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So checking around the states for the most affordable – or as I say it now “cheap rent” – doesn’t seem to exist.  The most “affordable” state – 1 bedroom apartments start at $1385.  Nice little number, eh?

You know why people ain’t pissed enough?  Half of the population, certainly the vast majority in my area, haven’t been really “hit” hard.  Most own their own homes, most having owned them for 20 or more years, so other than utilities and food, they haven’t been hit hard like the other half of us and that is housing – whereby we can’t afford to move because the cost OF rents are at batshit criminal levels.  Well there are many round these parts who are indeed angry over the DOGE activities – which I don’t comprehend.  What is so upsetting over auditing WHERE OUR MONEY HAS BEEN GOING?  They ok with blindly trusting the entities in DC to just do the right thing?

Because I sure as heck ain’t.  And if you’re a critically thinking human, you won’t have an issue with it either.

I am just at these new levels of UGH and CANNOT TAKE IT.  Waking up – again – pounding the bed – commanding My reality and MY experience.  My needs.  Your needs.  OUR needs.  WHEN DOES OUR ABILITY TO CREATE WHAT WE NEED RETURN?  SHOW UP?

I am not feeling any sense of connection to anything outside either.  God.  Jesus.  Home.  Loved ones who passed on.  I am not feeling a THING.  It’s like that concept that we’re all just little debris floating around aimlessly, connected to nothing – that is feeling quite possible – true tbh.

When did we begin?  How?  Where?  Are we divinely created or nothing but an accident?

Then returning to the “show”.  WHEN do these things start to show up in our experience?  The EO from Jan 22 regarding cost of living – housing, utilities, food, etc. – when do we start seeing that?  WHY is this being allowed to drag out as a snail’s pace?  Where’s the Kash confirmation?  WE WANT TO SEE THOSE DAMN LISTS!!  And what about the JFK Files?  What happened to those?  Anyone doing anything with them?  Watching the fake people at the confirmation hearing(s) – watching the “criminals” still showing themselves – I JUST CAN’T.

Stock market continues to soar.  Prices gone up.  And yet we get told to trust the plan.

NO!

I stopped doing that over a year ago.  I trust nothing now other than what I feel and desire.

Who is in charge of this plan?  Why have they allowed this level of suffering?  I will n e v e r comprehend that part.  Each day that passes is another wasted day where if I had what I NEEDED, I could be doing more.  I could be living in a more suitable area.  I could be giving my child more.  Doing the day to day keeping food on the table, clothed and basics provided for – I just can’t.  I need more.  She needs more.  And I feel like an absolute failure.  But I also remind myself I didn’t create this corrupt capitalistic system where it is survival of the fittest – so I put my anger energy into that whole mess.

Carry water chop wood.  Literally carry wood as ya’ll know to do the damn wash in the cold garage, which takes up too much of my time.

That’s all I got.  I’m just truly at the truest sense of the word burned the fuch out – no fuch’s left to give.

For now – I say MAKE IT HAPPEN and SPEED. IT. UP.  End and remove the corruption and bring in what is just and fair for EVERY ONE OF US.

And calling in Bill Wood:  You said there are moves and countermoves – until it’s checkmate.  WE COMMAND CHECKMATE!  N O W!

V.

🚨DOGE employees have reportedly been at the Pentagon since yesterday.

Audit. Everything. pic.twitter.com/Ln2FvdGJHQ

— DOGE NEWS- Department of Government Efficiency (@realdogeusa) February 19, 2025

Going to be another one of those “where’s da money?”

JUST IN: 🇺🇸🇺🇦 Elon Musk agrees it is time for DOGE to audit the money US sent to Ukraine. pic.twitter.com/bHNjiOQ71l

— BRICS News (@BRICSinfo) February 19, 2025

$5,000.  Add 5 more zero’s then we can talk.  And what about those who are too poor to file a tax?  They get screwed over (as usual)?

JUST IN: 🇺🇸 Elon Musk to discuss a "DOGE dividend" tax refund for every taxpayer with President Trump.

— Watcher.Guru (@WatcherGuru) February 19, 2025

If we are truly “ending the endless” wars – why only 8%?  Why is this bloated dept. going to be needed?  Can someone explain this to me in a way my Higher Vision self can accept?

🚨President Trump & Pete Hegseth just ordered the Pentagon to plan for a massive 8% budget cut in each of the next 5 years.

This would save taxpayers close to $100 BILLION.

“The time for preparation is over — we must act urgently to revive the warrior ethos, rebuild our… pic.twitter.com/zth7yspgRH

— DOGE NEWS- Department of Government Efficiency (@realdogeusa) February 19, 2025

Audit the entire family – and the rest of the “families”……..

DOGE NEWS- Department of Government Efficiency

@realdogeusa

https://twitter.com/realdogeusa/status/1892304398065582084

Looks like a nice thing to do………..

pic.twitter.com/fF02yYUqsy

— Puppies 🐶 (@PuppiesIover) February 18, 2025

In a nice cabin in a place like this………..all it takes is money………..

UPDATE:  I’ve had some toxic comments left in regards to what I shared below – I was going to engage and attempt to reason with and explain – but decided instead to block them from returning.  If I am not safe to ask for help and/or share what I’m going through – I have no use for anyone in my life, personal or here at my site, who thinks the answer to someone hurting is to judge and ridicule.  FAFO to those who engage w/that ugly.

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My heart is so heavy.

I have been working so hard and so diligently and I can’t keep this up anymore. I cannot change my life on my own apparently. I well there are so many other people I am competing with and I am drowning here and if it were just me it would be one thing but I have to fight to keep going for me and my daughter and my friends if you come here you have to see me for where I am now and I am not in a good space anymore. I am not strong like I used to be I’m tired of being told fight keep going be strong but I need people helping me I don’t understand that I am so disappointed in humanity I go on all these alleged support boards and they give me system based agencies that don’t help. I don’t understand it I don’t understand why I cannot find people who hear me when I say this is what I need and I am provided that very thing.

I started this website with the title for a very specific reason. I’ve always known that no one makes it here alone and that the answer to every single problem is love when it shows up in action. I feel like I am fighting a battle all on my own and I am not winning. I just want to be seen. I want to be asked what do you need. I want to feel like I have something to contribute and to provide and that will truly make a difference and will give me the means to provide for my child in the way that she deserves and that I want oh my God I want this more than anything. I sit here pouring my heart out and I am crying. I’m exhausted from lack of sleep. I am breaking down from being harmed and the loneliness that I feel when I pour my heart out and go to see if anybody is heard me I don’t know I just know we can’t make it in this world on our own no one does and I don’t understand why I have not been able to manifest what I need. I am truly at a loss and I’m also tired of letting it go and letting it be I’ve been doing that a lot lately and nothing is coming to me. Well I shouldn’t say that the idea to pursue being an instacart Shopper and Uber delivery was a new idea and I pursued those and I already shared what happened. It’s like there’s this Force around me and I can’t get rid of it and I’ve tried and I have prayed and I do all my intention I really need help I am desperate okay if I wasn’t desperate I wouldn’t be saying that but I am desperate for help