……….as much as my mind is allowing me to that is atm. I’m kind of – numb. Ya’ll know my mate’s medical issues as well as knowing his recent doctor essentially cut him off in the middle of a very complex course of treatment – leaving him not knowing what to do next (and I have nothing new or different to offer either). Frig……….. Anyway the past 24 hours he’s discovered 2 painful lumps on the back of his head – close together. First he found the one last night and today, another has appeared. He’s had fatty lipomas’ appear on his body over the years – all benign – which I’m pretty sure this is what this is given how it feels – but it’s causing him pain – and he already had head pain to begin with. And atm, he can’t wear his hat he wears daily. I don’t know what to do. He doesn’t know what to do.
Then around the time he’s showing me this new one, our wonderful egg lady dropped off our eggs and shared the news her husband has terminal cancer – just diagnosed a few weeks ago. She was numb herself – understandably so. They’re having to sell their farm. I told her about Rick Simpson Oil – her son is into that field so she is going to look into it. I forgot to mention the anti-parasitic treatments.
Nothing much making sense now. It’s all a bad dream – really feeling that the past day or two. Weird things are happening and LH and I have begun a convo about the tv series LOST – she has better memories of it than I do even though I and my mate watched every episode for all 6 seasons. But I feel like that character – little short blonde english guy (as I said – memory on the specifics are not so good) – who says “Guys, where are we?” Was that show truth? Yeah – I think it is. And are we waiting for everyone to wake up – like they did at the end – Jack being the last one to awaken (and wasn’t it his “dream” to begin with?) and realize they had died in a plane crash and the entire experience on the island had been a long, bad dream (sound familiar?). When they woke up – outside – it was Heaven. Celebration. All of them gathered together – happy.
HAPPY.
I get chills in my numbness typing those words.
I don’t know…………..much now.
But I do know this has to end. WE HAVE TO WAKE UP AND GET OUT.
And people are getting hit – hard – now. I see the sheot everywhere. Clowns. Weird bugs that we’ve never seen before – showing up. Other more “normal” bugs landing on us. Spiders appearing in the damn toilet – something that happened to me weeks ago – biting me on the leg (just didn’t share it here). And dreams – last night they were just one dream all night – poking – child had the same experience. My mate would likely have had similar as well if he slept long enough to dream.
When are we going to have our escape? When are we going to have our HELP and RESCUE – at least see it instead of this ongoing feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeels experience?
Rescue ourselves I can hear some saying – fuch that sheot. Mind telling me HOW exactly? Seriously – I want to know exactly HOW those who follow that narrative plan on doing that. And I want to see them create that then help those of us who have tried every damn thing TO wake up – in full that is – and KNOW it all again – and GET OUT of this prison – whether it’s literal or just for the mind- anyone thinking they’re in paradise is delusional (and probably not coming here much so I’m probably talking to empty space – I have a tween – I’m used to that lol). How can you have paradise and parasites in the same. experience? Yeah – YOU CAN’T. And don’t get me started on some peeps sharing we create our own misery and suffering here. FUCH THAT UGLY speak. No heart. No soul in that talk.
NOT. MY. TRIBE.
It shrinks….Changes…..But I’m ok with that.
Anyway – it’s been “another” day and I sit here numb – my mate crying in the other room. Nothing is working to bring anyone in this house exactly what we each need. Not a damn thing. So all I have left to ask for is prayers – loving energy – whatever ya got – which I know many of us don’t have much to give now – I get that. I’m the same way overall – definitely at this time I am.
I think things are happening today. Hopefully a sign we are sooooooooooooooooo f’ing close to THE moment.
With love, gratitude and exhaustion and a numb mind atm (and just now my mate comes in and shows me he’s found more lumps………!!!!!!) Ok……so….. I am distracting myself by doing the mental stuff and sharing some finds.
Victoria
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current military up ~ 11:20pm EST ~ 217…..prepping for fryday maybe?
Never heard of a black moon until today……….
The Black Moon is a rare occurrence and will occur on May 19. https://t.co/NFNtargzc9 pic.twitter.com/HezyGtUlCJ
— Kim Runner (@kimrunner) May 18, 2023
before i forget ~ doing some research last night for my own brain ~ i saw that John Kennedy Jr. met with Tyson when he was in prison………..we know what happens when he met w/people in the past……they become part of the plan…….
Does this mean something? I’m desperate today – I admit – I am desperate for something positive. I decided to gematria BLACK MOON:
GOING HOME
BLACK SWAN
GAME OVER
That’s all I need to see. This has to be it. Can’t take another second – mentally. (as I am putting this together – mate was outside listening to the same station as I was – when suddenly the station faded out and into a different frequency – all on its own – the song? IT’S THE FINAL COUNTDOWN. WE’RE LEAVING TOGETHER.) This is either really. happening. or it’s the biggest joke on us. I’m opting for the REALLY HAPPENING.
#ImpeachBiden pic.twitter.com/RTvhyUaBLJ
— Rep. Marjorie Taylor Greene🇺🇸 (@RepMTG) May 18, 2023
Durham Report. 56 misspellings.
h/t @FriendsFeisty pic.twitter.com/jD2AtOvOQx
— SSG_G (@TheParasiteGuy) May 18, 2023
People like this – all of us who have shared the truth however we can – and have suffered for it here – we got a HERO’S WELCOME coming at Home! At the very least – a long vacation here and an AMAZING “home of our choice” here.
so much of “their” filth being shown at the above site – don’t want to share it here – but sharing to lament again CHEESE WIPES ARE PEOPLE SEEING NOW IF NOT WHY AND HOW CAN THEY NOT??!!!
This went across the banner today on RSBN Rumble live feed for the Kari Lake Court appearance at 3:37 EST.
TRUMP VP PICK MAY 'STUN THE WORLD'
I wonder who it might be?
John-John?
That would be a shock!
Here's the video, go to the 6:59 min mark.. https://t.co/8jr7ZYvwkF pic.twitter.com/BiatPpPetB
— 🇺🇸ULTRA-MAGA🇺🇸Dean Erickson 7th time B4CK! (@7thDean) May 18, 2023
Get some cash out before X-DAY!
Whoooo! This should wake up the sleepers! 🤣💣 https://t.co/XewC0uLCbr— Crystal Smith (@Crystal59747465) May 18, 2023
Marco Polo – wonder if this is another John role……..Using the pen name of the Italian writer………..Remember he did visit Italy (on APRIL 20th – AHEM see the above House Resolution 420 – can you hear John saying “payback’s a beotch JB”?) – Valentino Headquarters in Rome to, in his own words, “see the codex”………….Leonardo da Vinci’s scripts….
The talk of DC today! 🔥🔥🔥 https://t.co/EBuJo5quGi
— GEORGE (@TheCollectiveQ) May 18, 2023
i cannot even look at its picture…….
ARRESTED!
Ex-Biden official Sam Brighton arrested!https://t.co/RxVhHHs2Cn— Santa Surfing (@SantaSurfing) May 18, 2023
🔥💣🥳🥳
Buh Bye Adam Pencil Neck Schiff!!@realannapaulina Filed H.Res. 412!
Schiff Expulsion!!!
Expel that traitor immediately!https://t.co/W7A7DiDYRP pic.twitter.com/rQkILCH4ww— Santa Surfing (@SantaSurfing) May 18, 2023
Disney shutting down Star Wars 'immersive' hotel after just over a year of operation due to lack of interesthttps://t.co/yL8BhLQdjw
— Jack Poso 🇺🇸 (@JackPosobiec) May 18, 2023
240 = 420?
💥💥💥KABQQQQQM💥💥💥
🦅🇺🇸💥Don Jr. CRUMBS💥🇺🇸🦅
"[A NON]-WOKE" At 2:40PM##1440
BOOM.
BOOM.
BOOM.
BOOM.
A WEEK TO REMEMBER.
DARK TO LIGHT.
BLACKOUT NECESSARY.
Q##240
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Snow White Pounce.… https://t.co/XBzkyKbWM0 pic.twitter.com/v9gDeQmWpp— GH17TAFKAG (@GH17TAFKAG) May 18, 2023
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