What a long night.
Again.
We did our intentions and protections.
At one point, I took out my scripting book and wrote out my intentions – over and over – on top of one another (it was still dark) – angrily. I’m doing my damndest to be in that inner state of peace – makes it challenging not just with the $$ fears/b.s./challenge – add in lack of sleep………..
I keep receiving emails from the power company lords – wondering why my usage jumped (we went from temps of 60/45 to 40/22) and offering all sorts of help (which would cost me at the outlay) – assuming I’m a homeowner and assuming I have the funds for solar panels and efficient heating systems. Morons – I am a $truggling renter who uses f’ing space heaters.
Walk in my shoes.
Why don’t more people do that?
Why don’t we ask others what they need?
Why do we assume and offer up advice?
What is wrong with humanity?
The epidemic of homeless people is a sign we have lost our ability to unite and care enough to TRULY HELP. We have let the matrix dictate who deserves abundance and who doesn’t.
Humanity often pushes you right back into the very system with advice that doesn’t work – the very system that more or less, created your challenges to begin with.
“I got mine – go get yours”.
“You made your bed – now lay in it”.
You got yours? I want some of it. lol
Abundance.
Living your cushy life.
Not that they didn’t work hard for it.
Well guess what? I’ve worked hard too. And simply because I made different choices, which lead to some issues in which I am busting my hiney to heal and change, doesn’t mean I am less deserving. My heart – all along – has always been focused on being kind and seeking the truth and speaking out for those who can’t or lost the ability – or energy – to speak out.
Speaking with someone recently, who said that while he was in the way of himself and it took awhile for him to see that, if it weren’t for the generous support of others as well as the current housing situation which isn’t costing him a penny (subsidized), he would be homeless. EVERYONE is deserving. of. such. love in action.
Healing is not a journey of isolation.
That concept got lost – somewhere. Somehow.
But it’s still an energy from the heart that never fades away.
And it is that energy I seek – and will continue to seek – reaching out the way I continue to do.
One day – soon – I hit the intended target and take those next steps.
Love,
V.
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