Saw this last night. Feeling very much like this – feeling quite powerless atm to help my baby – feeling like the two of us are sinking and ain’t no one coming in to help in the way we NEED even though I intend and pray and ask what I think are real people. Fake world. Fake people. Fake promises.
DONE with it and ’em all.
D O N E.
Today – struggling big time w/the plan. Why? It’s someone ELSES idea of what THEY think my experience should be. For example, who says I want gold backed currencies? WHO THE FUCH gives someone else the power to dictate MY EXPERIENCE? That is reason #1 I have tried relentlessly and unsuccessfully for years to unite and create and at this point when I see these communities they seek healthy adults – young and fit and mentally productive.
That ain’t me today.
No room for someone like myself – how or what I have evolved into – even though years ago I met their “criteria”.
Last night, again, I intended with full power protective sleep – especially for her. Didn’t work last night (seems to be hit or miss). Evil found its way in regardless and gave us both disturbing dreams. In my experience I KNEW within it was not mine but was f’ing powerless to get myself out – mind crap – get lost inside the dream and don’t know you are being f’d with until you wake up/get out. The level of exhaustion I have reached is unbearable. Sleep and pray and rest I am told – to which I DO and those suggestions insult the cr@p outta me. Anyone not seeing some are more targeted here or that we’re even in a spiritual battle are blind fools not worth my time or precious energy.
So I remain a screaming mama now and then and if others take issue with that, F ’em. They aren’t my tribe. Wondering if I even have one here.
Enjoy this video. Somewhere – my girl and I are being seen/heard and there is some plan in the works in the ether/Universe to step in and up and help pull us up and out.
Sending lots of love to you and your family V. That’s all I can do at the moment 💙💜❤️🧡💚
t/y. 🙂