I’m no stranger to the term “relationships are hard”. Hard for me that is. I read something last night that spoke of the biggest factor in keeping two people connected is communication. (obviously – but it was written so beautifully) Authentic communication when both people are coming from their hearts. Where you feel heard – seen – truly listened to. I thought back to a couple of experiences of mine. One in the 90’s when I was married to someone else and atm, was desperate for emotional bonding with him. I spoke with a woman I had been getting to know and told her I would love to meet someone and instead of talking about what we each do for a living or the weather or blah blah we each share with one another our deepest pains and best dreams….REAL things….those things we usually keep for ourselves and only speak them aloud on dark nights alone with God.
What came out of her kind of surprised me: “Are you f’ing NUTS?! I would run away if someone ever did that.” Is there something wrong me, I thought? It was one of those moments I felt, again, like a stranger in a very strange land. I guess I’m just different, I thought as that has just been my nature – honesty, exploratory conversations.
Openness. To know I have been heard. I used to be a natural at this – in providing this with another. Today? Yeah, I know I carry a lot of pain – disappointment, anger and apathy – much I have kept to myself or kept inside and either unable or unwilling to let it go. I keep feeling – Love Heals and I cannot do it alone. I don’t want to either.
I recalled a friend from many years ago. We met when she was going through a divorce – and was having a “good time” so I was someone with whom she felt safe in sharing things she felt some of her other friends wouldn’t understand or be ok with. Sometimes I felt like there wasn’t much room for me and my “stuff” – but like I typically had always done – if it was a warm body wanting to talk, I was there. And she was fun and generous.
At one point I shared with her something I had only told a couple of other people. It was something significant – something that had had a strong impact on my life. Anyway so one afternoon she was visiting and I told her I had a new insight on this experience. She didn’t know what I was talking about so I said “remember….” and shared it with her briefly again. She said “oh things like that aren’t important to me so I don’t remember”. Wtf – I thought. Who says something like that? I was too afraid to state my opinion on her response, so I finished my point. She smiled and said “Cool! Is it my turn now?”
Is it “my turn now”? Yeah – I should have walked away after that. But life allowed for that when she found out I was a Trump supporter. lol
Anyway…..So tonight I reflect on relationships. How different are they on the outside – with no evil in the experience? How would – how will it be when we’re all free/healed from the trauma of this place? It is something I desire – a new me without all of this crap in my mind and body. Restored and healthy.
The experience and the energy today continues to feel “poking”. My level of frustration seems to increase and I feel I am now almost continuously “dumping out that cup” of whatever is inside it. I feel like we’re all now crammed into this place we don’t want to be in – desperately wanting out – desperately wanting different/new/better. Part of it is our stuff – part of it is just simply “them”.
SOMEDAY this ends, right?
Here are a few finds….
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Silver going to go up and stay going up?? I’ve only been waiting for that to happen for, what, 15 years?
We Are Living Through The Deep State’s Last Days! – On The Fringe Must Video
Anyone wanna take a guess as to what this may indicate? I’m pretty burned out in this regard so I just share….
Big base. Not normal. Getting ready for public military? IF IT IS TRUE. My thought – who got this info? I have asked – if something arises I will share (I haven’t been able to find anything so this feels more like “ooooh my inside sources are saying THIS” and blah blah blah lol god so over that kind of talk)….
Interesting Information
CRISPR in Context: The New World of Human Genetic Engineering
520,045 views•Premiered Oct 25, 2019
Now THIS feels true….
Gotta have humor:
We know this. That looming question: When is checkmate?
You know – I don’t think the election thing is what awakens the rest. I don’t think that’s really what is going to be SHOWN to people. Many have so much disdain for T they don’t or won’t care if it was stolen – so long as he didn’t get in the WH. Want to wake ’em up? Show them what’s in the jab they took – and how it was done with intention and malice. But even at that, as I thought today, T pushed it and continues to push it – IF that is the REAL T that is. I feel both sides have their own version. eye roll…
My kind of thing to discuss:
Time Travel and Teleportation – Andy Basiago’s disclosure interview
Andy Basiago is The most credible time travel and teleportation witness to date. ‘Outside The Box’ extraordinary interview with CIA Project Pegasus participant Andrew D. Basiago. In the late 1960’s and early 1970’s Andy was a child participant i…
https://www.bitchute.com/video/qZFUDfhuKj5Z/
JBS, World’s Largest Meat Supplier, Paid $11 Million in Bitcoin to Ransomware Hackers
CRISIS: 180,000 Illegal Aliens Arrested at the Border in May – 674% Increase Over Last Year
So I heard this is also now mainstream:
DEVELOPING: Active Shooter Reported at Joint Base San Antonio-Lackland
China Is Paying US Mainstream Media Outlets to Promote Chicom Propaganda
This looks like a piece of the matrix – unusual for a craft, imho..
UFO like anomaly appears after huge flash in space
“The USS Howard has now left San Diego again, flying a flag that reflects the storied history associated with its name and, in line with its motto, its crew’s readiness to pursue “victory” in whatever tasks they are assigned.”
I’ve been saying this for over 20 years…Pay to live and work-to-live is f’ing ENSLAVEMENT….
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Damn, “stalemate” and draw by “threefold repetition”, these are the last chances for a loosing player, I totally missed these possibilities in “the game”… let’s hope it’s just a theoretical possibility.
Due to a total two day internet outage, I had some time to think about all what’s going on, especially the disturbing claims from Trump regarding vaxines and I came to the conclusion, that no collective sacrifice can be too big, to end child trafficking and child sacrifice. Nothing else really matters, even if the whole population of earth has to be sacrificed, it is worth it and has to be done, no matter what. This seems to be the goal and in order to achieve this, we all will have to pay a price. This satanic shit has to end, once and for all. It appears to me, that there is no way to achieve this, without major collateral damages. If this is true, it explains everything for me, if not, we’re fucked anyway… ;P
well we do hear over and over “this is for the children”. it is really for us all – however we know their “prized possession” was with our children so yes – i agree with you. although i still feel something is going to happen to shift this jab thing. and if we’re all getting outta here (back to “space”) – does any of that really matter now?
To quote Mr T…..”and sooner than you think!” 😉
here is an interdasting one from today…..again….discernment, but the ‘feels’ are strong now with this…….
https://t.me/JFK_Q/117
Cheers
B
now that is one that feeeeeels important doesn’t it? thank you! 🙂
PS
I meant to say V, on the heart issue and what it’s like on the ‘outside’ from your reflection, I think and feel we are connected empathically and telepathically and will be in union with our Twin Flames in absolute and perfect balance and harmony…..if it helps lol 😉
B
you know – i go back and forth on that. i used to believe there was that one person – perfect for me – and then i began to feel perhaps it is ME i am looking for. and now – while i feel there is still truth in that – i am wondering who i am on the outside and who is there – perhaps waiting FOR me.
PPS lol
The synchronicities and happenings in my experience are off the charts……sooooooo many happenings and ‘coincidences’ the last few days 😉
It’s habbening!!
share more! i love hearing synchs!
Ahem…..
Boom Boom Boom…let me here ye say way-oh……….WAY-OHHHH 🙂
Savage!! LOL
Statement by Donald J. Trump, 45th President of the United States of America
As President, I had a great and very productive meeting in Helsinki, Finland, with President Putin of Russia. Despite the belated Fake News portrayal of the meeting, the United States won much, including the respect of President Putin and Russia. Because of the phony Russia, Russia, Russia Hoax, made-up and paid for by the Democrats and Crooked Hillary Clinton, the United States was put at a disadvantage—a disadvantage that was nevertheless overcome by me. As to who do I trust, they asked, Russia or our “Intelligence” from the Obama era, meaning people like Comey, McCabe, the two lovers, Brennan, Clapper, and numerous other sleezebags, or Russia, the answer, after all that has been found out and written, should be obvious. Our government has rarely had such lowlifes as these working for it. Good luck to Biden in dealing with President Putin—don’t fall asleep during the meeting, and please give him my warmest regards!