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Earlier today, this wall of emotion came over me.  I leaned over and began to purge.  Let’s just say in a variety of ways.  When I have these moments, I do not hold back.

A few moments later, I stood up, looked in the mirror and saw the anguish, the tears, the intensity of what I was feeling.

I.     WANT.     MY.     FREEDOM.

And I want it NOW!

This is becoming difficult.  The growing intensity of how much I want to live as my Soul is designed:  FREELY.

The state says I must pay to license my car.  I own the car outright. Possess the title.  And yet the state still says they claim ultimate ownership on my car that we bought with our money.  Excuse me but I do not see their name listed under owner.  Nor did they give me their portion of their money when purchasing it.

State says I must carry insurance on my car.  If not, they can impound my vehicle and charge me money.  A polite way of saying “we can come steal it and your money”.  Suspend my driver’s license.

I calculated recently:  The insurance industry and their scam operatives owe me over $300,000 for the money they have stolen from me over the years.  My “cost” to them?  A little over $200.  How is that a fair relationship?  Sounds like fraud to me.

What right does some bank have in telling me what I am worth?  My value?   What I am deserving of?  Assigning me some damn 3 digit number so I can be a card-carrying member of “my worth is tied up in these three numbers!”  Whoopie!

NOT.

What right does anyone have in telling me what I have to pay to eat?  Keep myself warm and safe and dry?  Clothed?  And who the fuck thinks it is okay to tell me this very fraudulent system, who dictates who makes what, that I must pay the same price to LIVE as someone who makes a million dollar salary?

What right does anyone have in telling me what I am deserving of in a home?  Where I can live?  The size of the house?  Whether the house is clean or a shack.  Whether the neighborhood is safe and quiet or a hell-hole laden with crime.

WHAT FUCKING RIGHT?

Are they somehow even BEYOND and ABOVE Source?

Better than?

Source sure does not place these labels and demands on me.

NEVER has.

NEVER will.

NO.  NO MORE to that.  NO MORE to ANY of it.

Slowly I am taking steps in taking back my power. Going by my OWN rules.  Following what works for ME and Who I Am.

Remembering my WORTH.  My VALUE.

WHO  I   AM.  

Just like Rosa Parks who said “No” when told she had to move because of the color of her skin.  Same fraudulent system telling another Sovereign Being what to do.

This woman is standing stronger with each passing second in saying “NO” to anyone, any group, any system who pushes their will upon me.

That way of being is OVER.

I accept only the new energies of Freedom and Sovereignty.

From today forward.

And I invite you to do the same.

♥♥♥

 

 

 

 

I write this piece every bit as much for myself as I do for you…

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I used to read channeled messages and believe in them.

I used to follow folks like ArchAngel Michael and the other “Arch” angels. The Galactic Federation.  Commander Ashtar.  Sheldon Nidle.

My heart wanted their promises NOW and my desperation was so powerful, it made rather silent the Inner Voice that was ringing the b.s. bell.

Read the words of others.  However, please pay attention that you are not “following”.  Following as defined by accepting each word as Truth while dismissing your own inner voice.  Also defined as looking outside of yourself, ultimately, for the answers.  For the truth.

It’s easy to fall for this deception.  Been there – more times than I can count.  Think about it this way.  Many of us who are here for this Ascension Process ~ this journey of awakening to remember and release and heal and return again to Pure Source – we have had it tough.  Much of this third dimensional reality feels foreign to us.  Many have had abuse and health issues, ongoing quite often, and the like which we then choose to isolate ourselves from the world.

Isolation can lead to that state of desperation.  Again, been there – and continue to pull away from that state.

Tell yourself “I Am Source”.  As often as you can.  Even if we don’t “feel” it, keep saying it, as affirmatively as you can.  Say it slowly.  Say it loudly. Say it softly.  Just keep at it until you begin to feel the words in your body. Feel it in your Core.  In your Heart.  Keep at it and you will begin to experience the connection again in your body.  You will know when you have come Home.

One other issue I have dealt with is the need to please.  The need to show others who I feel have wronged me “SEE?  See how RIGHT I am now?  Do you approve of me now?”

D I S E M P O W E R I N G.

The only one there is ever to “please” is thyself.  Ever.  And even that is an illusion for being in our Full Source Power is just about Being and Knowing and Creating from that power.  We don’t stop to make sure we are doing ok or pleasing ourselves.  In Full Alignment we just know and thus Do.

So my personal rule for thyself is this:  I may choose to read these channeled pieces.  My red flags are anything that begins with “dear ones” and any information that says “we are working hard on your behalf”.

Ah, that last one.  We are working hard on your behalf.  So just wait dear one and trust in us.

While I believe we have Source Light Beings helping with this, far too many of these beings aren’t of pure source.  IMHO that is.  Pure Source gives forth energy that empowers.  It doesn’t dangle carrots of “hurry up and wait”.  In fact, as I am seeing and feeling it at this Now moment, I see that our Intentions of Remembering are working with and assisting the TRUE higher dimensional Source Beings.  A collective gathering, building energy that, working also with Cosmic Energies, are all creating the breaking down of the old false matrix energies.  It’s a rather quiet process too.  Not a lot of fanfare.  Just Source Beings DOING from that state.  None of this “lookie what we are doing for YOU.  Just hurry and be patient dear one.”

Does that make sense?  Let me know if it doesn’t.  I have moments I experience such as writing this piece where I FEEL the experience within but really struggle with coming up with words and sentences to explain the experience of knowing I have.

And another thing that I have read and resonate with.  When Source and Higher Self Source communicate with us – it isn’t with words per say.  It is usually with impressions and feelings that we then use our human brain to put into words so ALL of our Being can have the insight.  It’s also supportive. Loving.  Feeeeels gentle.  Solid.

I see the difference today.  I have indeed heard words of a masculine voice – authoritative.  False Light Crap.  Indeed NOT helpful.

ANY words of “we know best” or of doubt or judgment – toss that shit aside.  Say I do not consent to this.  Break down the agreements to follow this stuff.  And as we do, command and intend the return of our own energy we gave away to such agreements.

ANY words of “you are special because you are here to x y z…” – toss that too.  We are all special.  Such language is not Source.  It’s meant to feed on our fear of separation and loneliness and not being enough.  Our need for validation at the expense of going within.  No one is above another.  

Something else I notice ~ when I get a new insight and it feeeels so true and powerful – that inner doubting voice usually says “too good to be true”.

Again, TOSS IT.

Formula:  I receive an inner feeling and knowing that feels Pure and Source and All Possibilities.  Believe it.  Toss out the fear-based programming.  That’s all it is.  Programming.  We all know what fear is. No one escapes falling victim to that program.  But we can all break out of it.

So TOSS IT.  Give it a kiss on the way out.  Say “thank you – but no thank you”.  No need to go into drama over it.  Get to the place where it’s the same energy movement as is throwing away a tissue.  There are no stories surrounding it. 

I will leave you with this:

The mystic is not a special human being ~ every human being is a special kind of mystic.  Br. David Steindl-Rast, OSB

 

 

Does the energy feel different to you today?  I awoke this morning, shaking almost violently.  It took a good 30 minutes before I fully awoke. I was unusually groggy.  It felt like I had been doing something intense before the calls of my child “MAMA WAKE UP” awoke me suddenly.

I “recovered” as best as I could.  Later I packed up the car and headed to the park with the same little child who awoke me earlier.  

After we arrived, I noticed the skies were brilliant blue.  Puffy white clouds.  Not a chemtrail in sight.  I was guided to take a pic of the sun, so I aimed and took the shot. You will note a rainbow-like very defined object on the right. Any ideas?

The trees seemed vibrant, one in particular, which I took pictures of and have included in my collection below.  It seemed to speak to me.  I could not take my eyes off it.  I sensed she was raising her frequencies.  I felt a sense of joyful energy radiate through my center.  I thought back to The Celestine Prophecy and how they speak of seeing the aura’s of plants and trees.  I could literally see this tree shimmer.  The picture doesn’t do it justice.

After a picnic and some playtime, my girl and I took a walk.  We came across a deer (included in pictures) ~ a young female ~ alone.  Very unusual behavior.  We have seen her before on our street a few times, always alone.  I then noticed a butterfly was flying all around my head, almost as if it were dancing with me.  I smiled, spoke with it, giggled and took pictures (as best as I could).  I finally captured it – a bit – it’s the bottom picture in the collection.

A bit later we ran into a neighbor on the walking path.  He had his dog with him.  The talk turned to 4th of July and he said his dog behaved in a new manner with the fireworks.  This is the fourth such encounter I have heard from local dog owners, all saying the same thing: their dogs behaved in a new manner this holiday ~ all of them showing much more sensitivity than in years past.

It’s the energies.  What is old and of lower frequency is simply showing itself it can no longer be.  Explosive fireworks are in that category.  Not only are they harmful and traumatizing to the ears of animals and some adults and children, they also emit toxic fumes that affect all life (my nasal passages included).  I only went along with it this year as my daughter begged us to get some fireworks, although after her reaction (she was disturbed for the first time in her young life by the loudness and the smoke), this will be the last year for this.

The closing of a chapter to welcome in the new.

 

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