Contracts with Aliens

Sound of Freedom

The Time Is Now

Time Traveller

Now Is The Time

This Is Not A Game

 

And the more we – the more I – have woken up – the more everything and I mean EVERYTHING here feels like ground hog day.  The longing for NEW (something my mind can’t even see) grows….

 

 

 

 

& 11.7 here for me……….

 

 

This is big…………..

 

Enormous Development: Colorado Prosecutors Caught in Major Lie in Court Case to Remove President Trump from Ballot – With Video Evidence

 

Minnesota Supreme Court Chief Justice Dresses Down Leftist Lawyer Working to Keep Trump Off 2024 Ballot (VIDEO)

 

House Speaker Mike Johnson: Biden Impeachment Decision Coming “Very Soon” (VIDEO)

 

BREAKING: Sam Bankman-Fried Convicted of All 7 Counts – Sentence Could Be as High as 115 Years in Prison

 

Let’s intend he drops it on X………….

Tucker Carlson Makes Surprise Visit to Julian Assange in Prison

 

 

Possible metaphor for holding a higher vantage (detached neutrality) as it all comes crumbling down in full vision for all……..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

ya………uh…………ready?

 

Not surprising………..i know i post pieces from both – i look for happenings and post……..GP i’ve long felt off about – Breitbart on the fence………

 

dark to Light too……….

 

I TOLD YOU SO……….telling us now because of what’s about to be unveiled….

 

 

 

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10.17.23 ~ It’s in the air……….Finds and Reflecting

 

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While this has been “in the air” for years – decades – for those on this long winding Awakening journey, it is very. prevalent today.  Seeing others speak of it.  To me that tells me we are making another breakthrough in the matrix illusion and program that seeks to keep us afraid and quiet instead of brave and resolute.

I had someone on social media come after me then go on her own page – accusing me of never posting truth information – only coming around to ask for prayers.  Absolute lie.  I share my material there almost daily and recirculate the finds of others.

When I shared information about the jews – the lie that they are “the chosen” ones – I had a family member send me a message saying we (my family is jewish – at least they were religiously speaking) – ARE the chosen ones.

Two different people – throwing about their opinion in order to silence me – without having done any sort of research to see if what they were about to share with me held any weight.

I keep on sharing my truth now.  More and more.  It’s up to others what they do with it.  But I know one thing – I will not stand by silently and be criticized or wrongfully judged.  How to do that – without getting caught up in word salads and emotional warring – is key – something I am still learning to do.  Perhaps the goal is this:  to be so solid in Who I Am that I don’t need to offer a response.

That – as well – is a work in progress.  Being celebrated for my unique perspectives is something that has brought a lot of strife and grief in my experience.  And I also have come to see – after being told this for over 20 years by brain “experts” – that the mind is programmed to first hear the lies about ourselves then it is the good stuff.  And for every negative that is shared with another – at any age – pretty much needs at least 6 positives or more to switch up.

How the brain is wired here.

You think that was on purpose to keep us stuck in internal and external conflict?

Yeppers.

Anyone else noticing today was quite edgy?

Here’s what I’m seeing.

Love,

V.

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Yes it will.  Loved seeing this.  KEEP HOLDING YOUR VISION FRIENDS!

 

Ya’ll know this – but it’s worth revisiting.  KEEP. THE. FAITH.  HOLD. THE. VISION.  and remember:

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UPDATE: Jim Jordan Loses Vote for House Speaker on the First Vote – Here are the 20 GOP Turncoats Who Voted Against Jordan in Leadership Role

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RINO REVOLT!… UPDATE: Next Speaker Vote will Be Wednesday Morning After Jim Jordan Falls Short in Round One

 

“Washington DC is Broken” – Arizona GOP Rep. Debbie Lesko Announces Plans to Retire Amid Speaker Vote

 

 

 

 

 

 

YES:

 

 

 

one perspective………

 

 

 

 

 

 

Listening………..Regulating my nervous system………Vagus Nerve……..

 

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Today’s Secret Window message…

 

 

 

As I was saying………..

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Maybe it’s a slow news day…………

 

9.3 continued to suck and my patience to endure is still tapped.  Seems to be collective atm – again.  More and more of us pushed to the brink.  Desperation is setting in with me – especially financially.  And dayem is it hard with a teen who doesn’t think about these things and consumes – a lot.  lol  I laugh – but I’m still fighting desperation/pushed to the absolute BRINK in this place.  Just so f’ing weary hearing “God’s time”………”soon”……….and “be. patient.”  This time sure as frig is not MY time.

I spent time alone tonight – just had to get out – went for a drive to a local park.  I swear there are programs everywhere to be seen now – people – SAME DAMN PEOPLE I saw the last time I went there – wearing same clothes walking the same way/same pattern.  Only in a computer game.  Anyway, it wasn’t really enjoyable so I was grateful I brought cookies and biscuits.  THAT – was enjoyable.  Sometimes food is my source of comfort.

Is it a slow news day?  I’m not seeing anything – feeling a pause in happenings.  So I’ll go exploring for a few – see if I can’t find something worthwhile and useful.  For now – it’s gggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrr DONE.

Love,

V.

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Yup – as I suspected – pretty much no military up in the states.

 

Schumann is – annoying and strange.

 

Yeah like this is surprising……….

Explosive Revelation: Fani Willis Linked To Massive Election Fraud And Money Laundering RICO Enterprise!

 

Going after the top beast…………

Robert Kennedy Jr.: “BlackRock Is Robbing Americans of The Ability to Own Homes” (VIDEO)

 

 

Duh ya think?

Arson Confirmed as the Cause of Louisiana’s Largest-Ever Wildfire in History (VIDEO)

 

Kevin McCarthy Changes Position – Will Allow Media, Defendants Limited Access to 44,000 Hours of Footage from Jan. 6 Protests

 

 

This could get interesting……..interesting timing………

Unearthed Princess Diana Audio Exposes Troubling Times, Thoughts on Marriage and Baby Harry

 

 

The key to healing it all………..yes yes and yes:

 

 

So apparently there is no confirmed interview…………..Is he fake?  Perhaps.  Is he calling out truth?  Yes.  Disinfo necessary?  Controlled now by WH?  Stay tuned………some day we’ll have the f’ing truth………(btw – Tucker is calling out Obama atm – and the current Tucker twatter profile has since removed the Ukraine flag….)………..

 

 

Ok…………So………..This one feels like the only one really worth sharing as it aligns w/my quiet little puzzle piecing and inner visions and synchs………..Earlier this year – “Elon” said his b-day was 69 days after April 20th (4/20).  Given his following count went to 420 today (9.3) – go out 69 days into the future from today and we land on:  11.11.23………  That 17 post that said Humanity would be united on 11.11.18.  (justputtingthisoutthereleavingitrightheredowithitwhatyouwilliamwalkingawayslowlyandquietly  lol)

 

 

I never really did align w/that event………

https://www.zerohedge.com/markets/mudpocalypse-hits-burning-man-73-trapped-toxic-lake-bed-nevada-desert

 

https://www.zerohedge.com/medical/screw-your-face-diapers-mask-mandate-return-sparks-we-will-not-comply-trend

 

https://www.zerohedge.com/political/gop-lawmaker-questions-doj-about-280-billion-lost-covid-relief

 

4 minute mark – looks like a giant crystal busted through the firmament………Lightning wrapped around it……….MrMBB333:

This was unlike ANYTHING they had EVER heard! WOW

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Reflecting on today’s experiences and a few additional shares for 7.26.23

 

I have been reflecting on the happenings of today.  I was triggered by the words and actions of someone who was taking issue – yet again – with how I choose to express myself here and on my personal social media accounts.  I was bothered by how this individual was going after my friend and then as it turned out, through my friend to come at me with unkind words.

Why are so many of us being triggered these days?  And why are so many of us, at times, being so nasty to each other?

Then I see this:

This entire reality and our experience in it has never. been. fully. authentic in that it does not support us the way the Real Universe does.  Prisons are like that.  The energies here are of “their” making – and they absolutely do. not. align. with. the frequency of our heart and soul.  As such, “they” can plant thoughts into our minds while awake – or asleep – or target us directly with certain frequencies that induce stress, anxiety and the like.  And if one is already experiencing low energy or physical/emotional/mental pain, poor health, etc. that person is more likely to be triggered and thus used to “feed the machine” – especially if they aren’t aware of where they are to begin with.

THAT is what is happening.  It’s what happened today.  It’s what I see happening all over the place now.

The answer?

KNOW and SEE this for what it is (logic).

Remember to see the signs – to feel them in your body.  It’s quite obvious at this point for many – but it still takes practice to detach.

Which is what is next – DETACH.  Take a time out.

Go within to the Heart.  Stay there until Center is felt again and the mind, quieted.

Use discernment.  Monkey chatter is not ours.

Pushing up of old wounds – what I’m getting more and more – is their agenda.  Their doing.  I’ve explained that healing should never be something we have to do over. and. over. again.

Seriously…..

All of this is just loosh and sick thrills for them.

Tonight – as I felt into this – I remembered what came to me today in the portal.  All of my pains within and experiences here are just STORIES.  And to be honest friends – they weren’t even my stories – but “theirs” – because who of us here – those who are pure and human – would E V E R consciously choose to go through trauma – of any level?

Not me.  Once would definitely be enough.

And who amongst us would consciously choose to come to a place like this?

And fuch this whole “free will” crap.  There is nothing free, nothing pure, nothing real inside this giant movie set.

So let’s stop giving in to their targets and their scenes they push at us and instead, follow what I said (and I need these words printed out and mounted as wallpaper in every room in my house – lol – frig!) or do whatever works for you to get you back to your Center/Heartspace.

And remember to be. kind.  To yourself.  To others.

If someone is melting down, struggling, suffering, for the love of us all -don’t poke fun of them.  Don’t criticize.  Don’t judge.  F’ing ask what you can do to help.  And if you can’t do that – get outta their room/space.  Jesus may just be a story – or he may be THE son of God – I don’t really care.  What matters to me is that he represents the BEST OF WHO WE ALL ARE – male and female.

Love is the answer.  Always has been.

Here are a few additional finds – then I’m off to snuggle up with my girl.  Love to you all.

Victoria

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Mask removal time yet?

 

As I was saying….(turn off wi-fi and phones and anything you can at night….)

 

Yes.  As I read today – Strong people stand up for themselves.  But the strongest stand up for others.  💖💥💖

 

 

 

Very interesting conversation here………Holes in the sky…….wormholes……….portals…………i’ve heard it said we each have our own portal because in our full Aligned Selves WE are portals (Portal Power)………….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And to end today’s work – this one – showing their agenda has been with us all along.  When others say (and I’ve done this myself) we need to go back to the 70’s or 50’s – when I really tune in I say “no”.  While they may have given us better matrix biscuits – they were still their biscuits.  I want the real Creations that come from Original Divine God Code.

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7.25.23 Finds, Puzzle Piecing/Sleuthing, etc……

 

May be an image of 1 person and text that says 'It's never too late to reinvent yourself. Start a new career at 40. Fall in love at 50. Learn to dance at 60. Start a whole new life at 70. Stop saying you can't. You can and you should. Dreams don' have an expiration. Ravcnolf voice. not echo. Bob Zuma PrEss'

 

Today is twosday.  Or is it?  I stopped hanging up regular calendars 3 years ago.  Now I print them out one month at a time – just one – put it in a select spot – and usually forget about it.  “What day is it?” is a question I ask less and less.  It’s just Now.

Anyone else feeeeeeeeeeeeling the drain today?  Girl and I attempted a ride – just zzzzzzzzz – she even mentioned feeling very tired.  Did some gardening – got a nice little abundance of food – enough for a salad.  Taking things day by day – moment by moment at times.  Baby steps with baby naps/rest breaks in between.

Here’s what I’m seeing.

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And we were never told who would say the words (exactly this)…….January 6th………been in obvious war since…….

 

 

Storm………

Funnel Cloud Spins Over Capitol as McCarthy Floats Impeachment Inquiry of Joe Biden

 

DEVELOPING: Hunter Biden’s Lawyers Face Sanctions After Being Accused of Lying in Tax Case – Legal Team Has Until 9 PM Tonight to Respond!

 

Sen. Grassley Accuses FBI of “Obstructive Conduct” in Senate Floor Speech on Biden Ukraine Bribe FD-1O23 Form (Video)

Yes but does he really speak for himself?  CAT, eh?  Acronym for….what.  Anyone?

 

All these “he’s going to be arrested he’s going to be arrested” – nothing but distractions or calls for attentioin.  INSULATED in full.

 

What was I saying about the “days”….

 

 

 

“Thine opinion is only protected by the Constitution if it agrees. with. mine.”

 

Still awaiting the story…..(BTW – FA50 is a light combat aircraft and has night vision imaging capabilities

Did some digging on the above and found this (from 8.22)…..

Why Poland Passed On F-16s For New FA-50 Fighter Jets

The plane info also included LADD – Limiting Aircraft Data Displayed

Speaking of – it’s after 9PM EST and there are currently approx. 200 up in the states.    

There are some interesting call signs including one CASTL34 – which reminded me of “Castle Lock” and drop #34:

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Nov 01, 2017 10:56:16 PM EDT
Anonymous ID: pGukiFmX No. 147567888 
Q Clearance Patriot
My fellow Americans, OVER THE COURSE OF THE NEXT SEVERAL DAYS you will undoubtedly realize that we are taking back our great country (the land of the free) from the evil tyrants that wish to do us harm and destroy the last remaining refuge of shining light. On POTUS’ order, we have initiated certain fail-safes that shall safeguard the public from the primary fallout which is slated to occur 11.3 upon the arrest announcement of Mr. Podesta (actionable 11.4). Confirmation (to the public) of what is occurring will then be revealed and will not be openly accepted. Public riots are being organized in serious numbers in an effort to prevent the arrest and capture of more senior public officials. On POTUS’ order, a state of temporary military control will be actioned and special ops carried out. False leaks have been made to retain several within the confines of the United States to prevent extradition and special operator necessity. Rest assured, the safety and well-being of every man, woman, and child of this country is being exhausted in full. However, the atmosphere within the country will unfortunately be divided as so many have fallen for the corrupt and evil narrative that has long been broadcast. We will be initiating the Emergency Broadcast System (EMS) during this time in an effort to provide a direct message (avoiding the fake news) to all citizens. Organizations and/or people that wish to do us harm during this time will be met with swift fury – certain laws have been pre-lifted to provide our great military the necessary authority to handle and conduct these operations (at home and abroad).
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An Apology

 

Please forgive me for being (what I feel) demanding in asking for financial support of my work.  While I know in my heart that is what I deserve to experience as I see it as an exchange of energy, to ever demand it from anyone – from any of you – is not ok and is not who I really am.  It is the desperate me.  And I am healing her.

So again – I am sorry.  Please forgive me.

Love,

V.

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In the air………

 

There is a tit for tat – gaslighting – old programming under narc control energy in-the-air now.  Seeing it a lot online at the moment.  We’ve all been on the receiving end and giving end (to varying degrees of course) – however for those of us on the real path of awakening within, we become more comfortable in seeing where we have been on the giving end and thus work on making changes with our behavior.  There are some unfortunately who won’t – who can’t do this.  That’s where people like Melanie Tonia Evans enter to help those of us trying to heal from the damage done as a result of such relationships/exchanges and help us not feel so crazy at times.

I remain a work-in-progress as I continue to see those very ancient old wounds within still needing seen healed transitioned into New and Healthy.  And sometimes that including cutting out such conversations when you see that any attempt at rational logical reasoning – sharing from your heart – your Truth – cannot get past the wall of the persons programming.  And this decision could be considered stonewalling when it’s really about personal protection/boundary setting.  This is a very good – validating – enlightening piece.  I love her work.

Emotional Invalidation In Relationships: How To End The Cycle

The full delusion of toxic invalidation is displayed when this person plays the victim, telling you why everything and everyone else is to blame whilst being completely non-accountable themselves.

 

The worst:

Soul Invalidation

This invalidation level is even more toxic and damaging than not allowing the teamwork and trust of your input.

A narcissistic person will commonly start this invalidation when you try to have a serious conversation with them about the way they are behaving. Even a casual conversation about something that the toxic person needs to do or something you are bringing to their attention, can trigger a deep narcissistic injury due to ‘any perceived criticism’.

Deep traumatic invalidation occurs when you are told your thoughts and feelings are wrong. “You should not feel that. You are too sensitive. That is not what is happening. These are all the reasons that a whole other reality is happening.”

This person will also give you a compendium of excuses and justifications – bringing in irrelevant examples such as how other people behave – to invalidate your experience and tell you why you have it wrong.

And how YOU are wrong for even bringing this up.

Naturally, your head starts spinning.

It doesn’t matter how often you explain WHY you feel this way. The toxic person refuses to acknowledge it. In shock and distress, you may lose your temper and stay awake all night, heartbroken, while this person sleeps soundly in the spare bedroom, happy to have gotten rid of you.

Traumatic invalidation includes gaslighting. Lying to you to skew your reality. Saying they never did that or said that. Or can’t remember saying it. Or you misheard it.

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