Everything is going up – again. Utility bills arriving.
My income – not keeping up.
I’m in debt again up to my eyeballs because I thought this monstrosity of a plan would be over by now. I’ve done what I’ve had to do just to survive.
I feel alone and invisible.
I feel if something happened to me – I’d be on my own. The few in my life who would want to help are in the same/similar situation.
I get told what to do – all sorts of useless advice – while my own words get ignored by the same. Total discounting of me as a person. NO. MORE. of those interactions and fake relationships.
SHARE MY WORK.
DONATE IF YOU CAN.
It’s that simple!
I am a real person here with real struggles and challenges.
I wear many hats. MANY hats.
I’ve contributed with my heart and Soul to this awakening because it’s felt RIGHT (yeah I know bitching and lamenting along the way – but that is just part of who I am).
And that’s what hurts the most. I’ve tried so hard to build community around my work. And I feel I have failed. It hurts me when I see someone share a find – something that I’ve shared or shared something similar and receive either no response or maybe 1 or 2 comments – and the other person gets a rally of people around them. This just isn’t about ego. It’s about Heart. Soul. And those parts of me need to know what I do is appreciated and seen and valued – regularly. Basic human needs that are just not being met.
I know I’m not alone. I’m just more vocal about it. 🙄😜😂
I’ll keep doing what I do here – even though my heart isn’t in it much at this moment. I intend for that to change and just spent the last 20 minutes working with that. But just like any other job – walking away would be a $$ mistake I can’t afford to take. I need to eat! And I honestly don’t know what else to do now.
For now – as always – if you come here – Please – Share my work on your social media accounts. If you have some $$ means – even just one dollar – please also donate. I’m so weary from asking. (and those of you who already do – you know how I feel)
And as always – let me know if there’s something you need. I’m always willing to share such things here.
Community. That’s how we make it through this experience.
Thank you. 🙏
Love,
Victoria
