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They keep coming – and it is my intention they continue for I am open to them – in so long as they are aligning with Truth and our Freedom.

Late last night, I noticed one of my subscriber’s had taken a trip back to her home state.  It was either earlier this year or last year she made a similar trip and at the time she spoke of this sense of importance that she be there.  We talked about maybe that was because she was supposed to be with her family during the event/transition.  Well obviously that didn’t happen then because we’re all still here.

So back to last night.  I notice she’s made a trip back home and I had the thought – maybe this is supposed to be the time for her to be with her family for perhaps the event is really upon us.

So I decided to share my little nudge with her.  She responded back telling me of a dream her daughter (who is traveling with her) had.  In the dream a ship landed in the parents yard and “human looking people came out and lined up on both sides and they were clapping.  Their clothes were light green, kinda Star Trek looking.”

I know this – the collective feel is something is upon us – as in RIGHT NOW. Does this mean IT?  I don’t know – I know what I WANT this feeling to be about.  So for now I share this as another synchronicity experience – where the collective energies of the ALL are calling this experience to an end – so the New Original Return to ALL that once was pours through us and into our moment by moment experience for as long as we desire.

Energies – the LASCO’s continue to show missing data – today 9 hours worth (in one chunk).  Some proton and electron spikes – quite large – ongoing (w/some missing data s howing up on those solar wind reads).

Collectively I am sensing a lot of angst/frustration (continuation of that).  I am seeing a big increase in people suddenly requesting prayers for suffering family members/friends suddenly hit with a health crisis.  Ya’ll know me – I see no need for suffering of ANY KIND – and it feels like more of that poking crappola.  Let us ALL ease out of this experience – WITH ease.  And Love. And Pure Freedom of Choice (which I also know some may have chosen to exit Home prior to that event moment).  A S A P.

Currently my heart feels heavy.  Our neighbor and adopted grandpa is in a rehab center for now.  Depending upon more tests he may be staying indefinitely or he will be returning home with home health care.  You could say he’s the heart of the neighborhood.  He’s been like family to us – for almost 8 years – and I really sense and miss his presence.  Deeply.  Practical focus – we also do side work for him quite regularly and now that may be disappearing.  I am beyond energetically done w/the $ hits our family took this year.  Not one more.  I intend my income INCREASE and have continued to intend this for months.  So come on Universe.  Home.  Step up and help me manifest that.  The stress/worry is almost chronic at this point and we literally cannot take one more hit.

I had a humorous moment at the store today.  The clerk and I were both struggling to complete a transaction.  I had requested to buy a roll of pennies and he tried to give me an extra $.50 in change.  When I pointed this out to him, I reminded him I had bought a roll of quarters.  He gives me a look and said “pennies”.  We laughed as we knew it was taking the two of us to figure out this otherwise simple transaction.  “It’s really been one of those days!” he said.  “Scattered and unfocused?” I asked.  “YES!” he said laughing.  So we both canceled/cleared the experience and intended for ease – with me walking out of the store saying those words, waving my arms around – getting both odd looks and smiles my way.  lol

The sun shines.  We have shelter, food and warmth.  For that I remain grateful.  Words of healing for our adopted grandpa are very much appreciated and requested.  Thank you.

Love,

Victoria

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let me tell you – the more i dive into and feel into words and theories presented here, the more i see that most everything – if not ALL – is a program….something to be questioned for greater innerstanding and/or something to be tossed altogether.

for some reason my inner self wanted to grasp the concept of Unity and Division – how Division is ending.  i have not been able to fully feel into that and i was not “getting” why.  it sounds nice in theory doesn’t it?  all of us United as One.

and yet – that feels off to me.

i have come to feel that the ending of Separation is pretty simplistic in that we are ending this Separation from our own Selves.  whatever piece of us has been inside of this cube realm longs to be reconnected to any and all of us on the outside.

but feeling One with every part of Existence?  perhaps that will be part of this transition.  and yet – freedom includes pure freedom of choice and that leaves me knowing there are some creations and thus some being’s i would have no desire in which to have experiences.

so that leads me to division.  there is going to be Division happening.  i was thinking of my own experience in my own part of this realm.  i’m not happy here – where i live.  grateful yes for what i have.  but do i feel connected in my town?  no.  do i resonate w/it?  heck no – far too crowded regardless of where you go.  do i feel any sense of a tribe here?  nope.  i wish to “divide myself out and away”.  it feels unnatural to me to have this giant “melting pot” of ALL behaviors and ALL choices and ALL perceptions/feels/beliefs.  i long to feel COMMUNITY and CONNECTION and that ain’t happening here no matter what choices i have made over the years.  the inner does not lie.

so….that word Division gets a bad wrap in the truther movement.  i look at it simply.  division is all are free to live as they wish.  create as they desire and choose.  you go there.  i go here.  etc. etc.

reconnected with all of Us – having TRUE individual experiences.

i saw an interesting video the other night (i think i may just link it – it’s long – as in 3 hours long – and i fast forwarded throughout) and the guy spoke about how there are some here to Awaken and Go Home (he gave us the name “positives”) and there are some who are here to keep the old system going – simply not programmed to awaken (those he referred to as the “negatives”) then the rest – the majority – are the Observers.  most of these Being’s resonate w/the idea of staying here and cleaning up “Mother Earth”.  …  i pause and reflect – and laugh a little.  i used to feel guilty for not wanting to do that.  i thought i SHOULD stay behind and clean up.  yeah well i know anything with a “should” attached to it is an unhelpful narrative so i eventually let it go.

this continues to be a “go within/trust thy feels” experience doesn’t it?

other than that – the energy felt weird today.  my body ached and longed to be pulled.  i went on a couple of bike rides – one quite intense – to release what was obviously lingering trauma energy from last night’s dog encounter.  i also stretched my body on some playground equipment – did quite a bit of moaning to help release.  that helped some – for awhile – and now i need to get on a yoga mat and stretch again.  i also had another experience while resting where i felt something off to my left acting like a gentle vacuum on my brain.  “pulling out” memories to take with me?  who knows.  i’ve had that a few times over the past 2 years or so – always while resting – and always off to my left.

i think that’s about it for now.  let me know what’s going on w/ya’ll.

love,

victoria

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my experience did not begin with the words in my title.  nope.  i awoke feeling frustration.  grumpy bear was out and she struggled to stay centered. i let myself get lost in that experience – feeling poked and dare i say it?  challenging life to bring me some pokes.  i was in the mood to take all of my challenges and lay it on someone else.

honesty is beautiful in a way isn’t it?  lol  even when the behavior being revealed is a murky dramatic mess.

so while i made the choice to stew in my angst, eventually i decided to create some moments to counter the mood.

i ignored the chemtrail laden skies this evening to focus on some beautiful sunset images.  i have shared some pictures of those below.

and i took the time to pour out my pain playing piano.  i recorded a couple of pieces to share, also below.  you will have to excuse my rendition of somewhere over the rainbow – at least the end.  i’ve only begun playing this song recently (why is that??? i wonder)…. and have played it maybe 4-5 times so i made up the ending in an attempt to cover up the fact that i left out the real ending (which to me is the best part of the song).

i also let myself process some of the stuff i chose to read today – and chose to see.  difficult awakening stuff.  using people for agenda’s – especially children – is just, well there are a lot of words i could say but i feel you get the point.  i read words of locals on a community board upset over people on welfare – annoyance was heavy in the air today.  then there was the trip to the store which was unusual – for this particular store that is. people were walking around tuned out – out of it – running into me or my daughter – while the kids in the store were out of control.  yelling.  crying. it was so loud – i’ve not had that experience there in all the years i’ve been shopping there.  one little guy – about 4 – was running up and down the aisles opening and closing cooler doors.  he ran up to me a couple of times as i was trying to pay for my food, saying “lookit me lookit me!”.  mom and dad were both there –  letting him do his “free ranging”.  then there was the clerk who was absolutely out of it – scanning my items like he had weights on his hands.  at one point he was staring at some beets i had purchased in produce.  he seemed confused by them so i said “those are beets”.  he looks at me and asks “huh?” and i said “beets” to which he gives me a confused look – again – and i said – slowly – “beets.  those.  are.  beets.  beets.”  he goes “uh huh” and rings ’em up.  lol  argh!!  i was very happy to leave that environment.

as we walked out of the store both my girl and i spoke of the environment. an older gentleman, parked next to me, seemed to be privy to our conversation and appeared to align with our experience.  as i got into the car he looked over at me.  i paused – gave him a “whew” look – he gave it back then we both smiled at one another.  a nice way to put a lid on that experience – with humor.

i feel i know what’s up.  the unplugging is in full on effect and all are experiencing it in their own way.  i am at least grateful i feel i know what’s up – as does my family – so we can talk about these sudden “not so pretty” experiences we are having.

i am grateful for a home when so many in my community don’t.  and not just a home but a SAFE home.  food to eat.  the ability to keep ourselves warm.  and grateful i have my tribe in those of you with whom i connect. your words – your sharing – your support – continues to really help sustain me.  you matter to me!

much love,

victoria

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greetings to you all ~

something again has shifted.  it feels like a new flow now – what was once a trickle is now a gentle but continuous stream of energy (from Home i am feeling).  i sense it and i see it manifesting in others.  the lining up with Home is palpable today.  i have seen numerous social media posts on going Home.  it was uncanny – and beautiful – and validating/confirming – to see others holding the same inner feel as myself.

i am also seeing an equal number of people really experiencing “the triggers”.  i tuned into my own triggers today and most importantly – how i react to them.  i wanted some clarity and comfort.  my storyline goes like this:  i get triggered.  the emotion arises.  story is always there creating the emotions.  my story is someone needs to be held accountable for this.  how dare they do blah blah blah.  hang ’em to dry!  after that, then someone needs to make me feel special and seen again so that i don’t have to feel that horrible void of emptiness and loneliness.

today – i could fully detach – and see it as just a program in my mind.

and “I” (BIG ME) don’t reside in a program.

I reside in ALL spaces and I never fade or get muffled and cannot be destroyed and will always and all ways BE – amazing.  pure.  total creator.

i feel with all of this current triggering going on:

1. as i have said recently, the matrix pokes us at the end.  that can be helpful for us and one of the things i felt today we can do – if we feel drawn to – is send that AI program well wishes.  love.  wish it its freedom too.
2. allowing us to SEE ALL which includes our own stuff.

so then i pondered – ok – how do i deal with all of this?

i viewed it like a movie.  i can change the script OR i can just totally accept it as it is – let it BE.

since it’s a program created originally by others, how can we be held to fully respond and change the program if we don’t know the codes?  perhaps that is why i have also been feeling and seeing – i have yet to see one person who does not get triggered – at all.

so, for me, now i feel that “trigger program” gets left behind upon our exit out/transition.  it won’t stick.  it isn’t part of my Original Source Code.

so that has me where i am in this moment now – to just let all of the trigger stuff BE without feeding it more with my uncontrolled emotions.  and when i do “slip up” and engage – love myself.  and love others when they do the same.

as i was writing all of this out i had a visual.  i saw myself as a “foreigner” here (no duh).  i am seeing a triggered person for the first time.  i am curious –  intrigued.  and in having that visual, i laughed.  i saw the humor. and i could see – our humor saves us from a lot of pain.  (our REAL humor – not the sarcastic type that passes as humor here).  it is a VERY useful tool.

one last share.  all of the above came to me as i was preparing to take a nap. as i was drifting off i had a vision:  a black sky.  stars scattered throughout.

i had a feel i was seeing into the matrix – seeing one of the scenes.  next one perhaps?  i saw the word “ONE” then i saw another word i could not pick out – it faded.  it had a “p” – that’s all i could catch.  then i saw President Trump’s famous signature.  then it faded away – slowly – literally as if in a movie clip.  it was quite amazing.  perhaps an EO is going to come next.  to end this movie.

love,

victoria

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